“Well, yeah, you suppose? This isn’t a joke, Christian. What if Simon found out?”
“Okay, I—”
“What if Simon found out and filed for divorce?”
I put up my hands. I’ve struck a nerve. Her eyes are on fire.
“What if Simon found out and filed for divorcebefore November third?” she says. “Did you read that trust language?”
“I did—”
“If he even files for divorce before our ten years are up, I’m done. I don’t get a penny.”
“I know.”
She gets off the couch, grabs her bag. “Okay, I’m glad you know. Do you also know that I don’t have four hundredmilliondollars in investments or whatever you have? That this money is the only money I have?”
Whoa, whoa, whoa, this is spiraling.
“Yes, and I’m sorry,” I say. “I don’t mean to be so casual about that. Hey.” I walk up to her, though she appears to be in no mood for comfort or intimacy right now. “Vicky, I will never do anything that jeopardizes that.Nothing. If it’s important to you, it’s important to me.You’reimportant to me. Haven’t you figured that out yet?”
She’s still fuming, still upset, her eyes turned from mine. I don’t move, following her lead.
But eventually, as I knew she would, she looks into my eyes.
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“I can do the grocery run,” I say.
“Jeez, with what?” says Miriam, my boss, bent down in her office with the safe open, trying to scrounge up whatever petty cash she can. Her “office” is really a converted garage. We’ve tried to maximize every square inch of this property to fit as many people as we can in our shelter.
Miriam is a lifer at Safe Haven, one of the people who started it up thirty years ago after escaping an abusive relationship of her own. She has a severe look to her, rarely smiling, heavy lines on her face and silver hair pulled back tight, trim as a drill sergeant with much the same demeanor, though she has as big a heart as anyone I know.
“Low on funds already?” I ask. “It’s only the middle of the month.”
“We have twenty-two dollars,” she says. “To buy two hundred dollars’ worth of groceries.” She fishes into her jeans pocket and pulls out some cash.
“That’s okay, I have some money,” I say. I think I have maybe forty dollars.
“Don’t start spending your own money,” she tells me. “I don’t pay you enough as it is.”
But people have to eat. These women who come to us, seeking refuge from abuse, often with their kids—we aren’t providing much of a “haven” if we can’t supply them with meals. As it is, we buy as cheaply as we can, cutting out coupons, looking for sales, buying generic. Good thing I have many, many years of practice doing so.
“It’s fine,” I say. “Just drop it. I’ll get as much as I can.”
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I go to the shelter’s kitchen, reviewing the stock of groceries we have remaining and putting together a list. Then I debate whether to go to the superstore ten miles away or the local grocery store, with the four pages of coupons. The superstore is usually cheaper; we pay a one-time annual subscription fee—which I assume is how that chain makes its money—and buy groceries at a lower cost. But with coupons for the local grocery store, I might be able to stretch my dollar more. I have the twenty-two dollars that Miriam gave me and thirty-seven of my own, and I have to make it count.
I’m midway through the comparison, clipping coupons and banging on the calculator, when my phone buzzes. It’s from Rambo, of all people, a text message. Why is my private investigator texting me? I open the message, all of three numbers: 911.
I pop out of the chair and head outside. I’ll want good reception. And more importantly, privacy.
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“You’vegotto be kidding me,” I say, walking into the parking lot outside the shelter, phone pressed against my ear, my feet crunching gravel. “Please, just—justtellme this is a joke.”