“Gym,” he repeats. “He’s probably at the gym.” He kisses my back. “Shh. ‘M sleeping.”
I relax. At least Cy didn’t just slink away in the middle of the night. That would be embarrassing. I twist to check the clock on Jack’s nightstand and swallow a sigh, sitting up. “I need to go.”
Jack groans, rolling onto his back to look up at me. I donotlook my best in the morning, but his eyes are hot as they trace my bare body and makeup-less face. “Stay,” he rasps, reaching up to touch my hair.
“I have work.”
“You don’t start until eight,” he points out. “It’s ten-to.”
“I need to shower.”
“I have a shower. Right here.” He nods at his ensuite and yawns, sliding his hand up my thigh. “You feel okay? Not sore?”
“You mean, from your giant dong? You know human growth hormones are bad for you, right?”
He buries his face into my waist and groans, and I laugh. “Nope. I’m fine.” I pause. “But I really need to get changed. I’m not working here all day in a mini dress and heels.”
“Please?” His hands slide over my hips. “You look so nice in them.”
I bat him off. “You’re a lot flirtier when you’re tired.”
“Mm.” He touches my wrist. “Pretty,” he murmurs.
I look down. He’s got a finger hooked under my baby bracelet. It’s simple: just a fine gold chain with a bar-shaped charm. It hasBethany Ellisengraved on one side, andyou are my sunshineon the other.
“Thanks. My mum gave it to me.”
I’ve been wearing the bracelet ever since I was big enough to keep it from sliding off my wrist. I never take it off; not to sleep, or shower, or go swimming. Never. It’s always with me. There were times, when I was a kid, where it was the only thing getting me through the day. A reminder that my mum still loved me, even if she couldn’t take care of me.
Jack’s sleepy eyes are soft as he looks over my face. “Did she die?” He asks quietly.
I lay back down next to him, and he pulls me closer. “No. She got pregnant when she was fifteen. She couldn’t look after me.” I rub my thumb over the gold charm. “My grandma, her mum, took me in for a few years, but when I turned four, she couldn’t handle me anymore. So she put me in care.”
His eyebrows furrow. “Why?”
“I don’t know,” I admit. “No one ever told me. I assumed my grandma must have gotten sick, or something.”
“Have you spoken to them since?”
I shake my head. “I’ve been looking for my birth mum ever since I was old enough to use a computer. Not as often now, but I still search for her name every so often. I’ve never found any trace of either of them.” I twist my wrist, watching the bracelet flash gold. “I used to think my Nonna would come back for me. When she got better.” Saturday was visiting day at my old care home, and every single weekend I’d wait by the window for my grandma’s car to pull up in the drive outside. It never did. It was hard, but I don’t blame my mum or my grandma for giving me up. The cards were stacked against them. I believe they would have kept me, if they could. I have to believe that.
“And you never got adopted,” he says softly.
“Nope. Stayed in the system for fourteen years, until I got kicked out at eighteen.” I pause. “The funny thing is, if my Nonna had just given me away immediately, my chances of getting adopted would have been so much higher. She kept me long enough that I wasn’t a cute little baby anymore, then gave me back.”
Jack rolls over and kisses me softly. His warm, stubbled cheek brushes mine. “I’m sorry,” he says. “I know it doesn’t mean anything. But I am.”
“It means plenty.” I say honestly, kissing him back.
There’s a sudden lusty cry from the living room, and I pull away. “I need to go,” I whisper, giving him one last peck. “Andyouneed to pack for Scotland.” I pat his chest, sliding out of bed. “Don’t leave it until tomorrow morning.”
He groans, flopping back onto his pillows, and I leave to get ready for the day.
* * *
I’ve heard the term ‘sex glow’ before, but I never really understood what it meant until now. After last night, I’m so happy and full of endorphins that I’m walking on air all day. I’m humming as I change Cami’s nappies. I’m dancing as I make her afternoon snack. I’m practically skipping across the apartment as I pick up her toys.
It’s a beautiful day, so after dinner, I take Cami out to the local park. Apparently my good mood is infectious, because she laughs and bounces the entire way, looking around at the flowers and groups of passersby with huge, excited eyes. No less than four women stop us to coo at her, and I chatter happily with them, soaking in the bright sunshine and warm spring air. Eventually, though, Cami gets tired, so we head back home, me beaming all the way.