“Just got shit on my mind, is all.” I drained my beer, ready to call it a night at only seven in the evening. “What about some badass tattoos?” I asked to get the focus off me. “We could do sleeves, maybe your neck.”
Copper nodded as if considering my suggestions. He’d bulked up since he joined the club a couple of years ago. Adding muscles hadn’t made him look tough or intimidating. The brother just didn’t have that kind of vibe as other bikers. Although he had a gnarly scar on his face from when he’d taken Irisah. She’d scratched him up good.
Wolf eyed me. “I feel the energy you’re sending off like you’re worried you fucked up with your girl.”
Copper watched me for a reaction.
“I don’t have a woman, brother.” I pushed my empty away from me. Was I actually sending off a vibe Wolf could sniff out? Scary-as-fuck if it were true.
“Not that you’ve revealed.” Wolf acted as if he knew all. Maybe he was just that intuitive. “I’ve had the same kind of worries when Jill was alive.”
Fuck. I couldn’t get into a depressing discussion right now, not when I might have lost any chance I had with Eve.
“I’m totally lost here.” Copper looked from me to Wolf. “I’ve only seen him with kittens.”
“Yes, and when was that?” Fucking Wolf shouldn’t poke his nose into my business. Lately, he’d been uncharacteristically nosy. I didn’t like it, but my poor brother was probably bored and lonely without a woman in his life.
Copper furrowed his ginger brow. “Damn. I can’t remember the last time I saw him with a kitten.”
“Exactly.” Wolf crossed his arms over his chest like a cocky son of a bitch.
“So, how about the meeting with Deek?” I needed to change the subject somehow. “Bet you wish you could attend.”
Wolf scowled.
“Naw, I’m happy to pass but not thrilled about searching for Irisah,” Copper said. “She’s not gonna like it.”
“Either one of you wanna switch places?” A meeting with the Vipers wasn’t at the top of my to-do list after getting the shit beat out of me.
Then again, given how much Eve wanted to avoid me, maybe a little time apart would be good. I’d hate it if Prez gave me the order to help Deek, but it’d allow Eve to have space to work out our situation.
Wolf threw back his bourbon. “Not sure Prez will agree.”
“I’ll ask him.” I stood from my chair. They’d begin their search for the women tomorrow, each with a prospect. The club would be spread thinner with Track and Ryder in Montana. Thankfully Cash was due to arrive before the week’s end.
“Not gonna lie, I didn’t want to attend the meeting with Deek. I’d rather search for Irisah and risk getting clawed in the face again.” Copper never hid his true feelings. After the shit with the Vipers, he’d made it known he hadn’t liked taking a woman against her will. I couldn’t say I blamed him, but sometimes we had to do evil and unpleasant things.
“Yeah, me either.” Wolf was due to start his search Saturday morning, before the meeting with Deek.
“All right. I’m out.” It sounded like neither one wanted to switch places with me.
“Heading to bed so soon?” Copper checked the time on his cell phone.
“Yeah, I’m bushed.” I didn’t wait for a response and left the bar.
I was so damned worried about Eve, someone was bound to notice. Knowing I wouldn’t see her until the morning would keep me up all night.
Entering my room, I went straight for the bathroom. A hot shower was exactly what I needed to help relieve the tension in my shoulders, tension caused by Eve. It was probably wrong to blame her when I knew her concerns and fears. I was just so tired of hiding how I felt, of lying to my MC brothers. It was like I was betraying them.
I tugged off my boots, peeled off my clothes, and threw everything into a pile as frustration washed over me. “Goddamn stubborn woman. Why won’t you give into us?” I turned on the hot water, stepped into the stall, and took a moment to soak in the steam. I rubbed the soothing water into my face, inhaling and exhaling in an attempt to release the negative energy building inside me.
Christ, I was so fucking horny. It didn’t help that I still tasted Eve on my tongue.
As much as I’d like to linger under the showerhead and wrap my hand around my desperate cock, I refrained from jerking off. I needed a release, but not by my hand.
I wanted to be deep in Eve’s pussy, slamming into her and making her scream with every thrust. She’d yelp as I pounded into her, working out my sexual frustrations and emotions.
She’d take everything I unleashed on her like a badass bitch. For a widow who hadn’t been with a man since her husband passed away, she had sure taken control over her orgasm.