I drop the spoons I have in my hand, and the clanging makes her look at me.
“You okay, dear?”
“You mean…he’s able to father children?”
She blushes. “These are awfully personal questions you’re asking a mother about her son’s…manliness.”
“I’m sorry. He thinks he can’t have kids. We talked about it.”
She clutches her chest. “He told me he went to the specialist last year. And that everything was fine.”
This piece of information sets the room off balance for me. There are so many holes, but I can’t press Grams for info or explain why I’m melting down.
Ewan comes through the kitchen door, talking on his phone. He greets me with a tight smile and a nod to his mother.
She smiles back at him. “That pot roast isn’t going to cook itself. I need to get it prepared and in the oven.”
When she leaves, I stand up and barrel toward Ewan.
“Balor, I’ll call you back,” he says with our eyes locked. “What’s got your knickers in a twist?
I smile and grab his balls.
He drops his phone and pushes on my hands, a shriek ripping from his throat.
“Shhh,” I whisper. “Don’t worry, it’s not like I’m damaging anything.”
“Wrong. Cocks can break.”
“It’s not your cock I’m clutched on, is it?”
We stare for a minute, and with his hands on my arms, he leans in. “Let go of my nut sack, please.”
We’re pressed together, and I feel his cock harden. “Are you sure you want that?”
“What’s gotten into you?”
Not your cock… God, I want him inside me again. “Your mum just said you can have children.”
“What?”
“Aye, you told her you saw a specialist last year and got a clean bill of health.”
He grunts and squeezes my wrist, forcing me to let go. “I never went to her shite specialist. There’s no point.”
“You’ve been lying all this time?”
“To her? Yes. So she wouldn’t worry.”
I step back, confused. “She said… She said a doctor told her you’d get better.”
“She hears what she wants.”
“Or you do.” I catch my breath. “What if the doctor did tell your mum that?”
He backs up toward the window. “How did this even come up?”
Before I can answer, his phone rings again, and I look down to see the screen.