“Such a good girl.” He murmurs.
I’m getting there. I think to myself. But do I want to?
Nicole
I’m at home in the safe confines of my cozy studio apartment. It’s my sanctum in the city, my safe place. And God knows I need that, given the situation I’ve been thrown in.
I make a pot of Earl Grey and settle into my vintage leather chair in the corner. There’s a lot to consider, given how different each of my bosses really are.
I always knew I’d rise to the top but I didn’t know it’d be this way. And I have to say, I don’t mind what’s going on. In fact, I really like it.
First, there’s Adam. He’s fun and spontaneous, by far the most playful of all the men.
During our time at the strip club, I became aware of his supreme ability to dominate. He made me feel things I didn’t know were possible. And now I want more of him.
I picture his dark eyes and that body, my God, that body. Adam makes me feel like life is an adventure—and I can’t deny that that’s something I really, really want.
And then there’s Chase. His sandy hair and green eyes, that strong jaw line, and those shredded muscles. Altogether he looks like a mountain man from Viking territory.
He’s so overwhelming and yet so nice at the same time. He makes me feel as if I’m the most important person in the room.
Chase is extremely charismatic, and while he’s a little more reserved than Adam, he still has a exciting streak.
And, lastly, Cameron… I’ll never get over how his slight level of seniority turns me on so much. He’s intimidating and direct. When he gives me a command, my most natural instinct is to obey.
He makes me want to please him, and I like his serious nature. He’s so hot in that rugged kind of way. The man looks like a well-traveled, extremely toned, and handsome man of the world. I feel like Cameron can show me new things.
And his dominance is what I want.
I drink my tea and determine I need to have another voice giving me insight into the situation. There’s no one to call besides Lily.
She’s my best friend, and she won’t bullshit me. Lily can always offer an objective opinion and that’s what I need right now.
I dial her number and wait for her to answer.
“Hi Lily, it’s me.” I say when the call connects.
“Hi, babe! How’s it going?”
“I’m just a little confused,” I say.
“What? What’s up?”
“I think you know. I’m sure my bosses don’t keep much from your man…”
I’m greeted with silence on the other line.
“Lily?” I venture. “I’m not like you, Lily. I don’t just have one guy to contend with, I have three. And the possibilities are driving me crazy.”
“Well… that’s true,” she laughs. “Tough situation. Not! But yes, I have Sebastian and he’s enough to handle, I can’t imagine going through what you are.”
“Tell me about it. Three alpha males and me. It’s a lot to deal with, and yet I have different feelings for all of them.”
I sit in my chair by the window and watch as the rain starts to spatter against the old black window panes. Again, I feel so appreciative of my little home within the city. I’m super happy here, but my life has changed so dramatically in just a few days, and that’s a fact I can’t escape.
“That’s good that you have different feelings for all of them, Nicole, but at some point, you’re gonna have to give up control. That’s how this dominant/submissive thing works.”
“Didn’t you find that hard to question?” I ask. “Giving in to Sebastian’s every need?”
“You know, that’s the funny thing. I was overwhelmed by it, too. But Sebastian taught me that the more I obey him and relinquish my autonomy, the more pleasure I open myself up to and the freer I feel.”
Her words give me hope, because as it is, I’m just not sure how to handle this. I’m so used to being the director of my own life. It’s enough to have to relent to their every request in the office.
But now I’m facing that on all levels. They want me day and night. They want me all the time. And it’s just a lot—too much, even.
“So you think I should give in and succumb to their every need?” I ask.
“Well, that’s just it, you know, by relinquishing control you are actually gaining something, and that is the ability to know a certain sense of security.
“When you relent to guys like that, you can trust they have only your pleasure in mind,” she says, and I know she’s thinking of Sebastian.
She’s probably right. But I just can’t imagine giving away my power. I worked so hard to build my life the way I would like to see it