She gives a little giggle that I can feel in my chest and slaps my arm, telling me I’m crazy but stays right where she is. It’s not long before I drift off into a deep satisfied sleep.
Chapter Twelve
Bianca
The campus is filled with students celebrating the end of another semester. They’re everywhere I look, chatting with friends, playing Frisbee in the quad, or simply sitting under a tree and reading.
I smile to myself as I make my way towards the dorms, breathing in the sweet spring air. I haven’t even been in Seattle a year yet, but it already feels like home.
Not only is it the end of the Spring semester but I’ll also be introducing my boyfriend to my dad tonight. I’m nervous because he’s the only guy I’ve ever introduced to either of my parents.
Chris is handsome and popular, girls always stare at me with envious looks when we’re out together, but I know he’s all mine. In fact, last week we said I love you to each other for the first time. I was over the moon that he felt the same way about me that I did about him. It was only then that I told him my most tightly guarded secret. Not even my best friends, Hollieand Violet, know what I shared with him that night. When he told me it was fine, it didn’t matter or change how he felt about me, my heart soared.
Yes, he’s my first real adult boyfriend and everyone says young love never lasts but I have a good feeling about us. I can picture our future all laid out, going to school, graduating, getting our first place together. I’ll work on my art, and he’ll get a job at his father’s investment management firm. I can barely wait for our future to start.
When I make it to his dorm I slip inside as some other students are chatting loudly and leaving. My afternoon class let out early and I’m coming to surprise him with his favorite meatball sub from Hugo’s since he has one last final this afternoon.
When I reach the door to his room, I don’t even hesitate to push it open and step inside. But what I see freezes me. Chris is laying on his back and there’s a naked blonde writhing on top of him. Her head is tossed back and there’s an expression of pleasure on his face. Meanwhile, his hands are all over her tits and he’s grunting the name Ashley repeatedly. Neither one of them has noticed my entrance so they just continue on. It’s like I’m in a nightmare.
The heavy door behind me slams closed causing all three of us to jump. The girl grinding on Chris’s dick, Ashley I presume, lets out a shriek when she sees me and scrambles off the bed, frantically grabbing her clothes that are strewn across the floor, but my eyes are glued to my boyfriend. He doesn’t even look guilty, more like frustrated about being interrupted?
He grabs a pair of dirty jeans off the floor and slides them on before running his fingers through his hair in agitation. We’re staring silently at each other, neither one of us saying a word.
I think I’m in shock. I know when people find out their significant other’s been cheating on them that they say they never saw it coming and most of the time, I feel like that’s bullshit. There were always signs they just didn’t see, or maybe they just didn’t want to. But I honestly didn’t see this coming. He told me he loved me, we spend all our time together, he’s meeting my dad tonight for fuck’s sake.
It’s only the slam of the door behind me, indicating Ashley’s timely exit, that knocks me out of my funk.
“How could you?” My voice is low, calm, and steady, even surprising me. I’m not exactly known for my even temper.
“Come on, Bianca. This thing between us isn’t going to go anywhere. It’s not like we’re going to get married or anything. You can’t have kids, Bianca. You can’t exactly expect me to be exclusive when we don’t have a future.”
Those words are like a stab to my gut, and I have to make a conscious effort to keep my hands at my sides instead of curling around my middle protectively. I told him I couldn’t have kids, and he said it was fine. Now, he’s saying there’s no future for us? That it’s a reason for him to cheat on me?
“If you didn’t want to be with me, why didn’t you just break up with me?” I will not cry. I will not cry.
He lets out an impatient sigh like he’s explaining something to an idiot. “Just because this thing between us isn’t going to go anywhere doesn’t mean we can’t have a good time together. I mean, the sex is great, we’re young, there’s no reason we can’t get each other off.”
“So let me get this straight. We can fuck, but when you find someone that can have your children, you’re going to drop me and get serious with her?” That pain in my chest isn’t my heart breaking. It can’t be. It’s got to be indigestion.
“Don’t act like you’re surprised by this, Bianca. What guy is going to want to give up having a family for some girl he met when he was eighteen?”
“But I love you. If we decided we wanted to have kids in the future, we could always adopt.” I sound pathetic even to my own ears and I wish I could just stop talking. I told him the thing I was most scared about sharing. He acted like it wasn’t a big deal. Now…this.
He scoffs at me. “Don’t be so naive, no man wants to raise someone else’s kids when he can have his own.” Now his eyes are filled with pity as he looks at me. That, even more than the cheating, is what sends me over the edge.
“You want to be friends with benefits. That’s what you’re saying?”
My voice is shaking with rage, but he doesn’t notice. Figures. In fact, his eyes light up with lust. “Of course, I’ll still dick you down good.”
I almost laugh at that. “Dick me down good? Why don’t you go fuck yourself, Chris? That’s the only person you fuck well anyway. If you think I’m going to hang out with you just to perfect my fake orgasm performance you’re nuts.”
He looks genuinely shocked, of course he had no idea he could never get me off. I wanted him to feel good about himself, I was his girlfriend after all. Plus, I put on a good show.
“You’re just saying that because you’re mad, baby. You know I make you come harder than anyone else can.”
“How should I know, you’ve never made me come even once.”
His face turns scarlet with rage. Apparently I’ve hurt his male ego. Good.