“Let’s call it a night. We have a big day tomorrow picking up the keys to our new office and getting things set up,” Cyrus said as we headed back to our hotel rooms.
“Sounds good. See you tomorrow.” I entered my room and for a moment, I just stood in the middle of the room as the situation in my life crashed around me. I was home. April was up the street working as a waitress. A part of me wanted to run back to the restaurant and fight for the life we’d once planned.
“Dumbass,” I said to myself. I wasn’t a young idealist kid who was in deep love for the first time anymore. I was a fucking Navy SEAL. I’d faced insurgents, took out terrorists. I was too strong to let my past color my present.
I undressed and got into bed realizing that SEAL or not, I couldn’t keep images of April out of my head. I hadn’t been able to do it over the last eight years, I didn’t know why now would be different.
The thing that really fucked my brain over was the idea that she was it for me. In the last eight years, I’d met other women, but none had affected me like April. I was worried that I’d never get over her. It would be unfair to be with another woman while April was seeped into my psyche. I’d given her my heart, and even when she gave it back, a part of her was still in it.
Fuck! I rolled over, begging sleep to come, knowing that when it did, it would probably involve her. As I lay in the dark, images of the day she seduced me flashed in my brain.
The day she opened the door wearing that pretty summer dress that accentuated all her womanly curves and told me her parents and August weren’t there, my first instinct was to run like hell. But then she invited me in, and I couldn’t say no. I couldn’t say no to the beer. And when she told me that she was a virgin, my dick twitched despite my attempt to tell it to calm down. Then she asked me to take her v-card, and what else could I do? Oh, I tried to say no, but I wanted her so bad. I wanted to touch those luscious curves. I wanted to feel her tight pussy around my cock. It was wrong, and yet, it also felt so fucking right.
When she touched my dick, I knew then that I’d have her, even though at first, I tried to scare her off. She didn’t want to go to college as a virgin, which I understood, but I was sure she had some fairy tale imagine of sex in her head, so the first thing I did was go down on her pussy. It was a mistake for so many reasons. For one, she tasted delicious. I could have spent hours eating her out. Second, she wasn’t scared or repulsed by it.
“You can do anything to me,” she’d said against my lips. “Anything you want.”
Fuck, just thinking about that now made my dick hard. Back then, as a twenty-one-year-old horny kid, I damn near came right then. She was giving into sensations, giving into me, and so I gave in too.
As the memory of that moment came back to me, I slid my boxer-briefs off and gripped my dick, ready to relive the moment.
I’d moved down her body, my fingers opening her soft wet pussy. “Have you ever had an orgasm, April?”
“Only when touching myself and thinking of you.”
Jesus, fucking hell…she got off thinking of me? I hoped to hell the real thing was better, I thought, as I licked and sucked and thrust inside her pussy with my tongue.
“Oh God, Jude…oh God… Oh God…”
Her pussy juice filled my mouth and all I could think about was needing to be inside her.
I couldn’t get my pants off fast enough. Finally, I was positioned between her legs, my hands shaking as I gripped her hips. “Are you sure about this, April?”
“Yes. Yes, fuck me, Jude. I want you.”
When she said to fuck her, I nearly thrust in, giving into the need clawing under my skin. But then I remembered that she was a virgin. She was trusting me with her body, and to make this good for her.
I swore, and readjusted so that I could take things slow. I made a silent prayer that I’d be able to do this without hurting her.
“I don’t want to hurt you, but I probably will.”
“I don’t care. I want to feel you inside me.”
I squeezed my eyes shut, and put my dick at her entrance, pushing until my tip was just inside her. She was wet and hot, and I had to bite my lip to keep from plunging inside.
“More.” She gripped my ass, pulling me to her.
“Fuck…you’re tight…” Little blasts of light were firing in my brain, as I pushed in a little bit more, then withdrew and pushed in again, repeating until I hit her barrier. “This may hurt.” I didn’t want to cause her pain, but my dick was a
bout to come out of its skin if I didn’t give in soon.
“I don’t care.”
I withdrew, and then in one forceful thrust, I plunged in.
She gasped, her fingers digging in my ass.
“Are you okay?” I asked barely holding on to the tether of my control.