Lorelai’s shop.
I want to swear out loud. No wonder the neighborhood looked so familiar. There are a few people standing outside.
Thankfully it's no one I know. I need to hurry up and get out of here before I'm recognized. I was pretty popular on the auction circuit, so being recognized is highly likely, in any size town.
I knew I shouldn't have come here tonight. What are the odds that the auction would be hosted at this location? I turn to walk away before I'm noticed, but a loud voice from behind me squeals: "Oh my gosh, it's you!"
I turn around, startled as a woman rushes at me and wraps her arms around me. I try to wriggle out of her unwelcome hug. It takes me a few seconds to recognize her as an old fling, although her name still eludes me. "Oh, yeah, but I have to leave."
I try to walk away, not wanting to get involved in this. I feel nothing but horror and revulsion as I stand here. It's bizarre, feeling this way. Something new that I will have to deal with, I guess. I should be used to that by now. Nothing in my world makes sense anymore, no matter how much I want it to.
"Oh no you don't! Come join the fun!" She exclaims in her obnoxious, high-pitched voice.
I try to pull away but she grasps my hand firmly and pulls me into the line of people going into the auction. They must have advertised this one well, because there are a lot more people here. We join the crowd on the inside. This woman keeps chattering away at me, and my stomach turns at every word she is saying. "I had so much fun with you at that auction a few months back. Do you remember?"
Uh oh, I have a sinking feeling in my gut as she talks.
I try to ignore her. I'm nervous as I look around the shop. There is quite a crowd so I should blend in, at least until I can make my escape. The woman tries to recapture my attention by putting an arm around me and saying, "I hope you'll be bidding tonight. I'm looking forward to playing with you again." Her words make me feel sick to my stomach, despite her attempt to be seductive.
I don’t have time to process that now, though. All I know is that I need to leave as soon as possible.
I try to get out of her reach again. I want nothing more than to be away from here right now. Usually I'd be thrilled to have something like this happen. It's obvious this woman is more than ready. All it would take is a few quick words from me and I could slip out with her for a quick fuck.
Why does that thought make me queasy? It would be so easy to do it, to just get it all out of my system right now. That is what I came here for after all.
I feel like my head is spinning at all these different thoughts. I need some air.
As she keeps talking about the things we can do, the strangest thing is happening. I feel no arousal at all. To be perfectly honest, I feel kind of sickened by the thought of doing anything with this woman. Though it’s nothing personal, I’m sure she and I had had a fine time.
I’m more shocked and confused than ever before. I'm so wrapped up in my thoughts that I forgot she was still hanging onto me. I look around the crowd, and that's when I spot her. Lorelai.
My heart stops when I see her across the room. Our eyes lock. She looks just as beautiful, maybe more so than I remember. I'm frozen to the spot, unable to look away from her mesmerizing eyes. I see hurt etched on her face, for a second I’m confused.
It's then that I remember the woman with her arms around me. I roughly pull myself away from her. "Hey!" She exclaims in surprise and anger.
But I don't have time to deal with her. I need to go after Lorelai to explain
"Where are you going?" she asks, catching my elbow again.
I try to wrestle free, but by the time I turn around, Lorelai has disappeared into the crowd. I feel shock and shame mix in the pit of my stomach. I glare angrily at the woman who backs off instantly. "What's your problem?" she snaps.
I’m too angry to speak, I just roll my eyes at her and stalk off in the direction of the men's room. I don't need to use it, I just desperately need some space.
Once I'm in there I splash cold water on my face and give myself a long hard look in the mirror. I didn't even bother to check before, but the bathroom is empty. Fortunate. I need to be alone right now.