"Damn good thing to hear." His hands trembled as they circled my waist, betraying how tightly wound he was. "Because you're the kind of toy I plan to play with for a very, very long time."
I arched a brow, and he sent me a wickedly mischievous wink as he extracted my legs from around his waist and settled my feet onto the floor.
"I wanted to talk to you first," he said, tugging my cardigan off, tossing it to the floor. At this moment, talking was so overrated. "Before it got to this, but I can't wait. I need to be in you." He wrapped his fingers under the hem of my shirt. "If you don't want that, you stop me now and I will back off." His eyes, a liquid silver, met mine. "I'll do whatever you want me to do. If you want to talk, we'll talk first. If you want me to get the f**k out of your face, I will, but if you tell me to stay, I'm going to be so deep inside you, you'll think I'll never come out again."
My entire body dampened, liquefied at his words and his deep, husky drawl. I was out of my league with him sometimes, but I was wholly ready for him.
"But know this," he continued, stepping closer so that our thighs touched. "I made a huge mistake by pushing you away. I was a f**king coward, too scared of being hurt again, and I was hurting the moment you walked away. I did that to myself and to you, and I've never been more sorry in my life about anything."
I caught my breath as I soaked in what he was saying and what it meant for us, but nothing prepared me for the rush of emotion his next words opened up in me.
He dropped his forehead to mine and with a silky soft kiss, he gently parted my lips, working his velvety tongue against mine. "And I'm more than willing to spend the rest of my life making it up to you, because I love you, Tess. I am so f**king in love with you in a way I've never loved someone before." His eyes glittered with hunger and love. "Please let me prove that to you. Please, Tess."
A flutter picked up in my stomach, and my heart rate accelerated as I stared into his beautiful eyes. He'd said he'd loved me once before, but that had come at the height of lust, and those three little words had been lost in what happened after that. These words meant everything now, and that was all that mattered. People made mistakes all the time. God knows I was a pro at doing and saying the wrong things. And Jase had made a mistake, but if he was willing to make up for it, I was willing to let him try.
I was willing to let him love me.
My knees were weak and I had no idea how I remained standing or was able to force out the one word. "Stay."
Jase closed his eyes briefly. "Fuck yeah."
My shirt came off with a startling quickness. The boy had talent when it came to removing clothes. He splayed his fingers across my ribs, just below the white lace of my bra. My skin flushed as his stare devoured my partial nak*dness.
"You're f**king gorgeous, and I am so f**king lucky." He kissed the valley between my br**sts and then each swell "But there's another part of you that's even more beautiful."
Jase kissed my stomach and then his tongue dipped into my navel as he lowered himself onto his knees. My back arched off the wall, sucking a breath and holding it until my skin tingled.
He reached down, easing my feet out of my sneakers and then removing my socks. He grinned as he held one. "Elves? On socks?"
"It's close to Christmas."
"Cute." He tossed them over his shoulder. His nimble fingers found their way under the sweats Cam had picked up for me to change into. As Jase slid them down my hips, my pulse pounded. "There we go," he said, kissing just below the band of my cotton panties. A rush of wetness hit me. He peered up through thick lashes. "You know how I like to eat sweet things."
"Oh God . . ."
With a deep chuckle, he hooked his fingers under the band and tugged them down. I was almost nak*d and he was completely clothed. The difference made me feel vulnerable as he rose like a predator. His hands slid around my back, unhooking my bra. With his teeth, he drew the straps of my bras down, grazing my skin in the process.
Stepping back, he admired his work. "God, baby, you blow my mind. Look at you." He placed a tanned hand on my hip, anchoring me as his head dipped. The edges of his soft hair brushed the swell of my breast, heightening my nerves.
But then he drew my nipple into his hot mouth, and every nerve in my body flared. I gasped as pleasure rolled through me in tumultuous waves. My fingers dug into his hair as his free hand slipped between my thighs, fingers brushing over where I throbbed with every fast heartbeat. I moaned as my head fell back against the wall.
He lifted his head, nuzzling my neck, just above my shoulder. "I love you, Tess. I love you so much."
My body clenched. Hot, tight shudders racked me. His fingers were barely touching me, and I was already close to falling over the edge. "I love you, Jase."
"Say it again," he murmured against my cheek. "I need to hear you say it."
"I love you. I love you." I repeated it over and over, lost in pure sensations. My h*ps surged forward, grinding against his thigh and his hand.
A satisfied smile split his lips. "Fuck, I love hearing that." Pleasure spiked as he slipped a finger inside. "God, you're so wet." He growled low in this throat as he smoothed over the tight concentration of nerves. My body jerked in response and was flooded with heat. "You like that?"
"Yes," I whispered, panting. "Very much so."
His dark hair tickled my ni**les as his lips drifted over my collarbone. A tiny feminine sound caught in my throat as he knelt on his knees once more, easing my legs wide until I was completely exposed to him. Lightning rushed through me as his tongue glided from my navel to my center.
"So sweet." He kissed my inner thigh. "So beautiful."
The air left my lungs as his head lowered again and he sliced me open with his tongue. I shuddered, my fingers clenching and unclenching in his hair. He captured my flesh with his mouth, alternating between determined strokes of his tongue and sucking deep as if he needed my taste to survive.
I cried out, h*ps thrusting against him as he worked me quickly to release. The fierce heat built and then exploded. I couldn't breathe as every muscle locked up and waves and waves of pleasure rolled through me, and he kept on, holding me up with his hand as he soaked up every response until the aftershocks died off.
Jase rose then, his lips moist and swollen as he drew me to his chest. His eyes burned with lust and love when he cupped the nape of my neck, titling my head back . The length of his hardness burned through his clothes, pressing against my stomach.
"Now I'm going to make love to you."
Chapter Chapter Thirty-one
Jase scooped me up into his arms and carried me back into the bedroom, gently lying me down in the mound of pillows I'd accumulated since I'd moved in.
He stepped back, his eyes riveted on mine as he undressed. Watching him reveal his exquisite body one article of clothing at a time was probably one of the most sensual and exciting things I'd ever seen.
The first time we were together had been a glorious rush. Not that it hadn't been marvelous and mind-blowing in its own way, I just knew that this time was going to be different.
Nerves stretched tight, I shook, because we were truly about to make love and I'd never done that before.
Shucking off his briefs, I felt my breath catch. Jase had the kind of body fantasies were made of. Seriously. Broad shoulders, a well-defined chest, and abs I could flip quarters off of. His h*ps were narrow, legs lean and long, and what hung between his thighs was pretty damn impressive. He was fully aroused and he wanted me.
And he loved me.
Jase prowled forward, climbing up on the bed and only stopping once he hovered over me, his arms caging me in. "Touch me," he urged, voice dark.
He didn't have to ask me twice. I placed my hands on his chest, running them down the rigid muscles of his stomach, following the thin trail of hair until I wrapped a hand around him. He flexed against my palm, eliciting a thrill.
Kicking his head, he groaned hoarsely as I stroked his length. "Oh God . . ."
I smiled as his chin lowered and his jaw loosened. "You like that?"
"I like everything you do." He dropped a kiss to my forehead and then peppered little ones all over my face-my cheeks, my eyelids, even the tip of my nose. "Everything."
Emboldened by his statement, I slid my hand up, squeezing gently as I reached the tip. His h*ps punched into the motion, and he made another deep, ragged sound.
"Yeah," he ground out, arms shaking as he swelled against my hand. "You keep that up and this is going to be over before it gets started and you don't want that. Trust me."
"I don't." But I didn't want to stop touching him.
I craned my neck as I held him, pressing a kiss to the underside of his jaw and then making my own path down his throat, tasting the saltiness of his skin. His chest rose and fell sharply as I moved my hand slowly, teasing him until he moved away.
I pouted. "That's not fair."
He chuckled as his breath moved down my throat. "Be patient, baby. You'll have all of me soon enough, but first . . ."
His tongue circled the hardened tip of my breast and then closed over it, sucking deep and drawing me clear off the bed. I gripped his head, my h*ps moving restlessly as he moved to the other breast, paying it the same amount of attention. Rife and powerful desire built like a fierce storm.
He clasped a possessive hand around my hip as he lifted his head. Features strained, he took a deep breath. "I don't think I can wait any longer. I need you, Tess."
My heart flipped over. "Then don't wait."
Jase started to ease himself between my thighs, but stopped. "Shit. I don't have a condom."
I placed a hand on his cheek. "You know I'm on the pill and you're the only person I've been with since, well, since like forever."
"I haven't been with anyone else in a long time. I'm clean and I'll pull out just in case." He paused, lining up above me. "I'll do whatever you want."
I slid my hands over his shoulders. "I want you. Now."
His lips brushed over mine as he rolled his h*ps forward, probing my entrance. He kissed me sweetly and so tenderly that I wanted to wrap myself around him for years. Resting his forehead against mine, he slowly pushed in, stretching me in a delicious way. I held on to him, bringing my knees up to his sides, giving him access and he slid in deeper, filling me. I let out a moan when he was in, and he shifted his weight onto his arms.
Our bodies were flush, chest to chest and hip to hip. I could feel him inside me, throbbing as he held himself still above me. "Jase," I whispered, dragging my fingers down his arms.
He gently kissed my parted lips. "God, you feel so damn good."
"So do you." I skated my fingers back up, to his cheeks. "It feels so right."
"Yeah," he groaned.
Body trembling, he slowly withdrew and then rocked his h*ps forward, causing my toes to curl. He set a slow pace that was both sweet and torturous. With each deep, smooth thrust, I tilted my h*ps to meet his. There was a seduction in the act of love, a quality missing when the heart wasn't involved. Every shift of his hips, every kiss he bestowed, and every brush of his hands and fingers meant something infinite.
He held my gaze as we made love, taking and giving to each other. The slow build went deeper than the crazy intenseness of our joining last time. I could feel him swelling and tightening inside me. I breathed every breath he took, shivered along with every shudder that coursed through his body.
But our bodies soon demanded more. My heels dug into his back, urging him to move faster, and he did. The speed of his thrusts picked up as did our breathing and my pounding heart. Wasn't too long before the headboard was hitting the wall again with the power of how he was moving.
When my body tensed up and the coil that had formed deep inside me started to unfurl at a dizzying rate, I gasped out. "I love you."
Whatever control Jase had at that point broke as the rawness of the act took off as his h*ps matched mine in a tempo that was shattering. I came, experiencing a powerful release that spread out from my core, shocking my body in tight shivers that had me crying out his name until my voice was hoarse.
He pulled out only when the last of the cli**x was easing through me, his arousal pulsating against my stomach as he dropped his head to my shoulder, kissing the bare skin as his h*ps twitched. I held him close, savoring the feel of his body on mine.
His skin was damp and his body still trembling when he lifted his head, kissing the corner of my lips. "I love you, Teresa."
We stayed wrapped together while our breathing returned to normal. In those moments of silence, the strangest thing happened to me. Something . . . something fragile broke inside me. Like an old, rusted-out lock finally opened.