“Well, I don’t know what they are feeding the bikers on that side of the world, but have you seen the muscles on those men out there?”
I smile at Taffy’s teasing; I know that she’s trying to lighten the mood, but after the argument I had with Jim earlier, I don’t think I will smile for a while. When he found me at the spa, he started by trying to buy me off, promising me an obscene amount of money to stop seeing Blue. When I said no, he started getting angry, and then when Lee Ann came out unexpectedly, he realized that we’re related, so he started threatening me.
He called me a conniving bitch that is just after fame and money like my sister. A no-good gold digger, and that he was going to tell Blue who I really am. That is what worried me because who knows what Blue will think when he finds out the truth about how he knows Lee Ann, and how he came to meet me. He grabbed my arm and started shaking me. If it wasn’t for Taffy and Lee Ann, he probably would have slapped me.
I have always been a strong-willed woman, and I’m very capable of taking care of myself. But when he grabbed me, I was paralyzed with shock over his words and then his attack. My arm is still tender, and I know that it will bruise, but I’m hoping that it’s the last I’ll see of him. I know that Blue has to work with him, and that he has known him for a very long time, I would be crazy not to be worried about what Blue will think when he goes and tells him what he has discovered.
My heart feels like there is a vice around it, just thinking of what Blue might think about me now. I know that I only just met him, but I feel like I have known him for an eternity.
“I think I’ll go and offer Goliath and Fang something to eat before I head home. Why don’t the two of you have a chat?” Taffy suggests as she stands. I shake my head as she winks at me exaggeratedly, just before walking out and closing the door behind her.
“I need to tell you something,” I say as I sit next to my sister again. “This is my fault. If I had stayed away this would never have happened.”
“No, Siena, I’m the one that got involved with someone like him. This is not your fault.” Lee Ann stretches out her legs, placing a hand over mine on the bed.
“You don’t understand.” I would rather let her think what she’s thinking right now, but she needs to know what my role in all of this was. “I met Blue because I thought he was the one that hurt you. I wanted to make him pay for what was done to you, but when I got there and I met him, I couldn’t. I chickened out.” I see her look of surprise. “The only reason you had to see him again was because of me. Can’t you see?” I choke on the words, but I force myself to finish confessing to her what my intentions were. “If I hadn’t met Blue, then you wouldn’t have to face Jim again.”
Lee Ann shakes her head defiantly at me. “No, you have a right to see Blue.” She lifts her hand to rub the tear away from my cheek, tears that I didn’t even realize I was shedding. “I’m actually glad that I saw him.” Now it’s my turn to be surprised. “Because I saw what a low life asshole, he is. When I looked at him, I realized how lucky I am to actually be rid of him.”
“I just want you to be fine. You are my little sister, and to see you depressed is unbearable.”
“I will be fine. You will see, Siena, that now I will be okay.” I don’t know if she’s trying to convince me or herself, but whoever it is, I don’t care. The only thing I care about is that she overcomes this pain that has overwhelmed her for such a long time.
“Do you think Blue knows that he came and talk to you?”
That thought popped into my mind when he first started talking, but I know that Blue wouldn’t do that. If I’m to believe what he told me, and I do, then I’m his mate, the most important woman in his life, and I think that’s what angered his agent.
Jim seems like the type who dictates what his clients do and who they talk to. If he felt that Blue was interested in me, and he doesn’t think that fits in with his plans, then he will try to end it, like he did today.
“No, I don’t think so.” Saying the words out loud only means that I believe in them completely.
“Are you going to tell him?”
Biting my bottom lip, I think of what Blue might think when he finds out that I purposely went to meet him, and that I sought him out with vengeance on my mind. I know that the men will tell Blue that something happened at the spa and that he will want to know what it was. I will not lie to him if he asks me, that is no way to start off a relationship.
Wait, what?Since when did I start thinking about Blue and me being in a relationship? I know that I have been thinking about him the whole day, but in a relationship? He’s a famous singer, in a motorcycle club, and a shifter. How is this going to work?
“I think it’s best that I do. At least there will be no secrets between us.” He told me about being a shifter, and even though I was in shock, I accepted it. I’m sure that a little thing like me wanting to destroy his life will be acceptable to him.
“Siena,” Lee Ann says just before she wraps her arms around my neck and pulls me close to her. “Thank you. It was crazy, but thank you.”
I smile, thinking back to how nervous I was on the way to the show, and how I chickened out when I met Blue.
Yes, it was crazy, but I’m glad that I did what I did because if I hadn’t gone to meet Blue, I would never have met him and realized what a great man he is.
BLUE 13
I take one last swallow of my beer before grabbing my guitar. I saw Draco walking into the venue with his woman, one of his men, and I’m guessing his man’s Ol’ Lady. They would have had time to sit and start their meal by now, time for me to start my show so that I can finish it soon and go see Siena. Slipping into the private function room, I see Draco turn his head, his eyes catching mine. I nod in greeting before walking towards the high-backed chair that I placed on one side of the room.
I ride to find open spaces.
I ride where nobody has left their traces.
It’s not to find familiar faces. Two wheels hand me the hope.
Pocket full of dreams, a couple of my schemes.
To feel sane when nobody else is to blame.