His eyes shutter close, pain etched on his face. “Fuck, I’m begging you, please don’t do that again.”
I giggle. “It’s not like I intended to do it.”
He hugs me tightly. “I know you didn’t. God, it was awful. I’ll probably have nightmares for the rest of my life.”
“I’m sorry,” I tell him, placing a kiss against his lips. “How’s your dad? He must be taking this pretty hard.” Having his ex-wife as well as his current wife shot within hours of each other.
“He’s putting on a brave face, but I know it’s killing him inside. As much as he and your mom argued toward the end, mainly about me. My dad loved her, you were right what you said, my dad gave her everything she wanted, he was happiest with her and now she’s gone.”
“I don’t know what happened to my mom, but she loved your dad, she really did. When she spoke about him, it was with pure happiness. When Lacey and I came to their house in Hidden Hills, I can honestly say that I had never seen my mom as happy as I did then. Your dad was the best thing that happened to her and I’m glad that she had that love. That she had someone who worshiped her as your dad did. I think everyone deserves to feel that love once in their life.”
He nods. “I’m going to get him Mia, and I’m going to make sure that he’s out of our lives for good.”
I wish I could believe that, I really do but this has been going on for too long now. “He’s taken the only blood family I had left. He’s taken so much from me Hudson. So fucking much. I don’t understand why I’m the one being punished?”
“I want to take this hurt away from you, Baby. I wish I could tell you that I’ll have him tomorrow but the truth is, I don’t know where he is and until I do, I’m chasing a fucking ghost. The man has hurt you in ways that I will never understand but feel every night we go to bed because every night you have a nightmare and I try and comfort you, you flinch. That’s on him. The man has killed your best friend, a woman I grew close to, even though it was only for a couple of weeks, I feel that because she was your girl. He also killed your mom, my dad’s wife and I’ll feel that pain too because you both feel it deeply. He killed my men, he’s killed my men’s wives. He’s gone after my mom. I feel these things, and I’m burying them, Baby, as I’m biding my time, I’m going to get him, it may not be tomorrow, or next week, but one day I’m going to get him and that anger I feel is going to come out and he’s going to feel every single thing.”
Oh my God. “Hudson,” I whisper, unable to say anything else. I wrap my arms around him, offering the support that he offers me without question.
“Princess, I know that the longer he’s out there the more you’re going to worry but I’m doing everything I can to find him. My men are working tirelessly to find him. I see the disappointment in your eyes every time I come home and I haven’t found him. I see it all, including the fact that you’re hiding something from me.”
I sigh, not releasing him. “I know I am and I promise Hudson, I’ll tell you, but not here.”
He pulls me away from him, his ha
nds moving to my face, he’s silent as his eyes searches mine. “Okay Princess, tonight it’s just you and me.”
I nod, that sounds good. “Okay Hudson, just me and you.”
“Good, I’m going to see if I can find the doctor and see if I can bring you home.”
I nod. “That’ll be good, I want to get out of here, but I want to see your mom and dad first.” I need to make sure that they’re okay. Let his dad know that he’s not alone, I’m grieving with him too.
Three
Hudson
The doctor has finally come by to see Mia, he’s allowed her to go home, which has made me less fucking anxious. I thought that she’d be here for the night and I know what these hospitals are like with visitors, I wouldn’t be able to stay here with her which would give Martin easy access to her.
She grips my arm tightly, as we walk toward my mom, she doesn’t look as grey as she had. She’ll be the death of me, I swear her fainting took years off my life. I’m grateful that I managed to catch her, her head was inches from the floor.
“Hudson, are you okay? You’re quiet?” she asks me softly.
I’m so surprised by her, she’s more worried about me than anything. Her mom’s just died and yet she’s focused on checking on my parents. “Yeah, Princess,”
“Mmhmm.”
“What’s mmhmm about?”
“Mmhmm is mmhmm, you’re full of shit. You’re never this quiet.”
I stop her in her tracks. “Mia, I’m fine, there’s nothing wrong, I am usually this quiet.”
She gives me a smile. “You may be quiet, but never with me. Let’s go see your parents and then we can go home.” She takes my hand and starts walking again.
“Mia…”
She shakes her head. “I understand, we’re all going through a lot and we’re still getting to know each other. Your silence is your way of sorting everything out. I guess we’re similar in that sense.”