Tugging my light-weight cardigan around me, I nodded. When I saw him in astronomy yesterday morning, he was back in the normal mood-joking, flirting, and offering cookies. I hoped that meant whatever had gone down between him and Ollie had been worked out. "Are you sure we can't just do this around here?"
"This place will be perfect. I will never lead you wrong, sweetheart."
"Okay," I murmured, clasping my hands together tightly. I turned to the side window, watching as we blew past the campus and crossed the bridge into Maryland.
Fifteen minutes later, Cam turned onto the road leading to the visitor's center in Antietam National Battlefield. The history nerd in me started doing cartwheels, but I was way too nervous about being out here at night with Cam. Not that he seemed like the type to try anything, but if I knew anything, there was no 'type' when it came to that sort of thing. My nerves felt stretched thin and frayed at the edges.
"Are you sure we're allowed to be out here at night?" I asked, glancing around.
"Nope." He pulled into a parking spot. There were only a handful of cars.
I stared at him. "What?"
He laughed as he killed the engine. "I'm kidding. All we have to do is tell one of the Rangers that we're from the University. They'll be cool about it."
I hoped so. The idea of being chased off the battlefield by a park ranger wasn't on my list of things to accomplish before I died.
However, after taking one quick look at Cam, it looked like something he'd be down for.
"You ready?"
Grabbing my bag off the floor, I opened the truck door. "Yeah, let's get this over with."
Cam grabbed a flashlight out of the glove box as he chuckled. "Don't sound too excited."
I sent him a quick grin. "I'm not."
"Don't lie." He walked around the hood and joined me, pointing over to where a cement tower with a red top rose into the sky. "That's where we want to go to."
"The tower on Bloody Lane?"
He shot me a quick look. "You've been here before."
"No."
"Then how did you know that's Bloody Lane?"
I smiled slightly as I picked up a strand of my hair, twisting it between my fingers. "I'm a history major, so places like this appeal to me. Read up on it before. Bloodiest day of the whole war took place on that little stretch of dirt road."
"Yeah, that's what they say. Hold on a sec." He turned to where a Ranger was cutting cross the field. "Be right back."
I watched him jog over to where the Ranger waited. Words seemed to be exchanged and then Cam showed him his notebook. The Ranger laughed and they shook hands. Tipping my head up, I could already see tiny stars appearing in the deep blue sky. Nightfall would be on us in minutes.
I took a deep breath and let it out slowly.
Cam swaggered back to my side. "We're good to go. And we're not the only ones. There are a few students down by the other side of the tower."
"Cool." I fell in step with him, keeping a healthy distance between us. "Why do so many people come here to do this? I'm sure there are places closer to campus."
"Not like this. Look around." He shoved the flashlight in his back pocket. "Besides the houses across the street, there are no city lights or towers everywhere. It's just the sky."
"And cornfields," I pointed out.
He nodded. "Lots of cornfields."
We hit the paved portion of the lane and started toward the tower. "How long do you think this will take?" I asked.
"Why? You got a hot date tonight?"
I barked out a short laugh. "Uh, no."
One single dark brow arched up. "You sound like that's an insane idea. That no one would go out on a Saturday night for a date."
Dropping the piece of hair I was playing with, I forced a casual shrug. "I'm not dating anyone."
"So why the rush?"
Admitting that I was seriously uncomfortable being out here would be embarrassing and rude, so I said nothing.
"Are you worried that I've brought you out here for my own nefarious plans?"
I came to a complete stop. Knots formed in my stomach. "What?"
Cam stopped and turned toward me. His grin slipped a notch. "Hey, Avery, I'm just joking. Seriously."
Heat swamped my cheeks and the knots unraveled, replaced by a strong feeling of total lameness. "I know. I'm just…"
"Jumpy?" he supplied.
"Yeah, that."
He studied me a moment longer and then started walking again. "Come on. It'll be dark soon."
Trailing behind him, I pictured myself running straight into the old wooden fences and impaling myself on one of the pointy ends. God, I needed to get a grip. Not every guy was like Blaine. I knew that. Totally understood that. I wasn't completely damaged by my affliction.
On the other side of the tower, near the plaques, two students from our astronomy class sat on the bench, notebooks in their laps. They waved at us and as we waved back, Cam headed a little further down the wide parking lot and then veered off toward the grassy hill overlooking the dirt path of Bloody Lane.
Cam picked a spot and pulled out the flashlight before he sat down. I hovered a few steps back, listening to the low hum of the crickets. The ground had dried out from yesterday's weather, but even if it was wet, it wouldn't have stopped me from sitting down . I was just too keyed up.
"Join me? Patting the spot beside him, he inclined his head. "Pretty please? I'm lonely all by myself over here."
Biting down on my lip, I sat a few feet away from him and then busied myself with finding my astronomy notebook. As I pulled it out, I glanced over at him and our eyes locked. I couldn't look away. Intense. That was the first word that came to mind. His stare was intense, like he was seeing right through me.
Clearing my throat, I fixed my attention on the notebook. Finally, Cam spoke. "What constellation are we supposed to be mapping."
He held the flash light while I skimmed through my notes. "Um, the Corona Borealis, I think."
"Ah, the northern crown."
I glanced at him, brows raised. "You knew that off the top of your head?"
He laughed. "I might not take notes, but I do pay attention."
I was pretty sure he slept through the vast majority of the class yesterday. I slid out the grid Professor Drage made for us and then the star map and found the Corona Borealis on it. "I really don't understand how anyone sees shapes in the stars."
"Really?" He scooted over and peered over my shoulder. "The shapes are pretty obvious."
"Not to me. I mean, it's just a bunch of stars in the sky. You can probably see whatever you want to see."
"Look at the Borealis." He tapped his finger off the map. "It's obviously a crown."
I laughed. "It does not look like a crown. It looks like an irregular half-circle."
He shook his head. "Look. You can see it now easily. That's a crown. Come on, see the seven stars."
I tipped my head back as I grabbed a pen from my bag. "I see the seven stars, but I also see about a hundred other peeking out. I also see the cookie monster."
Cam burst into laughter. It was a nice sound, deep and rich. "You're ridiculous."
My lips pulled into a smile as I hovered my pen over the grid. I had no idea what latitude line to start at. I glanced up toward the Borealis and managed to draw a line where I thought I should, connecting two dots.
"You know where the name comes from?" When I shook my head, he reached over and took the pen from my hand. His fingers brushed mine, and I pulled my hand back, planting it in the lush grass. "It represents the crown given from the god Dionysus to Ariadne. When she married Bacchus, he placed her crown in the heavens in honor of their marriage."
I stared at him. "Professor Drage didn't teach that in class."
"I know."
Leaning back, I studied him. "Then how did you know that?"
"Why don't you know that?"
I cocked my head to the side, brows raised.
"Okay. Maybe most people wouldn't know that off the top of their head." He twirled my pen between his fingers. "I actually took part of this class as a freshmen, but had to drop it."
"Really?"
He nodded, but didn't elaborate.
"You're, what, a junior?"
"Yep. I ended up having to take a year off, which put me behind."
I wanted to ask why, but decided it was none of my business. "Why did you retake astronomy?" I decided that was a safe topic. "Is it a part of your major."
"No. I just like the class and Professor Drage." He paused, flipping off the flashlight. "I'm studying recreation and sport. Would like to get into sport rehabilitation."
"Oh. Did you…" I trailed off as the girl behind us broke out into a fit of giggles. Glancing over my shoulder, my eyes widened.
The two students from our class were definitely a couple or well on the way to becoming one. Their notebooks were forgotten on the bench. She was in his lap, their faces inches apart and his hand was slipped under the hem of her skirt.
"Now that is an interesting form of stargazing," Cam commented.
I was grateful for the darkening sky, because my face started to heat. I knew I should turn away, because watching them made me a total creeper, but I couldn't. Not even when the girl's hand threaded through the boy's hair, pulling his head to hers and they started really kissing and his hand was all the way up her skirt, to his forearm.
Wow.
Cam poked me in the arm with my pen, drawing my attention. He looked… curious. "What?" I said.
"Nothing. It's just that…" He seemed to choose his next words wisely. "You're watching them like… you've never seen a couple do that before."
"I am?"
He nodded. "So unless you were raised in a convent, I imagined you've been in a lap a time or two, right?"
"No, I haven't!" I winced, because I practically yelled that. "I mean, I haven't been in a guy's lap."
"What about a girl's lap?"
"What? No!"
A slow grin spread across his face. "I was joking, Avery."
I gritted my teeth. "I know, it's just that…"
"What?" He poked me again. "You what?"
My mouth opened and the worse kind of verbal vomit happened. "I've never been in a relationship." The moment those words came out of my mouth I wanted to kick myself in the boob. Who admitted that to a virtual stranger? Clenching the edges of my notebook, I peeked up at Cam. He was staring at me like I'd just claimed to be the Virgin Mary. My cheeks burned. "What? It's not a big deal."