“Do you have any idea how many times I imagined this?” He stared down at me.
“Show me,” I breathed. “Show me everything.”
“Fuck, B.” His hand slipped between our bodies finding my center. “You’re so wet for me,” he rasped, sliding his fingers over my damp underwear. “I need to feel you.”
I nodded, lifting my hips slightly, silently showing him what I wanted.
Hooking the material aside, he pressed two fingers into me. A whimper spilled from my lips as he curled them deep. Nix watched me, every moan and whispered plea, as he worked me with his fingers. But it wasn’t enough. I wanted to feel him. I wanted him with me, inside me.
“Nix,” I said, breathless. “I want… you. Please. I need to feel you.” Curling my fingers around his wrist, I pulled his hand away. His eyes darkened, blown with lust as I stroked him through his boxers.
Nix grabbed my hands, pinning them on either side of my head as he rocked his hips into me.
“God, Nix.” I pressed my lips together, trapping the moans.
One of his hands slipped under my t-shirt, sliding up my stomach to cup my breast. “You are so fucking beautiful.” He leaned down, brushing his mouth over mine, teasing me with little kisses.
“Nix…” Frustration coated my voice.
“What do you want, B?”
“You. All of you.”
Some indecipherable emotion lit up his eyes and he pressed a quick kiss to my lips before climbing off me and padding over to his jeans. He pulled a foil wrapper out of his wallet and I arched a brow.
“Do I even want to know?” My stomach sank, but he stalked toward me, the intensity in his gaze breathtaking.
“Let me make one thing clear, B,” he said, inching my panties down until they slipped free of my legs. My t-shirt went next and then his, until we were both naked, nothing but skin and scars between us.
Nix tore open the wrapper and rolled the latex over himself, crawling over me. “It’s you. It’s always been you. I was too scared back then to take what I wanted. I’m not good enough for you, B.”
“Nix, that’s—”
“Shh.” He brushed his lips over mine again. “It’s the truth. Life by my side won’t be easy. It won’t be like… this.” His eyes scanned the guest room. “But I’m done fighting it. I lost you once, Birdie. I won’t lose you again.”
His words sank into me, stitching my heart back together.
Nothing would ever wholly fix me; I knew that. But being here with Nix was more than I could have ever hoped for.
His eyes met mine, his body trembling above me as he gripped my hip and slowly inched into me. “Okay?”
I nodded, clutching his shoulders as he filled me.
“Fuck, B. Fuuuuck.” He dropped his face to my neck, stilling inside me.
“N-Nix?” I croaked.
“Just… give me a second, yeah?”
My heart was a wild beating thing inside my chest. This was happening. Me and Nix.
Me and Nix.
And it felt so right, so inevitable, that a rush of emotion rose in my chest and exploded as he pulled out of me and slammed home.
Home.
Nix was my home, he always had been.