I reach beneath her and pull her up, her back to my chest, as I continue “fucking” her. She turns her head and looks up at me, and I lower my lips to hers, kiss her, and she gives it right back.
I turn us and sit down without disconnecting us—she’s on me reverse cowgirl, riding the hell out of me as I play with her tits. She starts to quake and slow down. I grab her hips and pump into her until she cries out my name, wrapped in whimpers and moans. I finally let myself go and come so fucking hard it’s almost painful.
I move us and lie back, pulling her onto me. Her tits still in my hands, fingers still rolling her nipples as we both come down from one hell of an orgasm.
When I catch my breath, I sit up and wrap my arms around her. I kiss her neck and ear then move to the other side and do the same. Then I stand and take her hand. “Shower?”
“I have to go.”
I look at her, take her in, and see she needs this. “I’m here.”
She looks at her shirt, and I bend to get it for her. I pull it over her head then take her face in my hands and kiss her again.
“I need time and space.”
“How long will you be gone?”
“I don’t know.”
“What’s the trip for?”
She swallows hard. “To hand control over to the leaders in the communities.”
“You ready for that?” I take her hand and pull it to my mouth to kiss it.
“I’m not ready for anything, Lucas.”
“And I’m pushing.”
She nods as she looks at our hands.
“I need you to be okay.”
“You need to let me get through this. Be patient.” With pain in her eyes, she looks up and whispers, “What happens if I wake up tomorrow and realize this was all a mistake?”
“I will make sure you know better.”
“What happens when you wake up tomorrow, Lucas, and realize you’re hurting and that’swhythis is happening?”
“Then I will know I’ve lost my fucking mind, Tessa. I know it bothers you when I say those three words, but it’s all true.”
“You’ll give me time, or I won’t come back.”
“If you don’t come back, you better have one hell of a hiding place ’cause I will look forever to find you. Then I’ll bring your ass home, kicking and screaming if I have to.”
A faint smile plays on her lips as she closes her eyes and whispers, “Sounds kind of stalkerish, LL.”
“No, Tessa, just someone who admires your assets.”
She peeks up at me through those thick, black lashes and smiles a sweet, little smile. “Wow … does that normally work for you?”
“Every fucking time.” I pull her into a hug.
She wraps her arms around me and lets me hold her for a long time.
“See, baby? I remember everything, too. Let me make it right. I swear to God I won’t disappoint you. Not ever again.”
She doesn’t let go. She stands holding me as tight as I’m holding her. “Don’t push, okay?”