Killian’s hips jerk. Then he slams his eyes shut, emptying his cock inside of me. My heels dig into his firm thighs as I finally crest, and the view at the top of the hill is fucking fantastic.
I won’t ever come back down again.
Killian’s knot inflates, filling me up like a balloon as I shut my eyes. It’s like he's chasing away all the dark parts of my soul. For the first time in my life, I don’t feel so empty. I feel loved and needed. I don’t want it to end.
Loneliness terrifies me. It was never something that I wanted for myself. It was just the cruel fate that I had come to accept.
Yet the more time I spend with Killian, the less I think about that cabin in the woods. I guess the frogs will just have to get on by without me.
I’m not going anywhere.
Chapter 19
Killian
Afterourgloriousshowersex, I carried Ravyn back to the bedroom and tucked her in under the bedsheets. She fell asleep instantly, and I watched for several hours as she slept in my arms.
She’s such a fragile, tiny thing. Yet she doesn’t want anyone to know it. Deep down, she craves love and affection. I will give it to her and more.
I have no idea what came over me last night. I had this beautiful creature lying in my arms, begging me to take her pain away, yet I froze.
I think the situation had just got too real. She wanted me to ease her pain, yet I'm a seasoned killer. I was only taught to inflict pain, not to chase it away. I am the least qualified person to knot an omega.
From the moment I laid eyes on her at the strip club, I knew I wanted to make her mine; I knew I wanted to be the first alpha to give her a knot. But I froze in the end and it really showed in my performance. I am not giving her the full satisfaction she needs.
She had to seek me out in the shower just to find her release, and I really am a poor excuse of an alpha.
Ravyn deserves better.
I really was ill-prepared for her heat. I haven’t even built her a proper nest. All she has is a stack of pillows, but I could do so much more.
Fuck.
Her heat came out of nowhere. I guess it stems from her months of using hormone suppressants.
It is going to take its toll on her body.
My phone rings and I grit my teeth when I see that it’s my personal assistant, Nancy.
I pick up on the second ring, clearing my throat. “Yes?”
“Mr. Whitefang,” she replies, keeping her voice steady because she knows who she's dealing with.
It must not be easy being the PA of the most notorious alpha in the city. I just wonder if she would be so intimidated if she knew how I failed my omega.
Ravyn is not one hundred percent satisfied. It shows on her cute face. Even when she sleeps, she's troubled.
I’m a bad alpha.
“I was just calling to let you know that your twelve o'clockis waiting...”
My twelveo'clock? But I didn’t have any meetings booked for today.
It comes crashing back to me. I have a meeting with the head of Tanaka Industries. I can’t keep Hiroshi’s grandfather waiting, after all.
The man is a big deal in the business world, so how could I have forgotten our meeting? He’s supposed to help our business expand in the east. I have to be there.
I have no choice but to leave my omega.