“Has he ever looked?” I ask.
“Yeah, when we were younger. But he’d go on a few dates and then tell me he didn’t want to waste her time. He’s different from most people. I’ve never been able to get him to tell me, but something happened when he was younger, something he never talks about. I’m sure of it. It’s this look he gets in his eye whenever childhood comes up.”
“And you think that relates to him wanting to find the perfect wife?”
The perfect wife…the phrase resounds in my mind, tattooing itself in colorful letters as I wonder and dream if I could be her.
“I think it means he never wants to feel boxed in. That’s what our whole lives have been, escaping from the normal confines, the normal existence. But I’ve managed to find a way to bridge that gap. Silas is stillall inon the other side.”
“Maybe he just wants to be alone,” I mutter. “And he uses that as an excuse. He might have a bunch of girlfriends you don’t know about.”
I want Dad to tell me no, no way. But he sighs, picking up his coffee.
“That’s something I’ve considered too. Maybe he’s living a bachelor lifestyle, but he keeps it away from me.”
I’m fidgeting under the table now, struggling to accept what Dad’s saying.
“Do you think he’d do that?”
“He’s rich. He’s single. It wouldn’t be unusual.”
“Yeah,” I mutter, ugly images flashing across my mind.
Silas with other women, making me just another one along the line, nothing special.
Maybe that’s what he says to all of them.
Nothing happened.
CHAPTERFIVE
Silas
I manage to resist the urge until I’m in bed later that evening, staring at the ceiling, with nowhere else to run.
I spent the day in meetings, then I took a helicopter ride over to a nearby bouldering location and worked my body raw on that, hammering onto the crash pads, trying to forget about Lauren’s taste and her closeness and her heat.
But even with my body pulsing, even with my guilt singing out, telling me I’m wrong, broken for what I did, for the friendship, thebusinesspartnership I risked.
It’s not as though the stakes are low.
My oldest friend, our company, right when we’re acquiring a new one which will if the multimedia approach works, make us millions, if not billions.
Julian and I have been working toward this – together – for half our lives.
But that doesn’t stop my mind from bringing the office back to me, the scent of my woman.
I move my hand down my body, my eyes tightly closed as I remember the moment Julian interrupted us.
But in the fantasy, there’s no interruption, nothing to stop me from grabbing her thick ass and guiding my swollen helm to her sex, nothing to stop me from grinding deeply inside, from making her feel every single inch.
I bite down as my cock gets instantly hard.
There’s a crime happening here. Wasting seed by not pumping it into my woman’s body.
But I can’t stop, not when I remember how tight her pussy felt around my tongue, imagining that same tightness around the base of my cock.
“This is forever,”I’d growl possessively as I pound her from behind, watching that big beautiful ass jiggle sexily for me.“You are mine. Only mine.”