I look over the weather reports and nod, satisfied. “You can take us out of the harbor,” I tell him, starting to leave again. “Drop anchor about a mile out, and we’ll wait for Mr. Crist.”
“Yes, Ms. Fane.”
I leave the papers for them and start to exit the bridge, but I stop, staring out the port-side window and seeing the stewards carrying a couple of suitcases on board. Someone else has arrived. A light layer of sweat cools my back and my stomach knots, but I know it’s not Michael. He won’t be in from Seattle for a couple hours.
Heading out, I descend the stairs to the owner’s deck again, and make my way through the sitting area. I stop and pick a few pieces of prosciutto and cheese off the platter and stuff a slice of meat into my mouth.
I walk out to the sun deck, the dying light behind us, and see Damon standing at the edge of the boat looking down at the darkening water.
His eyebrows are pinched, and I cup my food in my hand, leaning against a column and watch him as I chew. The last time I stood where he stands, Will was in the water with a cinderblock tied to his ankle and Trevor was trying to kill me. Will and I were almost lost that night.
“Sometimes,” Damon says, breaking the silence. “I let my mind wander enough, and it always comes back here.”
He breathes hard, staring at the water as I stick a cube of cheese in my mouth.
“Except Michael doesn’t catch him, and you never come up.”
He turns and sits on the ledge, sliding his hands into his pockets and our eyes meet.
I see our mother in him now. A lot.
I didn’t before. The way his eyes go big and round, and it takes a moment to be sure whether or not they’re happily surprised or pissed off. The way he says what he wants and doesn’t like to lie. The way they both hate being alone.
What an amazing thing time is. Three years ago, I thought I was going to die on this boat, him the last person I saw or talked to. I’d never been more scared.
Now, there’s hardly a day that goes by where I don’t speak to him or need him.
“You know…” I approach him.
He lifts his head, listening.
But I don’t continue. I take a breath, let out a sigh, and…shoot out, shoving him hard in the chest.
His eyes go big, he flails, and the next thing I know, he’s lost his footing and tips over the side of the yacht.
“Shit! Fuck!” rings out as he plummets.
His body hits the water ten feet down, a big splash as he disappears under the surface.
I stare down and pop another cold cut into my mouth, chewing. Did he land on his shoulder? How do you land on your frickin’ shoulder?
He pops up through the surface, splashing and sputtering as he pushes his hair back over his head and glares up at me. I fight not to smile.
Water hangs on his eyelashes and lips, and I’ve never seen two more pissed-off eyebrows. “You little shit!” he bellows.
“Okay, yes, that was harsh. I admit it,” I tell him, teasing. “But it was only fair. I almost died that night, Damon.”
“Get your ass in here, and I’ll show you what death looks like!”
“Are you crazy?” I pick up another piece of cheese. “That water’s really cold.”
He growls and swims for the back of the boat, and I finally let myself laugh as I grab a towel for him. He looks so vulnerable.
Walking down the stairs, I watch as he hops up onto the back of the yacht and stands up, his white dress shirt and black pants sticking to his body.
But his hair looks good.
I bite back my smile and hold out the towel.