Eleven
My insides start tochurn the moment my cab drops me off at one of Miami's high-rise towers, and I realize that I'm just minutes away from actually seeing Dr. Somebody in person.
On one hand, the thought has me so anxious, that I'm once again distracted from having any headaches, hypertensive episodes, or breakdowns.
And obviously, that's a good thing.
But on the other hand—-
Meeting him also means I might end up surrendering my virginity to a stranger, and I'm still silently fretting over this even as I provide my name to the concierge.
The guy behind the desk only nods, and I suppose that means he has no idea what I'm here for.
Or at least I hope that's the case.
I could still be wrong for all I know, and the concierge just happens to be really good at pretending he has no clue I'm here as someone who "signed up" to have her sexual fantasy come true.
The elevator shoots up all the way to the 60th floor, and I tell myself it could've been a lot worse. If SFI had arranged for us to meet at 69/F, that would've totally made me feel like a whore, and I think I would really have ended up selling my kidney if so.
My knees start to shake as the elevator doors finally slide open, and I have to force myself to get moving.
Am I really doing this?
Am I?
Am I?
The room number I was provided turned out to be a corner suite, and I use the QR code in SFI's app to unlock its door.
Thank you for arriving on time, Temptation.
Please look for the changing room and click Next.
Inside the room is your typical high-end clinic. Marble-top reception counter, cozy seating area, and a magazine rack with the latest issues ofVogue, Time,andNational Geographic. Opposite those is a pair of doors: the left one is labeledChanging Roomwhile the right door leads to theConsultation Room.
It's like being asked to pick between a rock and a hard place, and I have to forcefully remind myself that this is nothing to worry about.
These might be red flags for someone like real-life Leah, but since I'm sweet, innocent Temptation who also happens to be dumber than dumb—-