He walks over and moves the chair, then turns the knob. Xavier bursts in and pauses.
“Seriously, I thought you were jacking off in here. It’s not like I haven’t seen our girl naked before, man.”
My cheeks heat and I bite my lip, looking down. Someone groans, but I don’t look up to see who it was.Wait, did he say our?
“Just kidding, I saw her shoes by the door. I was hoping to catch you, Cara. I really need to talk to you,” Xavier says, coming closer to me.
I pull the blanket tighter to my chest and sit up giving him my attention. “Okay, can I get dressed first?” I ask and he bites his lip, giving me eyes full of lust. “I’d rather you didn’t,” he says, before bending down and kissing me hard. I freeze, then melt into his lips, wrapping my arms around his neck, and letting the blanket fall. He moves his mouth from mine, then kisses down my jaw, to my collarbone, then lower. My eyes pop open as he nibbles on my nipple. A cough from the door reminds me we’re not alone, and this is Xavier.What the hell is happening right now?He stops and moves away, adjusting his hard dick in his shorts. I know my cheeks are bright red and my lips are swollen. I grab the blanket once more and clear my throat then glance between the guys and blurt out, “What the hell was that?”
Thirty-Five
Jase
I watch as Xavier and Connor have lunch with Cara. She sits in the middle and laughs as they take turns feeding her. I know Connor loves her. I knew it the moment I saw them together for the first time, but Xavier is confusing me. I heard all about his night with Ella and that he’s a huge playboy. Bigger than East used to be. So why is he acting like Cara is his whole world?
I can’t take this any more. Not knowing is killing me and not being with her is killing Lay. His nightmares are back in full force, and I’m worried he might spiral again.
East has a plan and it may just work. I need to get my girl back. I need to tell her the truth, but not until the plan is done. I can’t risk her blowing everything up. I stand and walk to class, waiting by the elevator for her, but she doesn’t come. I’ve noticed she takes the stairs these days, which I think is dumb, since one of the Kippa girls tripped her the other week.
I slide into the seat beside her in psych and I’m not surprised when she won’t look at me and her body language is reserved. I pull out the letter I wrote her and drop it on her lap, then stand and leave. I don’t glance back. I can’t let her see the tears in my eyes. I’ve never been one to cry, at least not since the night I walked in on my best friend dying on his kitchen floor. I close my eyes and push those memories away. Lay is okay. He’s here with me, and I’ll do anything to keep him by my side. Anything. Watch out Penny. We’re coming for you.
Carson
I hold the envelope, but don’t open it. I don’t think my heart can handle what’s inside. Jen stops by and sits next to me. I glance around and realize everyone left. “Wanna talk about it?” she asks and I sigh. “Not really. Just stupid boy drama,” I say with a shrug. She laughs and kicks her feet up over the seats in front of us. “That’s one of my specialties. Hit me with it,” she says, so I do. I tell her everything that’s been going on, including my mixed feelings about Memphis. When I’m done I take a deep breath and shrug. She gives me a bright smile and claps her hands together, before pointing at me. “I knew I liked you. I’m not supposed to have favorites, but you are definitely on the top of my list. Not to mention I am so jealous right now.”
I scoff and she holds up her hand, “Girl you have a harem, a reverse harem. Do you know how many books like that I’ve read? I would kill to have a bunch of men wanting me. Yeah, I know you’re dealing with a lot of drama, and you probably always will. One man is hard enough to handle most times, and you have five. I can’t imagine all the testosterone.” She trails off, lost in thought. A bright smile hits her lips and I groan. “Yeah, I mean the bedroom activities are amazing, but the emotional aspect is a challenge,” I say and she snorts, removing her feet and standing. “Cara, you can say sex, have you been paying attention to my class, trust me hon, this is far from PG-13.”
I laugh and stand myself. “Thank you for listening,” I say, tossing the card in my bag. She brings me in for a hug and pats my back. “Anytime. Now that will be one hundred and fifty dollars,” she says, releasing me and shooting me a wink. I laugh and shake my head. “You and my roommate would get along amazingly,” I tell her.
“Oh I know all about Sassy. She’s one of my best customers,” she says, before walking down the steps to her desk. I watch her for a moment, then walk to the door.Why doesn’t that surprise me?
I meet Connor and Xavier at the cafeteria for a cheeseburger and onion rings. I’ve had a huge craving, and I don’t care about weight gain anymore. I think I deserve some calories after all the shit I have been through lately.
“Hey baby,” Xavier says and I gently shove him. “I don’t think I will ever get used to you calling me that,” I say, after he kisses me. Connor pulls me away from him and kisses me harder.
“Slut.” someone coughs, pulling me out of my lust filled haze. I sigh and pull back, moving to a booth. I sit down, and Xavier sits on the other side of me, pulling me to his lap, he maneuvers me until I’m in the middle of a Connor-Xavier sandwich.
“You guys are ridiculous. I still need food,” I say and Connor jumps up, “On it,” he says, before walking away. I scooch over a little more and face Xavier. “So,” I say, waiting for him to start the conversation.Why do I feel so awkward with him now?
“So,” he says back, giving me a grin. I cover my face with my hands. “Does this feel as strange to you as it does to me?” I ask in a mumble. He gently removes my hands and presses a kiss to my lips. “Nope,” he says, before moving closer to the wall, and tugging me along. He throws his arm over my shoulder, his hand dangerously close to my right breast. Connor walks up bringing a tray overflowing with food. My eyes bulge at the insane amount. “Um, I can’t eat all that,” I say and they laugh. “Babe, I’ve seen you polish off a whole pizza and twenty-four wings, so who are you kidding? Besides, this is for all of us,” Connor says, taking his seat beside me.Oh, okay. I nod, that makes more sense.
“So what’s the plan for tonight?” I ask and they look at each other with a wince. “We have to go to Hawthorne House. There’s some Fraternity thing. Don’t you need to go to Kippa? I thought it was mandatory?” Connor says, confusing me.Do I?“I’m not sure. No one told me about anything,” I say quietly. Connor wraps his arm around my waist and pulls me closer to him, kissing the top of my head. “How about we do something tomorrow? Let’s get off campus,” he suggests and I nod. “Yeah, that sounds nice.”
We finish eating and the guys leave. I walk around for a little while and find myself in front of the drama department. I open the door and walk towards the auditorium. It’s quiet so I don’t think anyone is here right now, but the lights are on. I walk over to the side steps and make my way to the middle of the stage. I look off at the mass amount of empty seats and hum a tune I have been working on. I double check that I am alone, before I start to sing the lyrics.
When you were mine
I was never alone
I always had a place to call my home
Now that's gone and everything’s wrong
I’ll never find a place I truly belong
Time is there until it’s not
Talk about a twist of plot