“I don’t doubt Snaky is wishing for a career change right about now.”
“Speaking of careers, how long before you tell my brother to stick it and you run away with me to New York?” Or some other place the mafia life can’t touch us. The moon maybe.
“As soon as you tell him you’re screwing three guys in the middle of a sex club.”
Her face scrunches at the sight of mine doing the same.
In a low voice I say, “Would you seriously pass up the chance to have something with those three if you had a chance? C’mon. You can tell me.”
“The problem with that is I owe Harlon. You know that. It doesn’t matter what I want.”
Her words reverberate through me like a ton of truth hitting me all at once.
It doesn’t matter what I want. Gage, Rush, and Aziel can never be more than a fleeting time for me. All that matters is what is best for the Constantine family. Worse yet, Sapphire and I are trapped under the rules of a dark world we don’t want any part of anymore.
Around us, the room is starting to fill with members and my mind turns to the show. I feel the energy shift in the room and look up to see my three alphas prowl toward us.
“More later, okay?” Sapphire and I both stand. She turns, following my line of sight, and comes face to face with all three of my SEALs.
“Hey, sweetheart,” drawls Gage, reaching for me. He slips a thick arm around my waist while the other two come up on the other side.
“Ready for tonight, baby girl?” Rush places a slow kiss over my exposed collarbone. You know what I’m talking about. The kind of kiss that says I know what we are about to do and it’s going to be hella kinky.
The third comes up behind me. Aziel. An arm winds tightly around my middle right above Gage’s. This isn’t for the show either. There’s possession in their touches and Sapphire notices big time.
“Mind if we take Belle for a little while? We promise to bring her back safe and sound.” Rush winks at Sapphire, all innocent and sweet.
“Gentlemen,” she says with a knowing smile.
“Just a minute guys, please.” I place my hands on either of Sapphire’s shoulders.
Blue eyes hook mine. “Belle. I don’t know how you do it.”
I know what she means, but I don’t try to correct her. I can see in her eyes she thinks I’ve found some happily ever after when in reality I’ve done nothing but give myself heartache in the end.
I smile softly and keep all the coming dread in my life under wraps for now. There will be plenty of long nights of crying and ice cream in my future.
But not tonight.
“It’s simple. Once we get going, their hands on me, their mouths doing wicked things…down there, it’s like magic. The audience fades to dull noise and it stops being about the show. It’s me with my men. I enjoy giving others pleasure and if I can help others find their balance in some way, how can I not explore that?”
I place a hand over my cousin’s heart. “You should do the same.”
I smooth out a few stray strands of hair near her cheek and give her a quick hug. “Go with your men, sweetie. I’ll be fine. Promise.” Lifting my gaze, I find hope in what I see. “It looks like tonight might hold something good for the both of us.”
Sapphire’s brows draw together when I pull back from her.
“Why?”
In a low voice, I say, “Don’t look now but you have visitors coming your way. Nowyouseek out those bold new adventures and maybe lose that V card to a crew of handsome Bratva.”
“Belle,” she starts.
I slip across the small distance to join my waiting lovers. In a louder voice, I say, “Gentlemen, be careful with her.”
“Do we need to do something? They don’t look like the nicest men.” Rush looks over his shoulder as we walk away.
“Actually, I think that is what my cousin likes about them. Just how rough and tough they are.”