“What’s wrong?”I asked him.
“I had a bad dream too.”He said solemnly.
“You should probably do some self-talk as well,” I laughed.“Go to sleep.You have a long day tomorrow.”
“The dream was that you left me.Just up and left without saying a word.”There was a sadness in his voice that I did not want to hear.
We were friends, and I couldn’t bear to deal with anything more complicated than that.Instead of addressing the dream, the bizarre correlation or the truth to it, I rose to my knees, took off my gown, and lay back down on the bed naked.
“Not leaving.”I swung open my leg inviting him in.“Actually, waiting for you to come back to bed.Make my dream go away.”
He remained there for a moment longer, then Chris moved towards me and lost his briefs on the way to the bed.His mouth made a trail up my body until he reached my mouth and then the man entered me in a non-lazy Sunday way.Wrapping my legs and arms around him, I held on as he powered through whatever he needed to get off of his chest.If I didn’t know any better, I would have thought he was trying to make good and damn well I did not leave.
Chris didn’t say anything, just continued until I released and then he finally let go.He was an excellent lover that way.Not selfish and always made sure I got mine like I made sure he got his.
“You’re making breakfast tomorrow.”He said as his hard body hit the bed beside me.“You done wore this man completely out.”
I laughed while Chris tucked me under his arm like he always did.My eyes didn’t stay open for long, but I had forgotten about my earlier pre-panic attack until the next one came, almost one month later.
6
No Dating
One month later
If I had to be honest, life was good for me.I had not one complaint and on top of that, Alexus told me that Devin had just proposed to her.I was so proud of her and him but mostly her.When she first came toHeart Alliance, she was broken.I mean, there was something that really needed to be fixed internally and my girl worked hard at it.In more ways than one and that was one reason I knew her and I would be great friends.I always tried to surround myself around people that were successful because I was.It was true that I hadn’t conquered my own issues, but hey, I was working on it.
I realized for once I wasn’t in a rush to do anything in particular besides browse the stores in the mall, located downtown.It wasn’t one that I frequented, but I wanted to find something sexy for Chris, since he lost the bet about what would happen after Cersei’s killed everyone with the wildfire.His penance was he had to cook dinner for me for two weeks.It was the end of the second week, so I wanted to reward him with something sexy and cute.
The lingerie was easy, but the shoes had to be just right.As I went through a few rows of shoes, I found the perfect pair but they did not have my size.Who didn’t have a size seven shoe?It was the basic of basic on the number system of shoes.I saw a set of pink boots that I absolutely had to have and honestly those just may do the trick.My purse vibrated, then I retrieved my phone and saw it was Chris.
“Hey,” I said but couldn’t help the smile that morphed without my consent.
“Princess, hey.Where are you?”He asked with an excited but cautionary tone.
“At the mall.Downtown, why?”I asked.“What’s wrong?”
There was a pause, then he said, “Nothing.Nothing.Uh…”
“Hello?”I asked.
There were some hushed tones in the background, and I could hear a woman’s voice.She had a tone of authority, but it was still a woman.
“Yeah, I’m sorry.”Chris interjected again.“Uh, I have to go to the Poconos next weekend for my job.”
“Okay, that should be nice.”I told him.
“Come with me.”He said in a matter-of-factly tone.“It can be a mini-vacation.”
Wait, what?Why was he asking me about this over the phone?
“Ur, I’m not sure about that, Chris.”I answered.“You know …”
“Princess,” he sighed.“Just come with me.It’s no different than what we do here.Just in the Poconos with Jacuzzis, skies and that shit.”
“I’ll think about it,” I answered him.
The man was good, but it seemed random that he would ask me about this over the phone.There was something going on with him but I’d find out tonight.