Didn’t she?
Ellie didn’t have time to wonderif she’d actually said it out loud,because Cody plunged his fingers into her wet heat and fucked her furiously with them. There was no chance to assimilate, a couple of harsh pumps; a targeted slap to her clitoris and Ellie erupted with a climax so profound that everything went blank.
When she came back to herself, she was wrapped up in a blanket and Cody had her snuggled on his knee. She didn’t think she’d blacked out; it was just that the pleasure had just washed everything from her mind.
Now as he sat tenderly rubbing her back and making her feel so sheltered and protected that she never wanted to move, she knew that Cody could have done anything he wanted with her and she wouldn’t have stopped him. He must have been aware of that too. But he hadn’t taken advantage. She knew that, not least because she could still feel the hard ridge of his unappeased erection pressing insistently against her tingling ass.
And that alone made her appreciate him all the more.
Chapter Sixteen
So, here she was, a few weeks later, with dozens of experiences, some memorable days out, a few explosively sexual situations and a jar full of precious memories.
Of course, none of this was helping Ellie to decide. If anything, it just made things more difficult.
Each one of the Carson brothers was special to her; all in their own different way. They all offered something that she desperately wanted to clutch hold of and never let go. And that was impossible, of course.
Cody with his commanding presence, his sexy dominance and that way he had of making her feel like she was completely secure, and he would take care of her and always make certain everything was alright.
Syrus with his relaxed sensuality, his romantic heart, and sincere thoughtfulness, who melted her heart and made her feel like she was the most important person in the world.
Ezra with his playful, fun loving persona who always made sure she was never down and brought a lightness and laughter into her life that had been missing for far too long.
They were all as sexy as sin, and every single one of them got her motor revving in their own unique way.
As she tried, once again, to test her preferences, a slew of those memories inundated her mind.
Like the time Syrus moved all the furniture in the lounge and put on a playlist of romantic ballads and insisted she dance with him.
The lights were dimmed, and she felt as if she was in a precious little bubble where only the two of them existed and things were simple.
Then he had started singing some of the lyrics in her ear and she had just melted, just like she always did when she was with him. He made her feel cherished, and that was a heady and addictive sensation. Yes, Syrus would make an attentive and loving husband.
Except then there was Cody. In a lot of ways, he was like the flip side of the coin to Syrus and Ellie’s mind drifted to those regular interludes which had sprung up where he took her aside, laid her across his knee and drizzled lube down the crack of her ass. Then his fingers would be there, rubbing and probing, dipping and stretching. Readying her for the next size butt plug and lighting up nerves which she never knew existed. Playing with her until she was wet and panting and ready to go off like a firecracker, which sometimes he encouraged and sometimes he forbade, which only made the next time even hotter. But there was much more than just the physicality. She had come clean and told all three of them about her windfall inheritance and Cody had immediately sat her down and helped her to invest it wisely and started the process of ensuring that her money was protected and earning her interest. It proved to her he cared about her wellbeing and wasn’t going to rip her off, even though she had been more than happy to share and contribute to the ranch. She treasured the security he enveloped her with, and that was a potent thing for a girl who had so recently been homeless. She knew he would be a stable and reliable husband.
And finally, there was Ezreal. He might be fun loving and often irreverent, and he always made her laugh, but in a lot of ways he had proved to be a mixture of his two brothers, and he brought with him echoes of both of them. He could at times be sensitive and romantic like Syrus and at others be kind of kinky and wickedly sexual. Sometimes she thought that made him the obvious choice of husband; except it wasn’t really obvious at all, because she couldn’t get past the desperate sadness of losing the others.
If she could only take all three of them and roll them into one, then it would be perfect.
But that was impossible, too. Almost as impossible as the thought of having to give two of them up.
So, there she was, back at square one again and no closer to making up her mind.
It was a Sunday afternoon, and the men had retired to the den while she cleaned up after the roast dinner she had served. The weekends had become a sort of ‘family time’, since she had returned. Time the brothers could take off, except for having to do the usual daily chores, because with her there, all three of them couldworkthe ranch, without one of them always having to take time out to do the cooking and the household chores that she had taken over.
She could hear them bantering as she made her way down the hall, but a couple of the words she heard stopped her in her tracks.
“Do you think she’s decided yet? I mean, I don’t want to push, but it’s been a while now. Surely she must have some idea?” She recognized Syrus’ voice and Cody’s reply.
“What’s the hurry? She’ll get there in her own time.”
“You just don’t want to give up your spanking rights when she chooses me,” Ezra retorted with a laugh.
“Who says she’ll pick you? I’m pretty sure she prefers romance over some jock who throws her into a pond!”
“Because I’m the one who got past first base,” Ezra sniggered.
“You’re not the only one who got past first base, though, and I’d shut the hell up if I were you, because I don’t think it will help your chances if she hears you talking like that.”