A noise that sounded like a crazed animal slipped from her throat before she pressed her face against his body and sobbed. She had no idea how long she cried. Everything was too much for her, and the only way for her to lessen the pain was to sleep.
The room was in shadows when she next opened her eyes, telling her they’d been in the bedroom a few hours.
“I’m sorry, sweetheart.”
She tilted her head back to see his face. Just looking at him calmed something in her. She reached up and ran her fingers over his cheek. “I need you to…”
“What?” he asked as he smoothed her hair away from her face.
“I don’t know. I guess to take away the pain.”
“How?” he asked.
“Can you maybe kiss me or touch me?”
He started rubbing her back. “How much experience do you have?”
“Sexual experience?”
“Yes,” he said.
“Not a lot. One guy in high school about five or six years ago. Why?”
“I don’t want to frighten or hurt you if I touch you.”
“Can we have sex?”
“Eventually, but not tonight. You’re too distraught to make that kind of decision. But I can make you feel good and help get rid of some of the tension.”
“I … yes. I’d like that.” She’d do anything to forget for just a little while.
Chapter Nine
Fuck, how was he going to make her feel good and not go over the line? “If at any time you get scared, or it hurts, tell me.”
“What are you going to do?”
“I’m going to use my hands and mouth on you,” he said.
“What do I do?” she asked.
“Lie back and enjoy it.”
“What about you?” she asked.
“Oh, I’ll enjoy it, too.”
“Can I touch you?”
Jonah shook his head and ran his hand up and down her back. “Not this time. I’m too close.”
“But—”
“First, I need a kiss.”
His head bent down, and he gently pressed his lips against hers. A moan tore from her mouth as her lips opened, letting his tongue dive in and taste her. Jesus, she was so fucking sweet. They strained together until he lifted his head and stared down at her.
He needed to slow it down, or things would quickly get out of hand. It seemed his concentration to keep from fucking her was so fragile he was terrified he’d do something to scare her.