But the sheikh went on as if he no longer…he no longer cared about me. “It is always better for a child to grow up in a stable home, with both parents present. Better but not necessary, and now that I know about the boy—-”
“Will you please stop fucking talking about Johnny,” I choked out, “and just tell me what the fuck’s going on? You love me—-” A pained expression flitted over the sheikh’s handsome face, and I could no longer speak.
“Have I ever said it?”
“N-No, but it’s because—-”
“Because I don’t,” he said softly.
I stared at him.
“And to tell you the truth, habibti…it had been getting a little exhausting, pretending to be a devoted lover when all I truly wanted from this contract was a heir to put an end to my father’s nagging.”
I just kept staring at him.
“Admittedly, it had been fun at first, and when I found out about Dahlia, I confess it made me feel rather protective towards you. But after a while…” The sheikh’s shoulders lifted in a careless shrug. “In any case, I do believe the boy will soon leave your sister, and once you give me my heir…” He made a rather vague gesture of dismissal, and it almost felt as if he was symbolically throwing me out of his life. “You shall be free to do whoever you want.”
Asshole, I thought. He was such a fucking asshole, and I should never have let myself forget that.
Dark eyes touched mine, probably for the last time, and all I could do…all I could do was just fucking stare at him.
Because this time, I knew I was crying.
This time, I needed it to be like before, needed him to wipe my tears away the way he always did.
But nothing happened, and that was when I knew.
It’s different now, I thought dully.
I used to think that only Dahlia could fuck me over, but I was wrong.
I watched the sheikh leave, and I was glad.
Even as the tears continued to fall, I was glad to see him gone.
It hurt less, you see, not seeing the man who was the cause of the agonizing shame that was ripping me apart.
I really believed he was in love with me, too, and yet all that time…
God.
For hours I simply sat there, unable to think. It hurt. It just hurt too much to do anything else but let the tears fall silently, and it was only when I absently ran my fingers over my tummy…
Ah.
A laugh escaped me, but this quickly turned into a sob. I had actually forgotten for a moment that I was pregnant.
Sorry, little bun.
I thought, so foolishly thought the three of us could be happy.
Now, it was just the two of us.
But I would make it work.
I’d keep my little bun safe and loved, no matter what, and that could never happen if I was still here, surrounded by so many memories that were no longer beautiful. If I let myself stay here a second longer, I might end up endangering my little one, and the thought was enough to get me off my ass. Before I knew it, I was already in the airport and paying for a one-way ticket to Kivr. Once there, I took a cab straight to the royal palace, and after introducing myself to the guards as the mother of Sheikh Raj’s unborn child, I asked them if they could please ask Princess Ella if she was willing to meet me.
I was shown to a grand-looking drawing room, and barely a minute had passed when a woman about my age came, and I found myself thinking—-the sheikh was right.
She did have a rebellious look to her, and just like that…
Just thinking about him—-
My face started to crumple.
“Oh no,” I heard Ella whisper.
A moment later, and she was quickly pulling me into her arms, and I found myself bawling like a kid.
“What’s that jerk done to you?”
Your wife’s here.
But don’t think of visiting just yet. The mood Ella is in, she might just have you banned from entering our kingdom.
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Chapter Nineteen
It was midnight when the sheikh called, and I forced myself to answer, not wanting him to think that I was so hurt I could no longer bear the sound of his voice.
“How very clever of you to choose that place to run away from me.”
“I’m not running away from you,” I said quietly. “I just need some time and space on my own.”
“But how long will you be on your own, I wonder? Dahlia was at the apartment earlier, sobbing her heart out.”
“I supposed you wiped her tears?”
“Of course.”
I sucked my breath. “I see.”
There was a pause, and when the sheikh spoke again, I could practically hear him frowning through his voice. “Is that supposed to mean something?”
“I was just thinking about how you used to wipe my tears, too…until last night.”