But now?
I look at Daria in silent appeal.Help?
Nik's wife gently touches his arm. "Leah will tell us if she's ready."
His jaw clenches. "Just tell me one thing."
My heart threatens to stop beating.Oh God.Is it possible he already knows about Adam and me?
"Does this have anything to do with your headaches?"
Daria looks at him in shock. "What headaches are you talking about?"
But Nik still hasn't taken his gaze off me. "Tell me the truth, Leah. Are you sick? Did Adam tell you—-"
I'm horrified all at once, and I quickly shake my head when I realize where his words are leading. "No, it's nothing like that."
But now I'm also crying harder because I realize too late how wrong I've been all this time, to think I was the only one with fears and worries.
The truth is in Nik's eyes, and a sob rushes out of my throat when I look at Daria, and I see the same thing as well.
Karen was right.
Again.
She told me again and again not to keep things to myself, and if I had just listened to her, then I would have never ended in this mess.
"Nik, Daria, I'm sorry," I choke out. "I'm so, so sorry." I can't believe how blind I've been. All this time, I was so busy trying to hide my own fears, so busy thinking I wasn't normal, that I failed to realize Nik and Daria have been struggling with the same things as well.
They're just as worried as I am about Io's cancer returning, but the difference between us is that Nik and Daria have learned to live with their worries, which is how it should be, while I...
I'm such an idiot that I literally gave myself headaches trying to stop myself from worrying.
Just the biggest idiot ever that I actually thought a fantasy about a conscienceless doctor fucking me wouldcureme, just so much of an idiot that when it did happen in real life, I even convinced myself it could end well, and that we'd fall in love and—-
"Are you fucking dying?" Nik's tightly voiced question makes his wife pale.
"Why are we t-talking about dying all of a sudden?" Daria stammers. "Isn't this just about Leah having a wild affair with a doctor she doesn't know?"
"What the fuck?"That's Nik.
"Daria!"I cry out at the same time.
"Leah?"
That voice.
Daria, Nik, and I turn towards it, and I almost feel like collapsing in shock when my gaze once again collides with a pair of green eyes.
"What the hell, Adam?" That's Nik again.
"Doctor?" That's also me again, crying out at the same time—-
Wait.
Did Nik just call Dr. Somebody...Adam?
As in...Dr. Adam Al-Masri, my sister's doctor?