Chase steps forward to stand beside me and says, “It’s a clit clamp. It’s designed only for your pleasure, all of these,” he says referring to the entire room and its contents.
A clit clamp? I’m in over my head for sure. I don’t even know what most of this stuff is. But what I do know is that tiny sparks are starting to go off in my body as I anticipate all of this.
I hold up what can only be described as a piece of leather with a ball attached in the middle of it. The leather has buckles like a belt.
“And this?”
“That, Nicole, is a gag,” Adam says, igniting all suspicion and alarm in me.
Do they want to gag me? That’s what all this means, they want to see me submit so thoroughly that I am gagged?
I can’t see myself doing it. I don’t know how. I wouldn’t even know how to begin.
The guys are watching me carefully, and I know they’re taking note of my every move. I just don’t know how to fall into this. I don’t know how to be what they want.
Everything in my nature is screaming for me to hold on to my independence, but everything in my body is vibrating as if to say ‘you want this’.
Do I want this? Is it safe?
I look around at each of them. I feel a warm sensation spread over my body as I imagine what it will be like to let them do whatever they want me.
“I… want to do this, but I’m very afraid,” I might as well admit the truth.
There’s no hiding in here. Everything I have will be laid out before them.
My statement seems to make them more hungry.
“Choose a safe word,” Chase says, his tone akin to a shrug.
I feel comforted by the fact that there’s a safe word. I feel like they understand the support I’ll need to go through this.
“Okay then, I choose the word ‘apple’.”
“Apple?” Cameron asks, his eyebrows raised. “Why apple?”
“Because,” I say, “this room to me feels like the Garden of Eden and I am Eve about to bite into an apple and do something forbidden.”
“Well, sometimes what’s most forbidden is the thing that you want most,” Chase says. “You just don’t know it yet.”
I’ve never really thought of myself as a submissive until this point. It’s one thing to let go—it’s another to play this part. This is dark and depraved sexual play that I’m not sure I’m ready for.
But part of me wants to stay so bad, and I want to acknowledge that longing. I feel like I would be betraying myself if I didn’t at least try this.
All of the guys turn me on so much, and I guess depending on how this goes, I might be able to trust them a little bit more.
I stand before them, within the dark room, and Chase goes to shut the door. I guess it’s all happening. It’s time for me to rely on my backbone and act cool and calm despite the unsureness I feel.
They circle me, and this new phase of indulgence begins.
Nicole
My nerves are through the roof. I don’t understand anything about “devices” for pleasure. I’m honestly certain they used similar tools for torture back in the middle ages. This room screams of intimidation, and its looming over me to a point of uncertainty, and pretty confident my fear is all over my face.
I hear a voice behind me break our brief silence. “Nicole, sweetheart. Relax. We promise that nothing bad is going to happen. You have a safe word. If any of this becomes too overwhelming and you want it to stop, say it. We’ll stop with no questions asked. Right guys?” Chase does his best to reassure me.
“Right,” both Adam and Cameron reply.
I want to believe them and I trust them for the most part. They’ve given me no reasons at all not to. I’ve even been feeling more uninhibited lately with their instructions and advice. This hesitation can be all in my head. None of them look scary. I think they really like me.
In front of me stands Adam. His hands have a slight twitch, and he’s fidgeting a lot. I can even see him tapping his foot very casually. His body language tells me everything. He’s hungry for this, for me. With no hesitation, he steps inward and greets his supple lips to my own, and I close my eyes to take in that sexy cologne smell rolling from his skin into my nose and kiss him passionately, and I wrap my arms around him. Chase and Cameron step to the side and allow Adam to lead me to the massive, plushy bed. He gently sits me down at the edge, and breaks our kiss slowly, still pecking gently at my lips before pulling away fully.