There was a long silence. I think Mike had forgotten I was listening to him. Then he took a long breath. "That's how I got here. I must be a dumb kid like the old man says though, because I still don't hate Negroes, least of all Connie. I mean, I can almost see why she did it. Almost."
I shook my head. "That's a rotten thing to happen to anybody."
"It sure is." Mark's voice came from behind me. He had been standing in the doorway, I don't know how long. "Come on, Bryon," he said. "Here's your comics." He tossed a couple of monster comics on the bed.
As we got into the elevator Mark said, "I'm inclined to agree with his old man. That is one stupid guy."
"You mean it?" I said. I had been thinking about Mike's story, and I could see his point about not hating the people who beat him up.
"Yeah, I mean it. Man, if anybody ever hurt me like that I'd hate them for the rest of my life."
I didn't think much about that statement then. But later I would--I still do. I think about it and think about it until I think I'm going crazy.
3
I had been hunting all over town for a job. I really needed one, but they're not easy to come by if you're sixteen years old with no experience, no contacts. I finally hit upon a great idea: I would ask Charlie for a job. After all, we were friends. He thought I was a smart kid, and having been one himself, he appreciated them. Besides, I figured I would really dig working in a bar.
Charlie's answer was short and to the point: No.
I was sitting at the bar, smoking a cigarette and trying to fight down my anger and disappointment. I had been hitchhiking all over town for a week trying to get a job. "Well, why not?" I asked, as soon as I thought I could talk without blowing my stack.
"For one thing, you know how often the plainclothes cops stop in. Do you think they'd let a minor work here? You're lucky you can just come in and sit down. Besides, Bryon, it gets rough in here late at night--Yeah, yeah, you're a rough kid, they all think that, but you'd better just take my word for it that you'd be better off someplace else."
"Like where? There ain't no jobs in this town. I been all over. Don't think this crummy joint ain't last on my list." I was mad.
Charlie didn't get upset though, he just grinned. "Bryon, you're an honest kid in most ways, but you lie like a dog. Take Mark--I wouldn't trust him around anything that wasn't nailed down, but I'd believe anything he said. I'd trust you with my wife, if I had one. I trust your actions, but I double-check most of your statements. You just think about it, and I think you'll come up with the reason why you haven't got a job before now. You just think about it."
I was too mad to think about it right then, but I promised myself I would later. I listened to everything Charlie said, because he was really smart. He had been a high school dropout, but he could subtract and add in his head quicker than a machine, and he had also read almost everything I had, which was quite a bit of reading. Besides, he'd had it even rougher than me when he was a kid, and now he had his own business and was respected by the cops and the rough guys equally.
"O.K.," I said. "If you trust me so much why don't you let me borrow your car Saturday night?" This was a shot in the dark. I really never expected Charlie to let me borrow his car. But I had been thinking about Cathy quite a bit. I had even called her a couple of times--from a pay phone since we couldn't pay phone bills any more--and there was a dance coming up on Saturday night that I wanted to go to. But I didn't have a car.
"O.K., Bryon, you can borrow my car Saturday. Just bring it back with as much gas in the tank as there was when you took it."
I almost fell off the barstool. "You mean it? Really?"
Charlie gave a short laugh. "Yeah, I mean it. But you get into a wreck, and I'll swear you stole it. And I don't care if you let Mark drive it either. Any kid who's been hot-wiring cars and driving them for as long as he has without an accident, I'll trust with my car."
I didn't know how to say thanks. I've always had trouble thanking people, I don't know why. But Charlie just gave me one of those twisted grins of his, like he knew what my problem was and couldn't care less.
"I'll come by and get it Saturday," I said finally. Charlie said O.K., and I could tell he meant, "Get outa here before I change my mind," so I got. I wanted to get to a phone and call Cathy. For all I knew she already had a date.
She didn't, thank God. But she did ask me where I was going to get a car.
"A friend's loaning me his," I said. "We may be double-dating with Mark. You remember Mark, don't you?"
"Who could forget him?" she said, and something gave me a funny feeling, something about the way she said it. It gave me a funny feeling. "Is this a dressy dance or a dance dance or what?" she asked.
"Casual," I said. "Pants would be O.K. It's just at the school gym. Maybe we could go get a Coke afterward"--but I was thinking, Maybe we'll stop by the park afterward, which is just the way I think.
Mark was surprised when I told him who I had a date with.
"Cathy! M&M's sister? How old is she?"
"Fifteen or sixteen, I guess. You want to double-date? Charlie's loaning me his car." I said this casually, like Charlie loaned me his car every day of the week, but Mark wasn't fooled. He never was, by me. "No kiddin'? How'd you manage that?"
I just shrugged. The truth was, I still didn't know how I had managed that.
"Well," Mark said, "I can't double with you. I already told some guys I'd go stag with them. I thought you would, too. Shoot, you haven't taken out a girl since you broke up with Angela Shepard."
"Yeah, well, if you'd gone with Angela for a while you'd be sour on girls, too. Man, I hate that chick."
"Too bad she can look so good and be so rotten," Mark said sympathetically. He never once said "I told you so." He had tried to tell me a long time ago that Angela was no good, but I hadn't paid any attention. It always seemed like Mark knew the score before I did--but it didn't do me any good. I wouldn't listen to him. I had to find out things for myself.
"Who all you going with?" I asked. We were in the kitchen doing dishes. Mark didn't particularly care for washing dishes, but I just couldn't stand a bunch of dirty dishes piled up in the sink.
"Terry Jones, Williamson, and Curtis."
"Then I'm glad I'm not going with you. I can't stand that Curtis kid."
"Come on, Bryon," Mark said easily. "He's a real nice guy. What'd he ever do to you?"
"He thinks he's so good-looking. That whole family's conceited."
Mark was trying to hide a grin. He was laughing at me. "You know good and well he's not conceited. He can't help it if he's good-looking; to tell the truth, I don't think he knows he is. You're jealous, Bryon, because Angela dumped you to make a play for Curtis, and he was smart enough to leave her alone."
"You can think what you want," I said, but I was almost laughing myself. Mark knew me pretty well. Sometimes that could be irritating, but most of the time it was funny.
*
I thought Saturday would never come, but it finally did. I hadn't looked forward to a date in a long time. With Angela, after a while our dates either ended in a make-out session or a fight. Both got boring.
I was kind of bothered about what to wear. It was a casual dance, so about anything would be all right, but I was bugged anyway.
I was in the bathroom shaving when Mark popped in. He had been down to Charlie's to pick up the car for me.
"Hey, hey, hey!" He leaned in the doorway, grinning at me. "Take it all off."
"You're just jealous 'cause you only have to shave once every two weeks."
Mark refused to be bugged. "You think I want to scrape my face every day? Thanks, but no thanks."
I glanced at him just to check out what he was wearing. Mark never paid any attention to how he dressed--I wouldn't be surprised if someday he completely forgot he was supposed to have something on and walked out into the street naked--but somehow he was always dressed right for the occasion. He had on a gold sweat shirt and wheat-colored jeans and tennis shoes.
"What are you wearin'?" Mark asked. His voice sounded funny.
I shrugged. "I don't know yet."
Mark turned to leave. "I gotta go now. I'm supposed to meet Terry over at his house. I left the keys in Charlie's car." As he was leaving he called over his shoulder, "I found this shirt out in the street, and it's lying on the bed if you want to see it." I heard the door slam and the sound of his light running steps on the porch.
I finished washing off my face and went into our room. Mark and I shared a bedroom which was pretty small--we have a small house--and it seemed even smaller with our twin beds. One was against each wall and that left only a path about three-feet wide to the closet. I wanted to get a look at this shirt Mark had "found out in the street."
It was real funny--that shirt happened to be just my size and dark blue, which happens to be a good color for me. For a minute I wondered whether he had bought it or stolen it--they were the same thing to Mark--but I decided to forget about it. After all, it's the thought that counts. Mark's clothes were almost all things I had outgrown. I grinned as I buttoned up the shirt. If Mark really cared about clothes he would steal some, but he didn't. But he knew me well enough to know what I would be thinking about.
If you have two friends in your lifetime, you're lucky. If you have one good friend, you're more than lucky.
Charlie's car wasn't anything you'd stop and stare at, but it was decent-looking. I felt funny when I stopped in front of Cathy's house. I had always thought of it as M&M's house, and now I thought of it as Cathy's house. I had never paid any attention to M&M's parents and I was about to go crazy trying to remember if I had ever said anything rude or had got smart with them, but I couldn't remember. If I had, I hoped they wouldn't remember.