I can’t help but smile, which makes her laugh, and as soon as I see her dimple appear, I let out a groan and lower her down another couple of inches. This time when she scrunches up her brow and lets out a soft hiss, I don’t stop. Instead, I slowly raise and lower her, fucking her with just half my cock, letting her get used to my size. The next sound she makes isn’t one of pain, and when I lean forward and wrap my lips around her breast, she throws back her head and lets out a sexy moan that threatens to undo me.
Flicking her nipple with my tongue, I tease her as I raise and lower her until she’s begging me to give her all of my cock. I give her nipple a soft bite before letting go and bringing my face back to hers.
“Kolya,” she whimpers against my lips, and that single word spoken in her sweet voice is all it takes. I may be stronger than her, but she’s really the one who holds all the power. I would give her anything, do anything for her, and tear down this whole goddamn world if it meant keeping her safe and close to me.
I kiss her and slowly lower her onto me, groaning at how damn good she feels. When I’m fully inside her, I feel at peace for the first time since she left. This is where I belong, and I’ll do whatever it takes to make sure we’re never parted again.
Running my fingers through her hair, I fist it and hold her still. Looking into her gorgeous, green eyes, I memorize every tiny detail of her perfect face. “I love you,” I tell her, “and I’ve missed you more than I ever thought possible.”
She gives me a sweet smile and presses her lips to mine. “I love you, too,” she whispers against me, and then she starts to move her hips and my ability to speak escapes me. The only thing I can do is show her with every part of my body how much I love and need her. I kiss her hard, groaning at how amazing she feels and how she opens her mouth to me, just as hungry for me as I am for her. Her fingers dig into my shoulders as she rocks against me, using me for her own pleasure, and I don’t want to miss a single second of it.
Giving her one more kiss, I gently push her back and give her a wink. “I want to see you take your pleasure, tough girl.”
Her cheeks heat up in a sexy blush, but she doesn’t argue or try to hide herself from me. Just like that night in the sauna, she lets her need take over and her body lead the way. Her lips part in a gasp, and the sight of her riding me is easily enough to send me over the edge, but I fight it, wanting this to last as long as possible.
“Fuck,” she moans, digging her nails into my shoulders where she’s clinging to me for dear life. Running my hands over her curves sends every cell in my body into high alert. Every single inch of her is my idea of perfection. It makes me believe in soulmates, an idea I’d always laughed at before, but I don’t know how else to explain the overwhelming sense of rightness at being inside her. When I grab onto her waist and speed up her movements, she lets out a whimper of pure ecstasy and screams my name as she comes hard, doing everything within her power to take me with her, but I fight it, unwilling to end it just yet.
I watch the amazing woman I’m in love with come undone, and it’s the most beautiful sight I’ve ever seen. Her green eyes are heavy-lidded and dazed, and the flush on her skin makes it impossible to not lean forward and run my tongue over her chest. She moans as I keep moving her along my cock while I tease her nipple with my tongue until she’s gasping and shaking and it’s only my strong grip on her hips that’s keeping her upright.
When I can’t wait any longer, I look up at her and say, “My turn, baby,” before holding her tightly against me and turning us so she’s lying on the couch and I’m hovering above her with our bodies still locked together.
“Kolya,” she says in a breathy rush that’s so damn sexy I can barely stand it. “Don’t go easy on me. I promise I won’t break.”
I smile and kiss her, my hips already starting to move. She wraps her legs around me and gives my tongue a suck that nearly pushes me over the edge. Knowing that she’s never shared this part of herself with anyone else is an aphrodisiac unlike anything I’ve ever known. I felt possessive of her before, but this takes it to a whole new level. I kiss her harder, needing as much of her as I can possible get, Snaking my hand beneath her, I cup one perfect, round ass cheek and start to fuck her harder, trusting her at her word that she can take whatever I want to give her.
She moans against my lips, rocking her hips as best she can, meeting my thrusts with her own so our bodies are in perfect sync with one another, and this time when she pulls back to scream my name, I let her take me with her. Her whole body tenses with her release, and with a primal growl that I barely recognize as coming from me, I let go and come so damn hard I’m momentarily blinded. Nothing else exists for me except this perfect woman I’m buried inside, and by the time I start to come down, I know with absolute certainty that she’s the only woman I will ever love and that I will never be able to fuck another woman again. It’s her or nothing, and there’s no going back. A thought like that should have made me run screaming from the room, but instead, I feel calm and at peace, and when she gives me a cute, loopy grin, I laugh and kiss her gently before rolling us over so she’s on top of me with her head resting on my shoulder and her hand cupping my face. Her fingers run through my light beard before tracing the lines of my tattoos.
“You’re an insanely sexy man, Kolya,” she says, making me laugh again.
“I’m glad you think so because I think you’re way out of my league.”
She laughs my comment off like I’m not being serious, but I most definitely am. She could do way better than me. She deserves way better than me, but I’m not such an idiot that I’m willing to let her go. Instead, I tighten my arms around her and pull her closer. I may not be worthy of her, but I’ll happily spend the rest of my life trying to be, and she may deserve a better man than me, but I know there’s no way in hell anyone else could love and cherish her as much as I do.
The feel of her dancing her fingers along my skin has me fighting back a yawn. I only managed about an hour of sleep last night in the car, and it’s really starting to hit me. The orgasm I just had isn’t helping any. All the tension has left my body, and when I kiss Moira’s forehead, she smiles and lets out a happy sigh.
“Why me?” I ask, because the question has been gnawing at me since I first discovered I’d taken her virginity. “I mean, I know you didn’t save yourself explicitly just for me since we just met each other not that long ago, but why not someone else?”
“When I was barely sixteen, I dated a real asshole who tried to pressure me into having sex. I said no, and he kept trying, and it was only when I gave him a black eye that I got him to stop.”
She feels me tense beneath her, even though I try to stop it, but goddamn that pisses me off. “He deserved a lot more than that,” I growl.
“Well, it did the trick anyway. That was the end of that, and I didn’t really date much after that. I wasn’t popular in school, and I was always the weird girl who liked to punch things.”
I can’t help but laugh at the image. “You are perfect,” I tell her, “and I’m glad none of those idiots could see what is so painfully obvious to me.”
She lifts herself up enough to look at me. “Thank you for saying that.”
“It’s the truth, and a very easy one to say.”
“I wanted to thank you for telling me about your past, too. I know it wasn’t easy, but I want you to know that I don’t care about what you did. I understand why you did it.” She cups my face and runs her thumb over my stubbled cheek. “I know what kind of man you are, Kolya. You’re not a ruthless killer. You’re a good, sweet man who was so torn up at the idea of possibly hurting me during sex that it horrified you. I know you would never hurt me and that you’d do anything to keep me safe. I trust you. You’re a good man.”
I’m so touched by what she’s said that I can’t speak for a second. No one has ever treated me the way she does. Growing up, I was unwanted, a nuisance more than anything else, and I felt completely and utterly unlovable. I hadn’t realized how much those thoughts still plagued me until Moira came into my life and showed me what life could really be like.
“Come home with me,” I say, grabbing onto her hand and kissing the palm of it. “Please come home with me.”
She gives me a smile, the kind that fully shows her dimple, and says, “Only if you let me play around in your kitchen.”
I laugh and give her ass a playful smack. “Deal.”