She shook her head, then pushed her hair back from her face and gave him a patient smile. “How dangerous can it be, really?”
“Bears?” he fired back.
Before she could react to that disturbing thought, he continued.
“Mountain lions? Snakes? Blizzards?” He picked up his coffee and took a drink. “You’re not in any way prepared for that kind of life, Colleen. You’re asking for trouble if you do this.”
He was right. She hadn’t really considered any of that, and she could admit, at least to herself, that the thought of facing any one of those dangers on her own was...intimidating. All right, terrifying. But there had to be a way to make this work. “Fine, I admit you have a point.”
He nodded.
“But if I knew how to handle myself in those situations, I’d be okay, right?”
“Sure,” he said, one corner of his mouth curving up. “If. And that’s a big if.”
“You could teach me.”
“What?” He paused, coffee cup halfway to his mouth.
The idea had just leaped into her mind, but now that it was there, she ran with it. J.D. had told her so much about Sage—there was no one she would trust more to show her what she needed to know. “I promise, I’m a quick study. And you said yourself that you grew up in the mountains. No one knows them better than you do, right?”
“I suppose...” He set his still-steaming mug of coffee down onto the table and stared at her. And that penetrating stare was so...disconcerting, it was hard to draw an easy breath. His eyes were just hypnotic. At least to Colleen. Honestly, she was proud of herself just for being able to speak coherently while looking into those deep blue eyes of his. His jaw was tight, his dark brown brows drawn into a scowl, and still she thought he was the most gorgeous man she’d ever seen.
Every time he looked at her, she felt that swirl of batwings in the pit of her stomach—not to mention heat that burned just a bit lower. She’d never been so aware of herself as a woman as she was when she was with Sage Lassiter. He made her feel things she’d never experienced before and want things she knew she shouldn’t.
Being with him was a kind of pleasurable torture, which had to be an oxymoron or something, but she really couldn’t think of another way to put it. She enjoyed his company, but her body was constantly buzzing out of control around him, too. Which left her breathless, on edge and in a constant state of excitement. It was the most alive she’d felt in years.
“What do you think, Sage?” She kept her gaze fixed on his. “Will you show me what I need to know?”
His features froze and she watched a muscle in his jaw twitch spasmodically. His fingers drummed against the tabletop and he shifted in his seat. He was thinking about it, and Colleen anxiously waited to see what he would say.
Finally, her patience was rewarded.
“You want to learn to survive on the mountain.”
“Yes.” She bit her bottom lip.
“Fine,” he said. “I’ll teach you.”
A wash of relief and something that felt like eager anticipation swept through her. “That’s great, thank you.”
He laughed shortly. “Save your thanks. By the time we’re finished, you’ll probably be cursing me.”
“No, I won’t.” She shook her head and reached across the table to cover one of his hands with hers. “J.D. always told me how kind you were and I’ve really seen that for myself in the past few days.”
He just stared at her through eyes that had been carefully shuttered. “J.D. was wrong. I’m not kind, Colleen.”
His features were hard, his body language cold. He was pulling back from her even while he was within reach. She didn’t know why. “If it’s not kindness,” she asked quietly, “what is it?”
He just looked at her for a long moment and she had the feeling he was trying to decide whether to answer her or not. Then she got her answer.
“You said you don’t have a job to go to anymore, right?”
“No, I don’t. I turned in my resignation at the agency.” And hadn’t that felt incredible? She had liked her job well enough, but now that her dream was within her reach, she didn’t mind at all saying goodbye to the private agency. “Until I get my practitioner’s license, I’m officially unemployed.”
“All right then,” he said, coming to some internal decision. “We’ll start day after tomorrow. You come up to my ranch and stay for a few days. We’ll go up the mountain from there.”