I nod nervously and tuck a strand of hair behind my ear.
Amy smiles at me, a look of understanding in her eyes. “You’ll be fine, Alanna. Every person on this team was handpicked by the boss.”
That’s exactly what I’m afraid of. What motive does Silas have for accepting me onto this team? Was it truly because I passed his test? Could it be that simple?
“Follow me,” Amy says. “Mr. Sinclair told me to bring you to his office once we finished up with all the admin and onboarding.”
Oh no.No, no no.Before I can even think of an excuse, she’s knocking on Silas’s door. Amy grins as she opens the door, not realizing that I’m mentally losing it. I don’t think I’ve ever wanted to sink through the floor more than I do in this moment, yet I try my hardest to paste on a poker face as I follow her in.
Silas looks up from the papers on his desk, and I pause in the middle of his office. Damn it. Why does he have to look so good in that suit? This man is the devil. That look in his eyes instantly transports me back to the night we shared, and a shiver runs down my spine.
“Alanna.” The way he says my name has my heart skipping a beat. He’s a danger to my sanity.
“Mr. Sinclair.”
He smirks and glances at Amy. “I need that report I requested a bit sooner than expected. Do you think you could start working on it right now?”
She glances at me briefly before nodding. “Of course, boss.”
No, don’t leave,I silently beg, but she merely smiles and walks away.
I’m unsure how to behave, unsure what to say. When I headed to work this morning, I was so sure I’d be able to keep it together, but now that I’m standing in front of him, I’m nervous and scared. I have no doubt my cheeks are bright red, too.
“Alanna.”
I look up at him and swallow hard as I square my shoulders. I still remember the way he looked at me in the mirror as he pushed into me. I remember the way his lips felt against mine, and even worse… I want another taste of him.
“Mr. Sinclair,” I mutter, my voice lacking the confidence I tried to inject in it.
He chuckles and shakes his head. “Call me Silas, like you did last weekend.”
My eyes widen, and I shake my head. “I can’t. We never should’ve… can we please just forget that even happened?Please.”
“You regret sleeping with me?” His tone is harsh, and when my eyes meet his, all I see is anger in his gaze.
“Don’t you? I’m your brother’s ex. It never should’ve happened.”
“Alanna, even if I wanted to, I’m not going to forget about the way your lips felt around my cock or the way you moaned my name. You were hungry for my cock, baby, and you know it. That pussy of yours is the best I’ve ever had, and I won’t pretend otherwise.”
I stare at him in shock, my cheeks blazing. “It was barely memorable,” I lie. “I’ve had better.”
Silas sits up, his eyes flashing with anger. He looks away, but not before I catch a hint of agony in his gaze. It hits me straight in the chest and makes me wish I could take my words back.
“I see,” he says simply. “It looks like I’m the only one who was affected then, huh? Very well. I read too much into it, clearly. As you wish, I’ll pretend nothing happened. You’ll be working directly with me, after all.”
I nod, but I feel oddly defeated, even though I got exactly what I wanted. I watch Silas as he runs a hand through his hair and sighs. He looks…hurt, and my own heart aches in response.
“Has Amy informed you about our mentorship programme?”
I nod, unable to face him.
“Congratulations,” he says drily. “You’ll be my mentee from today onwards, meaning you’ll be shadowing me closely. I’ll be overseeing your training myself, and I’m far stricter than most of our other mentors. I expect you to be at your best, every single day. Fail to meet my standards, and you can kiss your job goodbye.”
I tense and narrow my eyes at him, my earlier remorse fading away. “Did you become my mentor so you could find a way to get rid of me? I promise you that I won’t let my personal life interfere with work, so there’s no need for you to worry. I’m not going to give you a chance to fire me. This job is everything I’ve ever wanted, and I won’t let you down, no matter what you throw at me.”
He stares at me for a moment, his eyes moving over my face. “You think you have what it takes to be part of the Ψ division?”
My confident smile wavers for a moment. I don’t think I’m worthy of being here, but now that Iamhere, I’m going to fight to maintain my place. This is my dream job, and I won’t let him sabotage it for me. “I do, and I’ll prove it to you.”