He bumped them back, his hand creeping under his black t-shirt that I was wearing. “How about a finger? Two fingers.”
My breath hitched when those fingers of his found my bare ass. “Nope.”
“One finger,” he said, tracing the crease of my ass now, making me squirm.
Making me rub my pussy on his ridged stomach. “No.”
Then they stopped, those fingers, right where my puckered ring is. And tracing that with his digits, he went, “How about a thumb?”
At this point, I guess he knew that I was simply teasing him.
That one day I’d give it up.
My ass to him.
Of course I would’ve. I would’ve given him anything.
But playing with him was so much more fun right then.
I bit my lip. “No.”
“I promise it’ll feel good,” he whispered against my lips. “I’llmakeit feel good, baby. It’s the least you could do anyway, yeah? For making me bleed.”
I think I said that he made me bleed too, when he took my virginity.
But I don’t remember now. All I know is that I ended up both laughing and going horny out of my mind. Weird combination but he does that to me.
Or did.
Hedidthat to me.
It’s in past tense.
Isn’t it?
He and I are in past tense. It’s over now. He’s gone.
He’s been gone over twelve hours.
Or is it thirteen? I can’t remember that either.
All I know is that I feel like I’m bleeding like his back and shoulders. I feel like my heart is bleeding both inside and outside of my body. And I’m coloring the world pink and red with it.
Who knew I’d turn out to be a scratcher during sex?
Who knew it would hurt so much when he left?
I mean, I had some idea. But even I didn’t expect for it to feel this way.
One second it feels like I’m dying and bleeding out, and that my world has ended. And the next it feels like it did after our fight about his brother. I was angry after that fight, and sad. But I knew that it wasn’t the end. I knew he’d come back. I knew he’d call or text or tap on my window as soon as night fell.
And he did.
We fought on a Monday and he came to me on Tuesday.
He came and I cried and then he soothed me the only way he knew how.
The only way I needed him to.