Making love could wait until after we told Nova that Abe was her father and after his family gave me hell.
I was afraid to get caught up in him emotionally so quickly. There was no reason to rush things, right? We had time to let our feelings redevelop and find our way back to each other organically.
“I missed this,” I whispered, massaging his shoulders.
“I missed you.” He fucked me so perfectly, with just enough force that I felt dominated and at his mercy but cared for at the same time.
“I’m close,” I cried, bowing my back as my orgasm intensified.
“Me too,” he grunted. “I want us to come together.”
“Okay.”
“Despite your reservations about me, I love you.” His words set me off.
I dug my nails into his muscly shoulders and clamped my pussy around his cock. Absolute ecstasy washed over me, flooding my veins and drowning out the bad memories.
Abe chased his own climax, sealing his lips to mine. I knew I could never give him up again when he seized atop me, growling my name.
“You better not hurt me again,” I told him.
“Baby, you have my word.” He stared into my eyes, branding his vow on my soul. “I love you, never stopped loving you.”
“I never stopped loving you either.” Tears dripped down my temples into my hair. “We need to get everything out in the open—and wipe the slate clean if we want to get back together.”
“Karma, we’re already back together.” He wiped away my tears with the pads of his thumbs.
“I hoped you’d say that.”
Abe rolled onto his back, taking me with him. We remained connected as he cuddled me in his arms and pressed his lips to my forehead.
“I want you and Nova with me permanently in Fargo.”
“Are you sure?” I laid the side of my face on his chest. “Kids can be pains in the ass. They’re great but a lot of work too. Don’t you want to ease into fatherhood?”
“Absolutely, not.”
“We’ve hurt each other a lot.”
“Yes, we have, but we shouldn’t have. We’d still be together if I hadn’t let my brothers pressure me and you hadn’t run off. We’d be married. Nova would have siblings.”
I softly smiled and kissed his neck. Again he was saying all the things I’d longed to hear.
“Tell me what’s holding you back.” He lifted my chin to stare into my eyes.
“Well, for one, your family.”
“They won’t interfere with our relationship. I’ve already warned them not to fuck with you.”
“You did?”
“Yes. You have nothing to worry about with them. What else?”
“Okay, I carry a lot of guilt.”
“Tell me. Release your pain, baby. Let me help you cleanse your soul.”
I wanted his forgiveness, but I sensed he didn’t blame me for anything. It was just the way Abe had always been with me. He would take full responsibility for everything, but I couldn’t let him.