It was Friday and I'd been forced against my will to stay home all week. I guess it was more because I almost face planted the floor on Tuesday, Kage catching me just in time.
Thanks to that little incident, the guys wouldn't let me do anything. I couldn't even switch to Jinn.
How boring.
"Can't I go, Logan?" I whispered pleadingly.
He was quiet but his arm tightened around me.
"Are you worried?" I asked.
The room was silent as seconds passed before he finally responded.
"Yes."
"Savannah cleared me and I got a scan done yesterday with Maximus. I'm fine Logan." I pulled back to meet his eyes.
"I..." He trailed off, his struggle to give me an answer appeared in his conflicted expression. "I just don't want you getting hurt like that again. I know you can't avoid school anymore and midterms are next week, but I need you to be careful and not put yourself in danger like that again."
"It wasn't that..." I began but his eyes darkened and I closed my mouth.
"Jewel, you haven't had a seizure in years. Now you have to take your meds to ensure it doesn't happen again,” he reminded me.
I bit my lip, looking away.
"I get it, but I couldn't just lose. I made it this far. Why is it fair that I have to do poorly not because I lacked in power, but because of Zane's 'I want friends' plot?" I whined.
Logan took a deep inhale and brushed my cheek to make me look back at him.
"It's not fair. I definitely agree with you and that's what the professor thought when she failed Zane."
"What?! Ms. Landsford failed him?!" I exclaimed.
Logan nodded.
"If it wasn't for the fact Zane's a Park and they've contributed to the school's growth for years, she flatly pointed out that she would have voted for Zane to be reconsidered and made to apply again next year."
"It's...not because of me, right?" I asked hesitantly, not wanting to be the cause of Zane’s failure.
Logan leaned in, giving me a tender kiss on the lips.
"It's not because of you. It’s due to the fact that he was influenced to act against what he was required to do. He was assigned our team and the point of the test was teamwork and combined strength. If he was so easily influenced by friends, he could be manipulated by the enemy and used against us. That's why it’s a big deal. Being a mage warrior doesn't only mean fighting. There are negotiations and underlying tactics used to save people’s lives and in that test, you and Maximus could have lost yours."
I swallowed the lump in my throat at the thought.
I knew everyone was right, that if this was a real-life situation in the field, I could have actually died and now with my seizure condition having resurfaced, it could affect me long-term.
Logan studied my expression before taking my face in his hands and kissing me again, but deeper this time.
My hand squeezed the side of his black shirt, hiding the way they trembled. He didn't know how stressful it was staying home in bed and how each day that passed left me more anxious about the future.
Even with everything that happened, it was the first time I felt like I wanted to try and give this girl-to-boy gig a shot.
To put forth 100%, even if I ended up failing, I could at least say I gave it my all. I didn't want that being taken away from me because I wasn't physically and mentally strong enough to deal with the aftermath of a'test gone wrong’.
Logan slowly backed me up against the wall next to our bunk bed, his mouth devouring my moans as his hands moved from my face to trail down the side of my waist and stop at my hips.
His groin pressed against mine and I moaned loudly, enjoying the throbbing sensation and growing excitement I was experiencing. I think I must have hit the hormonal department in my brain because I'd felt hornier this past week than ever and had no idea how I was going to get away with no masturbating today if I was stuck at home with five males timing how long it took me to freaking pee.