His voice was a hush, a rasp, and a prayer as I drew the flat of my tongue all the way up his cock, his hands locking down on my head. He let me get a few licks in, but when I went to suck the mess of pre-cum away from the head, he grabbed my hair and tried to drag me away. I planted my hands in the bed, pulling back against his grip, forcing him to let me be or hurt me.
“Riley, this isn’t about us. It’s about you—”
“This is about me,” I said, gripping his cock around the base and sucking him down as deep as I could go, swivelling my tongue along his length to the frantic sound of his hiss. “This is about me taking what I need,” I continued when my mouth came away with a pop. “This is about me taking your pleasure.”
“Fuck, you’ve got that part right,” he ground out as I worked my mouth up and down his cock. “Riley. Riley,please…”
It was the begging that got to me, so as his cock began to twitch, I pulled free and then stared down at him, and that was a mistake. He had his hand around my wrists in a second, my body shoved down on the bed, and he held them there, even as I fought his grip.
“Haze…” I snarled, but he just grinned, kicking my thighs wide and settling down between them. “Haze…” He grabbed his cock in his free hand and lined himself up. “Haze!”
The last was gasped out as he shoved himself right where I needed him, my cunt twitching in response to the sudden intrusion.
“Yes, my Riley,” he answered finally. “Yes.”
He moved slowly then, staring down at me the whole time. He watched me as I watched him, so I caught every wince, every gasp, every frown, as if the pleasure we created between us hurt him, and I knew exactly how he felt.
We built walls around ourselves because they helped us to feel safe. We walled off the soft squishy parts, never to be brought out, maintaining an impressive façade and wondering why we feel so alone. But losing those walls was no easy thing, as I was quickly realising. I felt so fucking raw as he moved inside me, because it wasn’t just a matter of peen in vag, it was so much more.
When Haze stared, he saw past the me on the surface, past my face, and it felt like he saw all the way down inside me, into every nook and cranny of my soul, and what he found there? It made him smile, just a little, a small, almost sad little thing, until the fire between us burned higher.
I knew what was coming now, my body readying itself. My clasp on him tightened, my legs not allowing his hips to pull back, my arms straining against his grip. I wanted him pressing me down into the bed, pinning me to the mattress right up until…
“You’re gonna take me now, aren’t you? Like a good little girl? You’re my good girl. Take my knot, Riley. Take it!”
His alpha bark ripped through me, that pressure not as intense this time as he worked his way in. My body fought him, the pinch growing, growing, until finally… He sobbed out his relief as I did mine.
“Fuck, baby, it’s everything I dreamed of.”
That was the only warning I got before his fangs buried themselves in my shoulder.
I screamed then, at the feel of him pulsing inside me, then wrenched my hands free, clawing his hair back. He turned his head for me, wanting, needing my bite, and I sank my teeth into his neck, sucking on his flesh, the blood exploding in my mouth as I did. With every ecstatic pulse, I tasted his blood, until finally, I fell backwards on the bed, the room filled with the rapid rasps of our breath.
Ryan stroked my hair back from my forehead, pressing his thumb to a spot of blood on the edge of my mouth and then pushing it between my lips for me to suck clean. I let out a tired little moan, the day’s insanity starting to hit me, but I didn’t get a chance to dwell on that for long.
“You’re gonna need to let him go,” Ryan said, smiling down at me. “You’ve got more mates to claim. It’s my turn now.”
Chapter 46
“No…” Haze grumbled sleepily, moving to keep me where I was, but Ryan just chuckled.
“You wouldn’t let things take their natural course, brother,” Ryan said, but that smile faded when he stared at me. “You teased her until Colt was forced to pull free because you needed her. Well, we need the same. Fen?”
Soon, I was bracketed by three alphas, Haze peeling himself off me, looking like it broke his heart to do so, but I didn’t get long to dwell on that.
“You ready for this, love?” Fen asked me, tipping my face his way. He moved closer, and somehow, that felt stranger, that Fen Vanguard was going to kiss me. It’d happened before, was definitely going to happen again, but… He watched me almost warily as he moved in for a kiss, like he wasn’t sure how he’d be received, so I reached out and took his mouth as mine.
The part of me that hadn’t wanted to believe that the guys could be mine was most centred on Fen. Because he was the leader of the lot of them, the ultimate pinnacle of strength in our town. Because I’d listened to guys talk about him with an almost slavish respect. Because I’d been forced to endure so many girls’ questions as they tried to draw out yet more details from me to flesh out their fantasies. It was hard to see the actual man behind the image, so I stopped and stared back for just a second, watching those green eyes search mine, peering behind the mask I’d made for him and trying to find the real Fen.
Of course, that was when Ryan smacked his hand across my arse.
“Oh fuck…” Haze winced as my whole body tightened around him, squeezing him so hard in that second, his hands clawed at me. “Bloody hell, do that again.”
“No, don’t,” I said in a low growl.
But Ryan grinned then, completely unrepentant.
“Gotta get a reaction from you, remember?” he said, referencing the way he used to wind me up when we were kids.