For a moment, we get lost in each other’s eyes.
“Men blowing you.”
Anger brews in his eyes, but it fades fast.
He whips his head to the side and looks at the ocean, a muscle pulsing in his jaw.
He brings the cigarette to his lips, pondering.
“I don’t think about the other person... Whether it’s a man or a woman. No one who has sex for money does. I don’t think so. Sometimes not even those who don’t fuck for money do.”
He swings his gaze back, his lips pulled into a soft smile.
“Maybe the men you’re paying think about you,” he says.
“What makes you say that?”
“You’re hot. And you’re probably not looking for romance, or you wouldn’t pay for it. You can get a plight of men to romance you.”
He tucks his cigarette at the corner of his lips, his chest rising as he inhales, and then cocks his head to the side and narrows his eyes, examining me.
Unhurriedly, he ashes his cigarette, the corners of his mouth lifting into a slow, knowing smile.
I watch him, spellbound.
“I imagine you’re after something different than most women. Something that men crave to give away for free. Something that naturally boils in their blood. In some men, anyway. So yeah... I’m sure they think about you when they fuck you.”
Rivulets of sweat roll down my neck as warmth drapes over my shoulders and pleasure pulses between my legs.
“How do you get hard then?” I ask.
“I know how to turn myself on regardless of the circumstances or the partner.”
He studies my face.
“Does this satisfy your curiosity?” he asks abruptly but softens his words with a smile.
I nod.
He stays silent.
“What about you?” he asks.
“What about me?”
“If you don’t need romance, what gets you off?”
Evading his eyes, I stare at the ocean and smile.
* * *
Roses fillthe room with their fresh sweet aroma.
I must’ve slept for a few good hours, yet it’s still dark outside. I push to my elbows and check his bed through the open door.
The floor creaks.
I sit upright, pull the curtain to the side, and look out the window. The morning light barely tears apart the remnants of the night while he saunters to the ocean.