She stepped in closer to him. Close enough that she could feel the warmth of him, though they were not touching; she raised her hand, and he raised his so that they stood with their palms facing each other, separated by an inch of cold winter air. He curved his other arm around her waist, careful not to make contact, not to even brush her skin.
She turned her face up to his. She could have raised herself up on her toes and kissed his mouth. Instead she caught his gaze with her own. Their eyes held each other’s, as their bodies could not, and together they began to dance. There on the balcony, under the stars, with the rooftops of London the only witnesses. And though Lucie could not touch him, Jesse’s presence warmed her, surrounded her, calmed her. She felt a pressure in her throat: Why had no one ever told her how close happiness was to tears?
And then there was a crash, a sound like a chandelier falling to burst apart in fragments upon the floor. And from inside the ballroom, a scream.
Cordelia’s hands were wet with tears.
She had lingered in the games room as long as she could after Matthew left. She had been aware she was crying—making hardly any noise at all, but the hot tears kept coming, spilling down her cheeks, spotting the silk of her dress.
Hurting Matthew had been one of the hardest things she had ever done. She wished she had been able to make him understand that she did not regret their time in Paris, that much of what had happened was good, even wonderful. That Matthew had taught her that there was life for her even if she were not a Shadowhunter. That even in the darkest moments, humor and light could shine through.
Part of her wanted to run after him and take it all back, but then they would only be exactly where they were before. She had told him the truth. She had been honest when she’d said she didn’t know what she would do about James.
But the necklace. The necklace had changed things. She touched it now, with damp fingers. Realized there were no longer hot drops of salt water splashing onto her collarbone. There was only so long she could hide in here; Anna and Ari would come looking for her, as would Alastair. With a quick glance in the mirror over the fireplace, she tucked her hair into place and returned to the ballroom.
She scanned the room quickly—if she had been worried that anyone would have noticed her disappearance with Matthew, it seemed not—before realizing who she was looking for. Lucie. Who she did not see anywhere, or Jesse, but even if Lucie had been there, Cordelia could not simply have gone to her for comfort. Things were too complicated for that.
The party was a torrent of color and brightness and warmth, and then the sound of breaking glass tore through it all.
She remembered the loud crash at her wedding when her father had crumpled drunkenly to the floor, knocking over plates and dishes as he fell, and thought, Someone has broken something.
And then came the scream. An awful, heartrending scream. A flash of movements. The crash of instruments as the musicians fled their small stage; the twang of a violin string breaking. A scramble as Shadowhunters retreated from the dance floor, some reaching for weapons, though most would have come unarmed.
The blade of a sharp, familiar voice, cutting through the noise and motion like a knife.
“STOP,” Tatiana Blackthorn cried. She stood atop the stage, wearing a faded, bloodstained dress, her hair wild, a bundle cradled against her chest. Her voice carried as if supernaturally amplified. “You will stop this instant—stop moving, stop speaking, and drop every weapon—or the child dies.”
By the Angel. The bundle was a child. The scream had been Cecily Lightwood’s. Gripped in Tatiana’s arms was tiny Alexander Lightwood, his blue velvet suit crumpled, a sharp silver blade at his throat.
Utter silence descended. Cecily shuddered silently in Gabriel Lightwood’s arms, her hand clamped over her mouth, her body shaking violently with the effort not to scream. Anna stood white-faced on the dance floor, Ari’s hand on her arm, holding her back.
James, Thomas, Alastair. The Lightwoods, the Fairchilds, the Herondales. The Inquisitor and his wife. All stood staring, helpless as Cordelia was helpless. She still could not see Lucie or Jesse anywhere. Good, she thought. Better that Tatiana not lay eyes on Jesse.
Everyone was silent. The only sound in the room was Alexander’s crying, until—
“Tatiana!” cried Will, in a ringing voice. “Please! We will listen to whatever you have to say, only put down the child!”
Cordelia’s mind raced. Hadn’t Tatiana been found, bleeding and injured, in Cornwall only a few days ago? Hadn’t the Silent Brothers said she was too weak to risk moving her? And yet here she was, not just healed but looking as though she had never been hurt at all; there wasn’t so much as a scratch on her face. And the bloody dress, while torn, was her old costume; it was what she preferred to wear.
“None of you have ever listened!” Tatiana shouted, and Alexander began sobbing. “Only by taking something of yours can I even get your attention!”
“Tatiana,” said Gideon, loudly but calmly. “We are your brothers. Your friends. We will listen to you now. Whatever it is you need, we can help—”
“Help?” Tatiana shouted. “None of you have ever helped. None of you would ever help me. Here gathered together are Lightwoods, Herondales, Carstairs, none of whom have lifted a hand to help me in my direst times of trouble—”
“That’s not true!” came a voice, and Cordelia turned in surprise to see that it was James, his golden eyes flashing like fire. “You think we haven’t read your notes? That we don’t know how often help was offered to you? How often you scorned it?”
“It was always poison,” she hissed. “When my son died, I hoped that in recognition of the loss I had sustained, the terrible tragedy of his loss, my fellow Shadowhunters might support me. Might help. But if it had been up to you all, his body would have been burned in days! Before anything could be done!”
The answer to this—that death did not give back what it had taken—was so obvious that nobody even bothered to speak it.
“I sought help in the places you forbid to me,” Tatiana said. “Yes. You cast me out to look among demons for help.” She swept her gaze across the whole Enclave assembled before her. “Eventually the Prince Belial heard my pleas, and when I begged for my son’s life back, he promised it to me. But still the Nephilim resented that I might have anything—anything but failure in this life. And when you discovered my poor attempts to help my son, you threw me in the Adamant Citadel, to make the very weapons by which you keep me held down.
“And all this time!” Tatiana shot out a finger, pointing it directly at… Tessa. All eyes turned to regard her; she stood unmoving, meeting Tatiana glare for glare. “All this time these Herondales have been the allies of Belial. All along, since long before I ever knew him. Tessa Gray is his daughter,” she cried, her voice rising to a triumphant climax, “and while I am punished for merely talking to him, the Herondales prosper!”
There was a terrible silence. Even Alexander had stopped crying; he was only making breathless choking noises that were somehow worse than sobs.
Someone—Eunice Pounceby, Tessa thought—said in a quiet voice, “Mrs. Herondale, is this true?”