“Connor, where is everyone taking Daddy?” Harry said. I watched as Connor laughed at the sound of her name.
When Celia walked through the entrance to the park, not even a block from our apartment, Harry spotted the blanket already set out with the umbrella and the picnic baskets, and he smiled.
“A picnic?” he said.
“Simple family picnic. Just the five of us,” I said.
Harry smiled. He closed his eyes for a moment. As if he’d reached heaven. “Absolutely perfect,” he said.
“I made the sangria,” Celia said. “Luisa made the food, obviously.”
“Obviously,” Harry said, laughing.
“And John got the umbrella.”
John bent down and grabbed the wigs. “And these.”
He handed me a curly black one and gave Celia a short blond one. Harry took a red one. And John put on the long brown one that made him look like a hippie.
We all laughed as we looked at one another, but I was surprised to see just how realistic they managed to be. And when I put on the coordinating pair of sunglasses, I felt a little freer.
“If you got the wigs and Celia made the sangria, what did Evelyn do?” Harry asked as he took Connor off his back and put her on the blanket. I grabbed her and helped her sit up.
“Good question,” John said, smiling. “You’d have to ask her.”
“Oh, I helped,” I said.
“Actually, yeah, Evelyn, what did you do?” Celia said.
I looked up to see the three of them all staring at me teasingly.
“I . . .” I gestured vaguely to the picnic basket. “You know . . .”
“No,” Harry said, laughing. “I don’t know.”
“Listen, I’ve been very busy,” I said.
“Uh-huh,” Celia said.
“Oh, all right.” I lifted Connor up as she started to frown. I knew it meant tears were coming any moment. “I didn’t do a damn thing.”
The three of them started laughing at me, and then Connor started laughing, too.
John opened the basket. Celia poured wine. Harry leaned over and kissed Connor’s forehead.
It was one of the last times we were all together, laughing, smiling, happy. A family.
Because after that, I ruined it.
DON AND I WERE IN the middle of shooting Three A.M. in New York. Luisa, Celia, and Harry were trading off watching Connor while I was at work. The days were longer than we anticipated, and the shoot ran long.
I played Patricia, a woman in love with a drug addict, Mark, played by Don. And every day, I could see that he was not the old Don I knew, showing up to set and saying some lines with charm. This was striking, superlative, raw acting. He was pulling from his life, and he was putting it on film.
On set, you really hope that it’s all coming together into something magical in the camera lens. But there’s never any way to know for sure.
Even when Harry and I were producing work ourselves, when we were watching the dailies so often that my eyes felt dry and I was losing track of reality versus film, we were never one hundred percent sure that all the parts were coming together perfectly until we saw the first cut.
But on the set of Three A.M., I just knew. I knew it was a movie that would change how people saw me, how people saw Don. I thought it might just be good enough to change lives, to get people clean. It might just be good enough to change the way movies were made.