“You were hurting. You needed a friend. I wasn’t about to use your pain and hurt to try and manipulate my way into your heart. It felt like it would have been wrong not to allow you to express the pain you were feeling in the moment. I also didn’t want you to worry I was only saying it to make you feel better. That would be as bad as saying it after mind-blowing sex.”
Her cheeks bloom pink at the mention of sex, something I still find adorable, considering all the things I’ve said to her.
“So you love me?” she asks again.
“Yes, I love you.”
She can’t hide her smile. “So what does that mean for us?”
“It means whatever you want it to mean. I’m not saying it to convince you to jump into something with me. What I feel for you is so much more than a rebound, so I don’t want to pressure you. I want this to be real and genuine for you. Because it is for me. I’d be no better than Tim if I used your pain from him to convince you to be with me if you’re not ready.” I pause and she just stares at me. “You’re it for me, Sadie. You’re everything I want and need. I’ll wait for you as long as it takes.”
That’s when I see it, a single tear sliding down her cheek. She gets to her hands and knees and crawls into my lap. I place my hands on her hips as she lowers herself, her hands coming to rest against either side of my face as her forehead rests against mine.
“I’m in love with you too.”
CHAPTER13
Sadie
“Ilove you,” I whisper the words again before kissing him.
Everything finally feels so right. I know I’m tipsy, but it doesn’t change what I’ve known for the last few weeks. It’s surreal; like a dream. But I’m awake, and he’s staring back at me.
“I want you to be mine,” he says between kisses, his hands sliding up my back.
“I am yours. I’ve been yours since the first time you touched me.”
Our lips meet once more, the intensity increasing as my fingers comb through his hair and his hands roam my body. It feels like the first time with him again; every time feels like the first time. Hands and lips grasp and seek frenetically, like we’re racing to consume each other.
I pull back suddenly and look up at the ceiling. “Oh shit, are there cameras in here?”
Alex chuckles. “There are, but I had Todd turn them off.”
I lick my lips seductively and run my hands down his chest. “Hmm. Almost like you had a plan for something naughty to happen?”
“I wouldn’t dream of it.” He pushes my hair away from my neck, leaning in to bite down on the exposed flesh. His teeth send a shock of desire straight to my core, my toes curling in my shoes. “What’s on your mind, sweetheart?” His lips are still at my neck, dancing their way up toward my ear.
“You tell me. What do you want, Mr. Snow?”
He leans back, looking up at me with lust-filled eyes as he grabs the railing above my head. He doesn’t attempt to hide the way he’s checking out my body. He is so effortlessly sexy in this moment. A lock of his hair falls down over his forehead when he runs his other hand over the scruff on his jaw.
“Honestly?”
“Honestly,” I repeat.
“I want to fuck you.”
Electricity shoots through my core at his brashness. I love his dirty talk; it drives me wild, something I’ve never experienced before.
“But I want to know what you want, sweetheart. How can I please you?”
“I…” I bite my bottom lip, struggling to find the confidence to answer.
“Don’t be shy. This is why we’re in here. So you can just be free and express what you want.”
“I’m not sure.”
“Okay, how about this. I’ll ask you some questions, and we can figure it out together?”