Her hands went around him, feeling the hard silk of his chest and back as he wasn't wearing his shirt. She felt the scars on his back and wanted to cry for him taking them.
"You're mine and I've known it for some time now. I am sorry for what Ed tried to do."
She looked into his eyes, "Your words seduce me. For you to love a breed, to risk the trouble it would bring makes me love you even more. You took the beating for me, I wanted to cry when I saw what they did to you."
"I want to touch you everywhere, I want to look at you, all of you all over again, I want to make love with you. I want to be one with you. I want to make you mine, forever. But this won't happen until we marry. I will not defile you."
"Your words set me afire, for I too want this marriage. But marriage would bring more scorn." She whispered between kisses, their needs growing, the fire was totally out of control.
"It doesn't matter, we're committed, and you know it as well as I."
"Where would we marry," she cried, as his kisses put all her doubts to rest.
"There's some churches in Farmersville. When we go to buy you a dress, we will marry that day." He whispered as he kissed her cheek, her nose, her ear, and her neck. She leaned her head back and allowed him the freedom to explore her lovely neck with sweet kisses.
"Yes, my love," she smiled against his lips. "The sooner the better. I no longer have the good sense to say no to you. I have longed for your love. I too tried not to love you, but I could not stop what was happening. It pours from me every time I look at you. I ache to be yours."
"You are mine." He took her to the darkest part of the shed and laid her in the hay, then he put Elan close by so they could watch him.
He put his arm around her and held her close, "You know when this gets around, there will be hell to pay, don’t you?"
"Yes, I know, I did not want to bring shame upon you, but I cannot fight my own heart, I love you so. I haven't the strength to say no to your love. I should have left sooner." She whispered as she reached to draw him to her. She was eager for his kisses and swooned at his touches. "The way you touch me sends a fire through my blood."
They kissed each other with a fervor. She could smell the sweet male scent of him, and it made her heart leap at how he wanted her. Her lips traveled over him now, exploring him. "I like looking at you too, I love it when you take your shirt off. It makes me want to touch you everywhere."
Realizing how keyed up he was, he pulled away to look into her eyes. "We'll go to town tomorrow and get married."
"Clay," she gasped, her hand touching his chin, her lips shining in the moonlight streaming through the window. "We must wait until the room is finished, then we can be together there."
"Darlin', I don't know if I can wait that long to have you."
She smiled, "Then you must hurry and finish it, for I too am anxious to be with you." She laid her head on his chest, her breath feathering his nipple then suddenly she kissed him there and he gasped then sighed as her tongue shot out to touch the hardened nub. "Unless you want me to take you now, don’t do that sweetheart." He finally whispered near her ear.
"My love pours from me; I cannot hide what is in my heart. You are a Christian man; you know we should wait, but I find it as hard as you." She told him. "I have felt your need of me, and my need grows just as quickly in my belly for you."
"No more sweet talk or we will make our honeymoon here in this hay." He nodded and straightened up. "You are right, as usual." He smiled and kissed her gently. "But knowing we love each other, it's gonna be mighty hard not to give into temptation." He looked at Elan who was staring at them. "Son, I love your mother, and hope I have your permission to marry her. I love you both so much."
Elan gurgled.
She smiled, "I think he likes the idea."
He held her close and kissed her several times. "I know I've got to be rational about all of this, but it's hard when you want someone so much."
"I know, but just think how wonderful our wedding night will be."
"I want to make love with you." He told her.
"And I want you to, but we must be good."
He nodded.
He walked her and Elan back to the cabin, kissed her hard on the lips before entering.
She sighed with happiness.
"I want to go visit Mrs. Williams down the road. The doc said she was a widow and lived alone and he worries over her. I'd like to start visiting her. I made a roast and there is plenty for tomorrow, could I go and visit her?"
"Sure, why not. You can take the wagon. Do you want me to go with you?" He asked.