Part of me wondered if I texted any of them if they’d come over. Luca was probably the only one who could sneak out, but it was almost eleven. Stupid school. If we didn’t have to get up early in the morning, I would have asked him.
I rolled onto my other side and hugged the closest pillow to my chest. The cold fluff wasn’t even close to being a satisfying replacement, but it was better than nothing. I hated feeling so alone. Being in the house by myself didn't bother me anymore, but I slept much better with one of them near me. The cruise had spoiled me. I got too used to having at least one of them to cuddle with each night.
I sighed and pinched my eyes closed. The faster I fell asleep, the sooner I’d wake up and get to see them at school.
* * *
I wokea few hours later to the moonlight filtering through the crack in the curtains. My bedroom door creaked open, and Gavin walked in with Sky. I sat up and smiled.
“What are you guys doing here?” I asked quietly.
“I didn’t like knowing you were alone here,” Gavin answered. He pulled off his shirt, revealing his smooth chest and narrow waist. He’d gained more muscle this semester, but he was still the slimmest of the group. I admired his abs and bit my lip as he slipped out of his sweats and climbed in on my right in a pair of boxers. He normally wore pajamas to bed, but maybe he knew it would warm up quickly with the three of us sharing.
“We came to make sure you were okay,” Sky said from my left. He was already shirtless, as usual, and his muscles flexed as he lifted the blankets and slid in next to me. He laid his arm across my stomach.
I ran my finger over his skin, tracing a design in his freckles.
Gavin kissed my temple. “I’ve missed you.”
I turned to face him. “I’ve missed you too.”
He smiled briefly before wrapping his hand around the back of my neck and kissing me with more heat than ever before.
I nearly gasped. It felt so good, so right. I pressed my lips against his, then sucked on his bottom lip. A finger traced down my arm, from my shoulder to my wrist, and I remembered Sky was behind me. Without breaking the kiss, I reached back and ran my hand through his wild hair. His breath hitched, and Gavin’s hand lowered to cup my breast.
I let out a sigh at the contact. He’d never touched me there, and the sensation was paralyzing.
Sky pressed kisses along the curve of my neck and down my shoulder. His hands explored my back over my thin tank top before settling on my butt, gripping and massaging. I arched, pressing into where each of them was touching me.
Gavin trailed his tongue lightly over my jaw before lowering his head. His hand tugged the top of my tank lower and lower.
My eyes cracked as his mouth opened, and he lowered. The heat of his breath made me tingle, and I closed my eyes, anticipating what was coming next.
My body jerked, and I sat up, wiping my hands over my face. I looked around the empty room and realized I’d dreamed up the whole thing.
What was that?
Why had my mind gone there? Was this what happened when I went too long without seeing them? My mind conjured up steamy fantasies?
Heat poured through my body, and I realized I was sweating. That dream was too much. I felt like I violated Gavin and Sky somehow. It wasn’t like I could control my dreams or purposely thought of it, but now that the idea was in my mind, it felt permanently etched. I wasn’t going to forget it. The details might fade but not the idea of being with not one but two of them! I hadn’t even thought I was ready for more intimacy, but my unconscious mind sure didn’t agree.
Did that mean that maybe I did want more?
If real life was anything like what my mind made up, then yes. I did want more.
That didn’t mean I was ready.
Or did it? How did a person even know? Do you just try it and keep going until you stop feeling comfortable? That didn’t seem like a good idea.
Despite making out with each of them and clothing coming off occasionally, I couldn’t imagine going beyond that. Until now.
I licked my lips and laid back down, then reached out for my phone to check the time. It was just after four. I had two more hours to sleep if I could get my mind to quiet down enough. I doubted that would happen. The memory of my dream had me too worked up.
How was I going to face them tomorrow? I doubted I’d be able to look at Gavin or Sky in the eyes without blushing. They would know something was up within seconds.
I blew out a loud breath. It was only a dream. Nothing real. I could compose myself. Once I got to the courtyard and was with all of them, this would be so far in the back of my mind, I’d probably forget entirely.