Everything he said is right. I've wanted him every day since that fantastic night we shared. He's been on my mind constantly, and as soon as I saw him again, I was drawn to him. I can't help the way I feel, the way we feel, and we're not technically doing anything wrong.
I wrap my hands around his neck as our kiss deepens. I need him, God, I need him so much. "Hudson," I breathe as I tear my mouth away from his. "I want you." My eyes pleading with him, as my hands move down to his shirt buttons.
He smiles, his hands tighten on my ass cheeks, and the next thing I know I'm being lifted into the air, I quickly wrap my arms around his neck, holding onto him for dear life. "About fucking time. I've been hard all night from just staring at you. Mia, when I take you, it's going to be hard and it's going to be fucking fast. I'll make it up to you later."
I whimper at his words, "Hurry." I beg him, and he wastes no time, he walks with me in his arms towards his bedroom, my feet dangling in mid-air as the dress I'm wearing is tight and I can't wrap them around his waist. I don't pay attention to his room, I'm in a lust-filled haze, one that's like tunnel vision, all I see is him.
He gently lowers me until my feet hit the ground, his fingers go to my dress and he slowly begins to unzip it. I swear he's doing it antagonizingly slow just to mess with me. My dress falls to the floor, the material pooling at my feet. Taking my hand, he steadies me as I step out of it, "Perfection," he says as his eyes rake over my body, darkening as he gets to my lacy thong. "Shit." He curses as he roughly pulls off his suit jacket and kicks off his shoes.
I stand here shyly looking at him, God, I feel so stupid. Why am I so nervous? It's not as though we've not done this before.
His fingers go to the button of his pants, and his cell rings. I watch as the lust leaves his face as the phone continues to ring. When he reaches into the pocket of his pants, it's like a bucket of cold water has been thrown over me.
"Yeah?" He answers the phone, and everything hits me at once. This is my step-brother. We shouldn’t be doing this. God, if Mom finds out she’ll go crazy. I reach for my dress and quickly pull it on as Hudson talks to whoever he's on the call with. "Want to tell me why you waited until now to call?"
I manage to zip my dress up, and I don't say anything to him as I leave his room, I doubt he's even noticed that I've gone. Looking at the floor, I close the door behind me and on us. There's no way we would work, no matter how much Hudson believes that I'm his and vice versa, it wouldn't work. Everyone knows that our parents are married; being together is not right, of that I'm sure.
"Oh, there you are." Mom's voice makes me look up and I see her standing outside my room. She frowns, "What were you doing in Hudson's room?"
My breath leaves me in a whoosh, and guilt eats away at me. This is why we shouldn't be doing what we were just about to do. Everyone will disapprove and not only that, it's weird, our parents are married.
"Nothing." I lie, "He was trying to find out who it was that was on the door the night I went to the club." The door behind me opens, and instantly I feel that pull, "But he wouldn't listen. It was almost two years ago now, what happened that night happened a long time ago, it's time to move on and make sure it never happens again."
Mom looks at me and then behind me. I don't turn, I know if I do my resolve will wane, and I'll be in his arms. "I'm upset that you lied to me Mia, I wanted to check on you, I know that you get upset whenever you talk about your dad."
A lump forms in my throat and I blink back the tears. I don't want to talk about this, not here, not now. "I'm fine." I lie once again, "I'm just tired Mom." I whisper as I walk toward her.
She opens her arms out wide, and I willingly walk into them, "Love you, Mia."
"Love you too Mom," I reply as I wrap my arms around her waist and squeeze tight.
"We'll talk tomorrow." Mom whispers and I know what she means, tomorrow we're going to have an open and honest discussion about everything and anything. She'll ask me questions and expect honesty, and I don't think I can do that about Hudson and I. Although she has no reason to suspect anything as long as I manage to keep my distance.
"Okay Mom, is everyone gone?" I ask as I pull away from her, that magnetic feeling I have is still strong, which means that Hudson is still standing there.
She reaches for my hair and pushes it behind my ear, "Yes, they're all gone, and Harrison and I are going to turn in. I just wanted to check on you first."
I smile, "I'm pleased for you, Mom. You and Harrison seem really happy." I shrug, "That's all that I could ask for after Dad died."
"He'd be so proud of you, Mia, just as I am." She presses a soft kiss on my cheek, "Sweet dreams."
I give her a soft smile as I walk to my door, placing a hand on the handle I turn and see her, she's walking toward the stairs. Hudson, however, is standing against the wall with his arms crossed over his chest. "Night Mom. See you in the morning." I call out.
"Goodnight Mia, goodnight Hudson." She tells us as she starts to descend the stairs.
"You left, again." His eyes flashing as he stalks toward me. "Why?"
I press down on my door handle and push it open. "You were busy, and I'm tired. Goodnight Hudson." I turn and before I can walk one step his hand clamps around my arm. I sigh, "Hudson please don't do this." I beg. I know that I'm not strong enough to say no to him.
"Mia, look at me." He demands and instantly my eyes shoot up to his. "What's going on?"
"Hudson, we shouldn't be doing this." My hand reaches out for his. I swallow trying to make my mouth less dry. "I feel like a broken record. I want you, God, I want you so badly. But at the same time, I feel so much guilt, like what we're doing or going to do is wrong. Dirty even." I confess.
He smirks, "I like dirty."
I shake my head, "I'm being serious, and you think it's a joke."
His hand goes to my head and pulls me towards him, "No, we're two consenting adults, and we can damn well do as we please. Mia, if you don't want me, say the word and I'll walk out of this room now