“I know it’s less than what you’re used to,” he says. “But it will have to do for now.”
“It’s fine,” I tell him, seeing the obvious look of shame on his face. “I’ve lived in much worse, trust me.”
Magnus doesn’t respond. He just gets out of the truck and as I’m doing my best to negotiate the dirt driveway in my heels comes around to my side to help me. Without warning, he lifts me into his arms and carries me to the door.
“Those shoes weren’t really made for this driveway,” he says. I giggle as my heart rate quickly rises. He nods to his right pocket. “Keys. Would you mind getting the door for me?”
“Oh, s-sure,” I stammer. “No problem.”
But it is a problem. I’m nearly on the brink of a heart attack as I reach into his pants pocket. He’s so warm, and his leg muscle is so firm and so strong. But that’s not the only thing I feel down there that’s firm…
Is that his…his penis?
I’ve never touched a man there before, but I’m pretty sure it’s not supposed to be so big. Trying not to make it so obvious that I just touched it, I quickly grab his keys, and as Magnus holds me to the lock, I use them to open the door to his apartment.
“Home sweet home,” he says as he carries me inside and sets me carefully down on the couch. Without even thinking, I throw my arms around his neck and pull him down on top of me.
The feeling of his body on top of mine is indescribable. He’s completely irresistible. His muscles, his size…I feel the heat pulsing between my thighs as I trace the muscles of his strong, broad shoulders. I’ve done everything I can to keep Vincent off of me, and now all I want is Magnus all over me.
In fact, I want more than that…
“I want you inside of me,” I whisper into his ear, pulling him closer. “Take me, Magnus. Put that big thing I felt in me now.”
I don’t even know what I’m saying or how these words are coming out of my mouth. I’ve never said anything like this before in my life. But I can feel Magnus’s bulge pressed against me. He likes it. He’s hard. He wants me. But what happens next is not what I expect.
He pulls away from me.
“No.” He shakes his head. “Not like this.”
I freeze.
Shame soaks over me, sending a chill through my bones. At the same time, I blush painfully and curl up into a ball. I want to run for the door or hide under a big pile of blankets, but there are no blankets in here, and I’d be a fool to run.
“W-what?” I whimper. “What do you meannot like this?”
Magnus draws a deep, difficult breath. “You barely know me, Josie. I’ve seen you so many times at the club, and you’ve walked right past me without a single glance. And now…now you want me just because you want to get back at Vincent.”
“That’s not true!” I cry out, but Magnus shakes his head. I can see from the look on his face that he doesn’t believe me.
“You’re the most gorgeous girl I’ve ever laid eyes on, Josie,” he says with a sigh, as if pained by his own words. “But until tonight, you never even gave me a single glance, let alone a second.”
“I couldn’t, Magnus!” I protest, feeling the tears from my last horrible months of captivity swelling up inside me. “Those were Vincent’s rules. I couldn’t speak to any man. I couldn’t evenlookat them! It had nothing to do with you!”
Magnus shakes his head. He saw what happened tonight. He has to believe me.
“Even if that’s true, Josie…I’m still not good enough for you.”
“What!?” I gasp, rising to my feet. “Magnus, what are you talking about?”
Slowly, he raises one of his massive hands to his face. “Look at me,” he says. “And look at you, beautiful. Josie, you deserve so much better.”
Tears spill from my eyes. What could have possibly happened in this man’s life to make him think this way about himself? I take a step forward and reach my hand up to his cheek, gently tracing it down his jaw.
“Magnus,” I whisper. “You couldn’t be more wrong. You think I don’t find you handsome—?”
Suddenly, there’s a pounding at the door. Magnus’s hand instantly covers my mouth to silence me. His eyes turn dangerous as a male voice shouts from the other side.
“Yo, Big Mag! We know you’re in there, buddy! Come let us in. We wouldn’t want you to have to replace your door.”