“My bullet caught him in the shoulder. A Forest Service team found him downriver. He’s in surgery right now, but they say he’ll make it.” I was trying not to be annoyed that it had taken Ruiz hours to call to give me the news. He was dealing with a storm and needed to work by the book.
I slid back under the covers, back to Everly and her warmth. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her against my chest. “This doesn’t change that you’re safe. Young and Williams brought Ian in for questioning, too. They’re holding him for as long as they can.”
“I know I’m safe. I just…”
“What?”
She traced circles on the planes of my chest. “I don’t know how to feel. On the one hand, I’m relieved that I’m not the reason he’s dead—”
“You never would’ve been the reason. Ben’s actions are what brought him to that place, not yours.”
“I know that in my head…”
I pressed my lips to her hair. “But your heart’s a different story.”
“Yes.”
And Ev’s heart would always bleed for others. Her soul would take on more responsibility than it needed to. But I couldn’t wish that away. Not when it was also her greatest strength. How she could reach people and animals in a way no one else could. The way she saw more than anyone else. Those were some of the things I loved most about Ev, and I couldn’t wish them away. Even if I knew one of the downsides of her gift was pain. I would simply have to be there to ease that hurt.
I brushed the hair away from her face. “I love you, Ev. We’ll get through this. You’re so damn strong.”
“And having you just makes me stronger.” Her fingers moved from drawing circles on my pec to figure eights. “I realized something when he had me.”
Just the words had images filling my mind, things that would haunt me forever, but I forced my muscles to relax as I held her. “What’s that?”
“You’re my resting place.”
It wasn’t anything I’d ever been called before, anything I’d ever aspired to. But in that moment, there was no higher compliment or calling.
Everly looked up at me. “I’ve never had that before. You helped me find my peace.”
My throat burned as I stared down at the woman who owned me, body and soul. “I feel it, too. Never felt more at ease than when I’m with you. I think we created that peace together.”
“Never felt anything more beautiful.”
And we were never going to lose it. I would marry her tomorrow if she’d let me. But I knew that might be a bit much for her. I knew it would come, though. That day where we stood up and promised forever to each other. But forever had already begun.
Everly tilted her head and brushed her lips against mine. The feel and taste of her eased the bit of me that was still on edge. That fear still clawing at muscle and sinew, feral and vicious. Even holding her in my arms hadn’t totally sated that beast. Because even though she was safe now, I’d still almost lost her.
Everly deepened the kiss, her tongue stroking mine, silently asking for more. It was all I wanted, and yet, I couldn’t. I gently took her face in my hands, pulling away from the kiss with a groan. “We can’t. You need to rest. Heal.”
She wouldn’t say it, but I knew Ev was hurting. I could see it in the way she’d moved up the stairs tonight. The last thing I wanted was to cause her any more pain.
Her hand pressed against my bare chest. “I need you, Hayes.”
No other words could’ve broken my resolve. “I don’t want to hurt you.”
“You won’t. But I need this. You. Us. I need to remember that I’m alive, and I haven’t lost you.”
My hand slipped beneath the borrowed t-shirt she wore, finding only bare skin. “You’ll never lose me.”
She looked up at me, almost pleading. “Then show me.”
My fingers slid up the outside of her leg, between her thighs, searching. Everly’s head tipped back as I stroked and explored. My lips found the column of her neck. I trailed kisses around the light bruises that had begun to form. As if my mouth could erase the marks, the memories, all of it.
I slipped two fingers inside her, stroking. Everly let out a low moan. The sound had me straining against the sweats I wore.
“Need you,” she whispered.