My muscles weigh heavy. I’m so tired of fighting. I just want this war to be over so I can move on with my life.
My body slowly moves, driven by its own needs. The dress falls to the ground and pools around my ankles. The bra follows. Then my panties. I hear Pavel’s breath quicken behind me and feel his hard member throbbing at my back. The searing heat passes from him to deep inside of me, and my pulse quickens at the thought of what is coming next.
But how will I react to it? Desire? Anger? Real resistance or only a token show?
“You’re right,” I admit shakily. “I know how to hurt people.”
I step into the tub and scoot under the stream of water. It’s the perfect temperature to relax my muscles.
Which isn’t the only thing it does.
Pavel joins me in the shower and shuts the door. He rubs my back. “You also know how to save people.”
Those words sting me. It’s hard to believe I could ever be good to people with all the things I’ve done.
But I can’t think about it right now. I have to focus on the future, not the past.
He sweeps my hair from my shoulders and runs his fingers over my skin, tracing all the dips and peaks that lead down my side. Seconds later, a warm cloth meets my flesh. I close my eyes. I tilt my head to the ceiling.
The cloth leaves tiny soap bubbles behind. Within minutes, my body has been thoroughly scrubbed except for one place. It’s the slit of my thighs he hasn’t yet dared to explore.
I bite my lower lip as his hand skates over my right thigh.
This is already dangerous. Hot steam billows from my skin. His lips roam my shoulder, inspiring me to lean back.I might as well just do it.
I grab his wrist.
Which way will I go? And how much am I going to regret it?
My pussy throbs while I mull over my options. It’s hard to think with the steam infecting my thoughts and my arousal sending lightning bolts through my core. I’m clenching my thighs together, yet I’m dragging Pavel’s hand toward my slit.
I shudder when his lips make contact with my neck.
I’m at the point of no return. Once I start, I won’t be able to stop.
God help me.I tug on his wrist.I can’t stop.
I press his fingers to my slit and whimper as my knees give out. He catches my waist and props me against him, sliding between my folds without missing a beat. He’s making me shake, and he’s hardly done anything.
Every time.I reach back to grab his shoulder.How does he do this to me?
My knees snap together and then buckle. Nothing stops Pavel from stroking my pussy. Nothing keeps him from pleasing me. Not even the way my legs tighten.
A chant forms on my lips. I can’t hear it over the shower. I can’t register the words spilling from my mouth. It’s a confusing spiel that rests just beneath the soft sheen rising around us. I’m not sure Pavel can hear me.
“Don’t stop,” I whisper so quietly amid the rushing waters of the shower that it might not have been whispered at all.
Almost immediately, his fingers quicken their pace. Maybe hecanhear me.
I pinch my lips together.Don’t encourage him.
How can I not? I can’t help what I want. Even when I know it’s hurtful to take from him—it’s selfish, it’s wrong, it’s manipulative—I surrender to my desire. I let my hips buck. I let my jaw drop. I dig my nails into his shoulder.
And then my throat betrays me as a quiver of a moan slips past my lips.
And that’s all the encouragement he needs. His lips crash against mine, daring me to cry out helplessly into his throat, so that he might devour me. His fingers settle at a new pace, and a familiar rush starts building in my core. My knees start weakening, and I feel his legs push mine apart as his fingers continue to push and probe, finding the center where no other man has touched and claiming me as his.
My vision blurs when I come. I pull away from his hungry mouth to gasp for air, releasing a long moan—each louder and more sustained than the last—with every breath. Pavel catches my waist, and my fingers reach for his hard cock. The trembling warmth in my hand urges me to move. He cradles me in his arms, nuzzling my neck repeatedly, whispering to me in Russian as slippery pre-cum drives me to keep pumping his cock.