“You can’t say it like that!”
“Oh no?” A hint of amusement filled his voice. “And how should I say it? Tongue fuck you? Get to third base?”
“What’s wrong with oral sex?” she asked primly. Okay, even she could hear how silly she sounded.
“All right, baby,” he said soothingly. “I’ll stop teasing. Don’t you like oral sex?”
She groaned and leaned her face against his chest. “I’ve only had one boyfriend.”
“Yeah?”
“I couldn’t be around men . . . trust men, for a long time after him. The one who hurt me.”
He tightened his hold on her. “Fuck.”
“Not that he raped me. But I was scared to let anyone close. So when I met Rex, my ex-boyfriend, I thought he would be perfect. He was totally willing to let me take the lead. I was in charge of everything. Where we went, what we did. I thought it was what I wanted.”
“But it wasn’t?”
“No. But the thing is, I didn’t know then what I wanted. So I didn’t understand what was wrong. And I, umm, I found myself getting frustrated. With him. With me. I guess, well, I guess you would say I started acting out in order to get attention from him. And I didn’t even understand what sort of attention I wanted.”
“What did you do?” he asked in a deep voice.
Goosebumps broke over her skin. “I dunno. Things like not calling if I was going to be late, running on my own at night, driving really fast and texting at the same time. It was childish.”
He tilted her chin up. She might not be able to fully see the expression on his face but she could guess that he was giving her ‘the Ed look’.
How had she lived her life up to now without that look sending thrills through her gut?
“It was dangerous. You did that shit because you wanted him to react. To put his foot down.”
“That makes me sound silly. But yeah, I guess maybe I did. I think I wanted a sign he cared. I wanted him to tell me that he didn’t want me running at night because it was dangerous. Instead, he would just tell me that he trusted me to take care of myself. Because I was an adult.”
“Yeah, that’s not what you need at all. You, my baby, need firm rules and boundaries. And consequences for breaking them. You say the word, you tell me this is what you want. Me as your Dom, your Daddy and you’ll get all of that and more.”
It was on the tip of her tongue to say yes. But before she could say anything he kept talking.
“As much as I’m interested in this, I’m drawing a blank as to how it relates to me eating you out.”
Okay, maybe she could get used to him saying it like that. When he said it in that deep, sexy voice.
“In the bedroom I always had to tell him what to do. What I wanted. It wasn’t his fault. I mean, I picked him because he was . . . “
“Submissive. You picked a sub.”
Yeah. She hadn’t realized it because she’d been clueless about any of this stuff. But that’s exactly what Rex was. And it hadn’t worked.
“Did he never go down on you?” Ed sounded incredulous.
“He did, but he wanted me to tell him what to do and it started to feel weird. Like, I didn’t know what I wanted. And I just wanted him to take over. And it made the whole thing awkward. I’ve had one lover since, just a casual thing. But every time he’d try to go down there, I’d freeze up. So I just don’t think it’s for me.”
“Thank you for telling me all this. You’ve been such a good girl. Now, I want you to take off your underwear then lie on the bed, hands back in position, and spread your legs nice and wide.”
That was it? He didn’t have anything else to say? Was he disappointed or glad? Probably the latter. She couldn’t understand that a man would like oral sex. Well, she got why they’d like a blow job. It had never been her favorite. But she thought she might change her mind with Ed.
Suddenly she found herself lifted off his lap and rolled onto her stomach. Four sharp smacks landed on her ass. Then she was rolled onto her back.
“Hey! What was that for?” She glared up at him.