“And then?” I barely breathed the words, feeling everything he said. I could feel the thrill of the chase in my spine, knew exactly what it would feel like to run across the soft earth, my haunches powerful, my feet fleet. Peter’s eyes shone green for a moment as they stared into mine.
“And then you’ll go into heat,” Aidan said. “It’s…intense. All you wanna do is fuck, anyone and anything. It goes on for a few days, maybe a week. Long enough for you to start getting an idea of who you might want to take as mates.”
“Right…” I replied, a manifestly inadequate response, but what else could I say? Fear and desire fought a brutal battle inside me, but my Tirian shifted, quelling all of that. I looked into her eyes and she into mine, and knew, just like with Rick, she wouldn’t steer me wrong. While human me went into an anxiety spiral at chasing a bunch of strange men, Tirian me saw it as my due.
We are the same, she replied. The difference is entirely artificial.
Well, excuse me for being a little weirded out about sport fucking a group of strangers.
Not fucking, testing. Look. My eyes were jerked towards the men who watched us. They want to prove themselves worthy of you, vie for your attention, as men should. Search among them, find those that you like, then test them. If they do not please you, if they will not make for good fathers for the cub, then you will discard them. It is the way.
I spluttered mentally at that. It certainly wasn’t the way for most of my life. I would never have ended up with Rick if that was the case.
Which is exactly the point. Now, they are going to start approaching you. That one has the lead, she said, referring to a tall man with longish black hair who wove his way between the tables, heading straight for us.
My first response was I wanted to take a step back, the second was a little unexpected. Something sneaky, part me, part Tirian, wanted to inspect him closely, because damn… Along with that black hair was a pair of grey eyes that stood out starkly against his bronzed skin. Those full lips quirked a little when he caught me looking, giving him an almost boyish look, but it dissipated as soon as he drew near. My eyes flicked to the guys as they straightened up, moving ever so slightly closer to me.
“Fellas,” he said, nodding to the guys, then he looked at me.
Whoa, I thought, as it felt like his eyes speared right into me. He had a greeting right there on the tip of his tongue, but it died away when our eyes locked. He just stood there, shifting slightly, as if he wanted to come closer but held himself back and took me in.
Why? was my first thought. The second? Closer. I wanted to get closer, to see if that big, muscular body was as nice as it looked in the black t-shirt and jeans that stretched over his lean form.
Something he seemed to sense as a slow smile spread across his face. His eyes shone green for a second when he held out a hand. “I’m Sen. You must be Flick.”
I didn’t take it initially, looking at the guys for…what? Their reaction? Their approval? Peter just nodded, and Aidan shrugged and said, “It’s up to you, Flick.”
“Hi,” I said, making myself reach out and take his hand.
He caught the moment I gasped as I felt a rolling wave of heat up my arm. It wasn’t like the mate bond I shared with Peter, but it was close. It seemed to catch him by surprise as well, that smile quickly faltering and replaced by something else entirely, something naked and vulnerable. It took a slight cough from Aidan, along with a sidelong ‘are you OK?’ look for me to pull away.
“Um…look, I came over here to see if I could get you some breakfast,” Sen said finally.
“Ah…sure, why not? Aidan and Peter will be sitting with us though.”
“Of course.” His social mask had been re-situated. “Now, what can I get you?”
I wasn’t sure what the big deal about getting me food from the buffet was, but apparently, it held meaning for the guys. Peter and Aidan sat on either side of me so that I could feel the warmth of their thighs against mine, but they watched Sen handle the two plates with obsessive fascination. I rolled my eyes and looked over to where Kade was playing with the other kids, his face alight with the fun of being chased by the increasingly large group of girls.
“I better go get him, otherwise he’ll miss breakfast,” I said, about to get to my feet.
“I’ll go,” Peter said, placing a hand on my thigh. His smile widened when he saw my reaction to his caress, a shiver going through me.
I found myself missing his touch when he ambled over to the kids. His voice was a low rumble, he didn’t raise it for a moment, but the kids all came to heel pretty quick. There was a round of nodding heads, and then all of them headed towards their parents.
“So just how bad is this heat likely to be?” I asked in a low tone to Aidan, my skin still throbbing from where Peter had touched me, which meant other things started pulsing in time with it. How was that possible? It felt like my body had been woken up from the stasis neglect and abuse had forced it into. Now it was becoming a lot more insistent about getting my attention.
He shot me a sidelong look, then smiled, something both pleased and sweet all mixed in together. He leaned over, placing a gentle kiss at the corner of my mouth, and then before pulling away, said, “So, so much more intense. It takes over everything. Our Tirians are focussed on testing each other out and making bonds. It can be kind of alien. Ophelia’s working hard to keep your change from happening until you’re ready, and the other mums are geared up to set up a massive multi-day sleepover for the kids and Kade when it hits. But, Flick…” His hand came
to rest on my leg, then slid up, fingers digging into my inner thigh. “I can’t wait to see it. Even if you don’t choose me, even if all I do is watch, I know you’re gonna be fucking beautiful.”
“I hope you like this.”
Our heads whipped around to see Sen had taken a seat opposite us, his nostrils flaring as he placed a plate before me.
“I’m sure I will,” I tried to say politely as I drew it towards me, but as it got closer, so did Aidan’s hand, until I felt the light graze of his finger on the central seam of my jeans. I almost choked on the mouthful of pancake I’d taken, something that caught both men’s attention. They looked at each other and then traded that universally male smirk, Sen’s eyelids dropping lower as he took a deep breath in.
“Mum, they did pancakes today!” Kade said.