“But after the initial shock, I would’ve said, ‘Noah, it’s about damn time, but you’re too late.’”
My heart drops into my stomach as she smiles with amusement.
“Then I would’ve admitted that I’ve been in love with you for years, and it was the kind of love you don’t just ignore or walk away from.” She cups my face and stares into my eyes. “As hard as it is to admit, I would’ve left Gabe had I known. Even then, I knew I deserved better, but after I suffered a miscarriage, I felt tied to him.”
“You what?” My eyes widen in shock. “When?”
“The summer before my senior year. I took a test, and it was positive. By the time I went to my first doctor’s appointment, I had miscarried.”
“Why didn’t you ever tell me?”
“I planned to once it was confirmed, but after I lost it, Gabe made me promise to keep it between us. I’m not sure why, but he was adamant about it not being anyone’s business but ours and promised to make us a family. It’s why we got married so soon, and why I’d gotten pregnant again so quickly.”
“Wow…” I blink hard. “I wish I’d known, so I could’ve been there for you. It must’ve been an emotional roller coaster.”
“It was, but it was something I figured out on my own. You were working at the garage a lot, and we hadn’t been hanging out as much because of our schedules. It didn’t take much convincing from Gabe for me to stay quiet about it.”
“Well, either way, I’m sorry.”
“I think it’s why I stayed with him through the emotional abuse and his cheating. He promised me he’d change, and we’d be a family, and a part of me believed I owed him that for the baby I’d lost.”
“You’re braver than you give yourself credit for.”
“I think you mean cowardly.”
“There are lots of words I associate with you, but that’s absolutely not one of them. You were young and in love. People do stupid things for love, trust me.”
“I thought I was in love, but I should’ve known better when the only person my heart fluttered for was you. Even after years of being friends, I’d get butterflies in my stomach. Sometimes I’d sweat so bad, I’d have to change my shirt.” She laughs, then blushes. “Oh my God, I can’t believe I just admitted that.”
“I wanna know everything about you, embarrassing or not.” I swipe a piece of her hair and tug.
A mischievous twinkle flashes in her eyes.
“What?” I ask, gripping her waist when she rocks her hips again.
“I used to masturbate to thoughts of you. Then I’d scream your name into a pillow.”
Swallowing hard, I lick my lips. “Jesus Christ, Katie. Do you have any idea how many times I’ve jerked off to dirty thoughts of you? Basically, my entire adolescence.”
“So I wasn’t the only one with a naughty mind?”
“Hell no. You should show me,” I encourage. “Show me how you touched yourself.”
Katie doesn’t hesitate but instead confidently stands. Our gazes lock as she slowly unzips her dress, teasing and tempting me at the same time. I watch in amazement as it falls to her feet and she steps out of it. I scan down her body, admiring the goddess standing in front of me.
“Fuck, I want to rip off your panties right now.” I adjust myself and narrow my eyes on her chest.
“No, sir…only watching, remember?”
I release a groan and sit back as she slides her hand down her stomach. The pure willpower she holds over me is monumental. I’d do anything to be able to touch her.
“Alright…I’m here for the show.” I smirk.
Her fingers dip into her panties, then she spreads her legs slightly as she releases a soft moan. I wish I could see what she’s doing underneath the fabric, but by her little breathy sounds, she’s rubbing her clit slow and steady.
“I bet that feels good, doesn’t it?”
“So good,” she confirms with her eyes shut. “I’d picture your big hands touching me as you lay next to me, whispering all the dirty things you wanted to do.”