It’s the way he paused before answering. It lets my mind go to him sitting there, his muscles tight, his handsome lips pressed into a flat line as he tries to fight the urge to tell me.
Tell me what?
“Are you going?” I ask. “To meet with mom, I mean?”
“Yes,” he says. “I haven’t thought about not going, honestly. If she wants to talk with us, especially about this, I think we owe her that.”
I shift from side to side, thinking about mom’s face when I walk into the office… and Hayden’s going to be there, not over the phone, but right there. As I think about that, my whole body hums to life, being in the same room with him.
Everything gets hotter, closer, more intimate when I think about seeing him in the flesh…
And then it crashes down when I reflect this might be it, the last time we see each other. Maybe Mom will scream at Hayden, telling him to get away from me, not caring about how badly I want him too.
“I wish I was with you now,” he says, voice firm.
I lick my lips, relieved I’m outside. Otherwise, I know I wouldn’t be able to stop myself from doing something crazy with my thoughts flooded with Hayden…
“Me too,” I whisper.
“I want to hold you,” he goes on. “So you can feel….”
“Feel what?” I whisper.
“That all of this is going to be okay.”
I laugh dully. “I’m not sure I can believe that.”
“It will,” he says.
“Can you promise?” I snap, unable to stop the fierceness in my voice. “I don’t see a way this can be okay, Hayden.”
“It will,” he repeats, his voice gruff. “It has to be.”
“Does it?” I murmur.
“Whatever happens later,” Hayden says, “we’ll face it together.”
I swallow, thinking about the meeting and all the countless things that could go wrong.
There might be no together once mom has her say…not that we’re a couple now, anyway, so what difference does it make?
“I’ll need to spend the next couple of hours meditating,” he says, in a joking tone.
I smile, despite everything. I love how easily he can do that.
“You meditate, do you?” I ask.
“No,” he says, chuckling. “But I’m going to have to learn pretty quickly. It’s going to be difficult, Hallie, being close to you. You’ve got no idea how badly I want you.”
I swallow, glancing at the house, my nipples feeling ultrasensitive against my bra, my folds rubbing against my panties.
“I want you too,” I whisper, my body awakening, my core ordering me to find him, make love to him, take his seed, all of it.
“Are you alone?” Hayden asks, with an edge to his voice, carnal and deep.
“Everybody’s out,” I murmur. “Why?”
“Are you in your bedroom?” he snarls, and my heart starts to thunder, my body shivering, a spot deep within crying out for Hayden’s huge manhood.
“I can be,” I say.
“Go there,” he says. “Now, Hallie.”
His voice has an urgency that has me feeling so freaking wanted.
I know it’s wrong, and we should wait until we know what mom’s going to say, but my legs don’t care about that as they carry me inside.
My lust doesn’t give a damn as I close and lock my bedroom door.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Hayden
My manhood pushes right up against my boxers, the soaked-with-precome helm feeling like it engorges even more.
The guilt shimmers in the background, but when my balls are this full, my intention is clear, it isn’t easy to think about anything else.
I’m a beast, in these moments, Hallie’s animal. My lust aimed entirely at her, with affection and forever-need beneath it.
“My door’s locked,” she says, then laughs in the cutest, most alluring way possible.
It’s a laugh that tells me she’s keen on what we’re going to do, but there are still some nerves there. I burn to be with her in person, to kiss away any anxiety, to caress and massage her self-doubt into oblivion.
I remember how she twitched for me as she came, how she bit down, her body unable to be imprisoned by her mind.
She let go as completely as I want to and need to.
For life, with her.
“Lie on the bed,” I tell her, “and close your eyes. Don’t touch yourself until I tell you to.”
Are you sure we should be doing this now? I wait for her to say that.
It would be reasonable for her to say, considering the mammoth task we’ve got ahead of us in a couple of hours, the showdown with Janine.
But Hallie’s voice is breathy, tinged with lust, making my tip leak even more burning heat.
“I’m on the bed,” she whispers. “And my eyes are closed.”
“Are you going to be a good girl and wait until I say you can touch yourself?”
“Yes.” Her voice quivers. “I’ll try.”
Fuck, my balls enflame at that, my cock getting even harder.
“You’re just as horny as me, aren’t you, Hallie? You can’t fucking wait for us to see each other again.”