I shook my head again. “You could be a serial killer. The less information I give you, the less chance of you finding me to serial kill me.”
Ty chuckled and as our eyes locked, I didn’t feel the sizzle I should have. I was too busy wondering if Jake had noticed I was talking to this guy or if he was too busy getting his flirt on with the beautiful brunette to give a shit what I was up to.
“Ah, suspicious and overly cautious. Let me guess—law student.”
Wow, impressive. “You’ve really honed those people-reading skills bartenders are known for, huh.”
“That or I’m psychic.” He glanced behind me. “For instance, you were or are in a relationship with the tall guy in the Pearl Jam T-shirt over by the pool table.”
My muscles tensed. “Is he looking over?”
“Mmm-hmm. And attempting to fry my ass with his eyes.”
“Where’s the gorgeous girl in the cowboy boots?”
“Leanne?” he smirked. “Your friend stopped talking to her the minute he saw me talking to you.”
I sat on that a moment and then sighed. “Ex-boyfriend. Awkward road trip.”
Ty met my eyes again. “He looks pretty furious. But I’m up for pissing him off even more if you like.” His eyes lowered to my lips.
With a dry chuckle, I said, “As much as I love the idea of kissing a random bartender, especially a cute one, I’m the one who broke his heart so I don’t think I’ll be doing anything to hurt him any more than I already have.”
Ty gave me a good-natured smile as he straightened up away from the counter. “Well, if you change your mind, I get off at one.”
My expression said we both knew I wasn’t going to be there when he got off work and then I slipped from the stool and braced myself to return to my friends.
As soon as I saw Jake’s face, I knew Ty was right.
He was furious.
And hurt.
I suddenly felt sick again.
My eyes flew to Claudia and Beck and I flinched at the uneasiness pouring off them. Thankfully, there was no recrimination in their faces—it wouldn’t be fair for them to be angry at me for talking with the bartender when Jake had been flirting with cowboy-boots girl.
Speaking of… I glanced around the bar until I found the brunette over by the jukebox with a few friends. Her gaze was locked on Jake. I only just managed not to curl my lip into a growl of territorialism.
“Who’s winning?” I attempted to ask nonchalantly as I stopped beside Jake at the pool table.
“Seriously?” he snapped.
When I wouldn’t look at him, Jake crowded me against the table so I had no choice but to acknowledge him. I stared up at him, my face perfectly blank so he wouldn’t realize how off balance he was making me.
“What are you trying to do to me?” he said, anguished.
“Jake, man,” I heard Beck say softly. “Maybe this should wait.”
“I’m sick and tired of waiting,” he said. He gently took hold of my arm and started to pull me away from the table. “We need to talk.”
“Jake.” I tugged out of his hold, drawing us to a standstill. He glowered back at me and I returned the look. “Don’t you dare try to haul me out of here.”
“We’re going to hash this shit out once and for all and if I have to throw you over my shoulders, I will.”
“Is there a problem here?”
Oh shit.
Ty had come out from behind the bar and now we had an audience.
Jake stood in front of me, blocking Ty’s view. “This is none of your business. She is none of your business.”
“Jake.” I tugged on his shirt, outraged by this behavior. “Stop acting like a Neanderthal.”
“I’m pissed off,” he snarled, looking over his shoulder at me with fire in his eyes.
“Well, I’m pissed off too!” I yelled back.
“Maybe you could take being pissed off outside,” Ty suggested.
“No problem,” Jake said as he grabbed my hand and dragged me toward the exit.
I let him because by now, I was uncomfortable with the audience and I also didn’t want witnesses when I murdered him. “What the hell are you doing?” I said as soon as we were out the door. I vaguely noted that Claudia and Beck didn’t follow.
“What am I doing?” Jake drew to a sudden stop, turning around on me. “What the hell are you doing?”
Before I could answer he started walking again, refusing to let me go. We both seethed as we marched the five-minute walk back to the motel. Jake let us into his and Beck’s room and I wrenched my hand away.
“This is ridiculous,” I huffed. “We’re acting like five-year-olds.”
Jake slammed the door shut. “I’m not the one flirting with a freaking bartender.”
“Hah! No, you’re just the one,” I stabbed a finger at him, “flirting with boots with all her hair and tan skin.”
Jake looked confused for a moment and then his expression turned grim. “That’s what this is about? I was talking to that girl? She was flirting with me. I didn’t encourage it. But you saw what you wanted to see, didn’t you, Charley. So you decided to flirt with the bartender to get back at me. Very mature.”
“Mature? We’re talking about maturity? You just blew up at me in a bar for talking to another guy.”
“I’m not the one who broke things off!” he yelled, his chest heaving as he grew breathless with anger. “I get to flirt with other girls. But I haven’t! I haven’t touched a single girl since you left me because I can’t let you go! And I f**king hate you for it, Charley!”
I flinched, unbearable pain radiating from my chest—it was like he’d punched his fist through it.
“But do you know what I hate more?” he said quietly now, his voice hoarse.
I shook my head, battling the tears that were fighting to fill my eyes.
“I hate how much I still need you,” he whispered.
I didn’t know which one of us moved first.
One minute I was standing by the door and the next I was in Jake’s arms as he crushed his mouth down over mine.
I also don’t know what happened to me in that moment. For months I felt like my life had been suspended—I wasn’t moving in any direction. Moreover, I was struggling with the constant confusion and my mixed-up heart and emotions over the choices I’d made. Giving into Jake may have been wrong but just then, it was a choice I understood, it was a choice that felt good, simple…
More than that, I felt alive again.
We undressed one another, frantic, desperate… our movements hurried with frustration and longing. We didn’t take our time at all. We were na**d and then we were on the bed and then Jake was inside me.
Together we came hard and fast.
And I didn’t have time to regret it because Jake pulled me back under the spell I’d let us cast over ourselves. He kissed me slow, leisurely, tasting me as if he’d never get the chance again. I kissed him back just as deeply, holding onto him for dear life, my fingers curled in his thick, dark hair that was longer now since the last time I’d touched it.
Jake kissed his way from my lips, across my jaw, down my neck…
I sighed, feeling the heat build inside me again as his lips touched me everywhere. When his lips wrapped around my nipple, I gasped, arching into him. He licked my nipple, coaxing it into a tight bud while he stroked his thumb over my other one.
Delicious pressure was building between my legs.
“Jake,” I gasped, my breathing shallow as the heat flooded my entire body.
He took his time—butterfly kisses down my stomach, fingertips gently stroking my breasts, across my ribs, as he moved down.
Jake looked up at me from under his lashes and I felt another insistent tug at my core. “Do you want my mouth?”
My breath hitched and I moved my legs apart. “Always,” I whispered before the insistent voice in the back of my head could stop me—could stop any of this.
At the first touch of his tongue, I nearly came off the bed. It felt like years since we’d last had this. I parted my legs even wider, my pants increasing in volume as Jake licked me, played me, until the pressure inside me was close to exploding.
And then he sucked on my cl*tand I split apart.
I shuddered through my orgasm as Jake crawled back over me, his hands braced on either side of my head, his eyes searing into mine… He pushed inside me and I cried out at the sensation. He groaned deep in his throat as my inner muscles tightened around him and he began to thrust, slow, deep, and I felt the tension inside me start to build again. My fingers dug into his biceps as he strained over me and I arched under him, moving in rhythm against this new seduction.
He wanted me to come again before he did.
Sweat slickened both our bodies and Jake’s muscles strained with his effort to stay his own orgasm.
Unconsciously, I dragged my nails down his arms as my cl**ax approached. I stiffened and felt Jake’s thrusts speed up, his grunts of pleasure echoing in my ears and finally piercing through the tension.
I cried out, my eyes rolling in a flutter as the intensity of this washed over me.
“Jesus… fuck…” Jake’s words were guttural as I felt him stiffen. And then his h*ps jerked against mine as he came inside me.
His weight pinned me to the bed as he collapsed. I stroked his hair with one hand while the other stroked his sweat-dampened skin.
Slowly the power of our longing diminished enough for reality to sink in.
My hands stilled.
Jake tensed and then slowly lifted his head to look down into my eyes. “You’re going to tell me this was a mistake, aren’t you?” he said grimly.
Chapter Sixteen
I don’t really remember how Jake and my friends got me out of the restaurant. Or how I got packed. Or how I ended up on a plane sandwiched between Jake and Claudia. It was like the world around me faded out, just a blur of color. There was no room inside me to concentrate on anything but getting to my sister and hoping I’d get to her in time.
Claudia would tell me later when I asked for him that Jake went home to his parents rather than come to the hospital because he didn’t want to upset my family any more than they already were. I didn’t remember that. All I remembered was rushing into Northwestern Memorial, exhausted but somehow wired at the same time. It was a weird feeling. My body didn’t feel like mine. I felt like I was floating.
My parents and Rick greeted me, hugged me. I remembered it because their expressions were the first thing since hearing the news that brought me into the real world, into the reality of what we were dealing with. The bleakness in my parents’ eyes, the desperation in Rick’s… it had me pushing past them into the hospital room.
I’d stumbled, disbelieving the sight before me.
Andie lay there. She seemed frozen beneath the tubes and the ventilator. It was almost like it wasn’t her. It was just her body.
“What happened?” Claudia said.
Sick with fear, I stepped tentatively toward my sister.
“A taxi driver,” Rick said grimly. “Downtown. He had a heart attack at the wheel and crashed into the sidewalk. When he hit An—”
I grabbed for my sister’s hand. It was cool, limp.
“The impact threw her against a building,” Dad finished hoarsely when Rick couldn’t continue.
I could hear Claudia’s gasp and the choked sounds of crying.
The tears welled in my eyes as I stroked my sister’s hand and leaned over to whisper, “I’m sorry.”
“The doctors said we can only wait for her to come out of the coma but there’s a chance…” My mom’s tear-soaked words trailed off.
“There’s a chance she won’t wake up,” Dad bit out.
The pain and guilt poured out of me and I pressed my forehead against Andie’s. “I should have been there,” I whispered. I should have saved you. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry I haven’t been here.”
A buzzing sound infiltrated the darkness and I jerked awake. I blinked a few times against the harsh lighting, the blur across my vision fading to reveal my unconscious sister in her hospital bed and Rick on the other side of it, opposite me.
“Your phone,” he said quietly.
I yawned and followed the buzzing sound—my phone vibrating on the bedside table. I tried to focus on the screen. “It’s Jake,” I whispered.
“Yeah, he’s called a few times. You should call him back.”
I frowned at Rick. “How long have I been out?”
He shrugged. “You were out when I got here. That was a few hours ago.” His brows drew together in concern. “Charley, you should go back to our place with your parents. Get some sleep.”
I was never going to get any real sleep until Andie woke up.
Seven days.
Seven long days she’s laid in that bed, breathing through a ventilator.
“Charley.”
I looked up from my sister’s face to Rick’s haggard one.
“Go get some sleep.”
“I just slept.” I shook my head.
“Then call Jake back.”
Wondering if perhaps Rick really just wanted some time alone with my sister, I nodded and grabbed my phone. “Do you want a Starbucks?” I noted his cheekbones looked a little sharper. I wasn’t the only one losing weight. “Something to eat?”
“A coffee and a sandwich would be great.” He eyed me. “Get yourself something to eat too, before you fade away to nothing.”
I reluctantly agreed and strode out of my sister’s hospital room. For a little while, I found myself wandering aimlessly as I clutched my phone. After the first long few days following Andie’s accident, when she showed no signs of waking up, somehow I managed to convince Claudia and Jake to return to Edinburgh to finish up their exams. It was difficult to bring them around, but since Jake didn’t want to cause trouble by appearing at the hospital, there wasn’t a whole heck of a lot he could do. And Claudia… well, I just… my focus was on Andie and I wasn’t able to give any other part of myself to anyone, which included reassurances to Claud that I was okay.