I assume she won’t respond, so I go shower then sit at the kitchen bar, waiting for Logan. I hope he’ll be home soon because I am fucking beat.
My phone messenger goes off, alerting me of a message.
Nice color. I like blue … TT
I reply immediately.
Oh, wow, I didn’t know that … LYA
But I know, and she knows I do.
Goodnight … TT
Check out the song “Fall for You” by Secondhand Serenade. Impossible to find, but I did. Impossible to replace, and I never will. Take your time, baby, but remember I won’t fail you again, ever … LYA
I don’t expect a response, but three minutes later, I get one.
- Goodnight … TT
- Goodnight … LYA
SIXTEEN
CONFUSED
Iwalk into Jade and Ryan’s. “Is she home yet?” It’s been five days since I’ve seen her, and no, she hasn’t texted me again. Instead, she gave Jade the reins.
Jade was the one to tell me she was okay. Every fucking two days, she will text me.
- She wants you to know she’s fine … Jade
“She is, but they’re leaving again. She needs to get through this, Lucas. Back off for a while. Let her come to you.”
“Nice advice, but I don’t think so.”
“Lucas, don’t be such an ass.”
“I know you think you know everything, Jade, but I know her just as well, if not more, than you do.”
She laughs. “Really?”
“Fuck yes. She’s trying to get through her loss. Now add to that the guilt about her and me. I won’t let her feel guilty. This isn’t wrong.”
“Then why are you keeping it a secret?”
“For her!”
“Not for your kids, Lucas?”
“Fuck no. Is that what she thinks?” I stop and think for a moment. “Good. You let her know I’m gonna let my kids know so she doesn’t have to feel guilty.” I walk out the door and to my house.
I’m not home two minutes when she texts me.
- I DO NOT want anyone to know … TT
- Why? … LYA
- I thought we were keeping it between us? …TT